- y h -

2009-01-04T20:22:00.001+08:00

SHIFTED .

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2008-12-13T11:05:00.002+08:00

Memento Mori

finally an update after afa.

yeah after afa was sitex.

in the total of the 2 weeks, i lost abt... 1000 bucks off my bank account.

amazing right.

so now im scrimping and saving now.

also, i have got to more sensible abt my spendings now.

the title of this post, is a latin phrase that i came accross in one anime

mememto mori, which stands for " remember that you are still mortal "

how true.

while i spent this whole week of block leave suffering the fever and cough,

i was hit by a sucker blow.. just 2 days after praying for my family, mainly for my mum and brother's safe trip to thailand and travel there,

my mum disclosed this info to me

" your dad has 7 or 8 years to live if he continues to take medication for his heart problems, thats what the doctor told me. "

i certainly didnt see this coming.

8 years is definitely damn short.

i was never close to my dad, though i can tell he is a good dad.

based on what my mum always emphasises.

yet this good dad of mine will be gone before too long

this also had made me made up my mind of my future.

a future that i was still thinking has now been solidified.

i am not going to further study anymore.

its gonna make my family run into debts definitely.

so im gonna work after ns.

damn.

y h

2008-10-01T01:22:00.002+08:00

i decided to change a song so here comes yet another japanese song.

this one is quite touching

its from the series macross frontier,

which according to the masses out there, the best anime so far out this year.

while the ending could be done better, it still pwns cos of code geass inability to deliver a consistent entertainment

while code geass ending is good, it had some left to be desired episodes in between, ups and downs, which of cos lost to its prequel

still its a rather good show

of course, the season for this year isnt over without the winter season, and challengers for macross frontier are plenty, lots of quality anime coming out in october.. and here are the ones im most likely to be watching

gundam 00 - 2

no brainer. gundam fan = watch even though it may be sucky.

ef - a tale of melodies

the sequel to the show that brought me back to anime world. and its a must watch on my list

those 2 are on my must watch list, due to so little time thanks to ns.

there are several other quality animes like nodame cantabile paris, clannad after story... etc

lets hope it gets better.

anyway. for you to enjoy the space opera, macross. best soundtrack of the year... probably. unless ef pops up with something even better which is probably abit hard.

Live version of diamond crevasse - May'n (sheryl nome)

Megumi Nakajima (ranka lee) - Do you remember love?

Megumi Nakajima - What 'bout my star @ formo?

May'n - Iteza gogo kuji dont be late (Sagittarius @ 9pm , dont be late)

May'n - Northern Cross

May'n & Megumi Nakajima - Lion

of course these are just some of the great samples from macross frontier itself...

what a great visual and musical feast!

2008-09-20T12:02:00.002+08:00

dunno why just felt like posting suddenly..

been looking at old inactive friendster group accounts..

aka tkrcy, tk4k and such

these groups were created and gone just like tat

so are friendships..

it takes years to build a good friendship and suddenly in one fleeting moment

it just booms, its gone

yeah

so far i have only kept contact with perhaps 1 or 2 from secondary sch days. none from primary sch.

now the circle of iad friends are also dwinding due to many going/went overseas, ns and other unknown reasons.

perhaps the strongest grp of friends i have now are my batch of VIs .. though most of the outer layer is gone already... the core of us still remains.

which is good in a way

my army batch i think no more contacts oso so busy haha

and with my current posting.. i think will be too tired to even step out of hse.

somemore its bedok > lim chu kang

haha heard so many horror stories abt armoured infantry trooper .. how i am gonna survive is one question

haha.

anyway

tats it

y h

2008-09-02T14:43:00.002+08:00

hoho.

probably time to wipe some dust heh.

anyway why am i at home, on a wednesday afternoon, in front of my computer,

when really, i should be in camp now?

answer is simple, attend c. in other words, mc

yes, im sick and gonna book in later at night.

some much needed rest though im still sick

anyway.

bmt is ending, no more key events, everything done and dusted, with the pinnacle being the 24km route march..

some ups and downs but its all right.

im finally 72 kg which means its bmi 25. total weight loss = 15.5kg.

my body fat % oso took a tumbling. from an amazing 50+ % fat on my waist to just 24%

and my chest and thighs less than 15% from 30+%

which is good.

but there comes tougher training after bmt..

so am i going to clear them?

haha time will tell.

2008-08-10T19:53:00.002+08:00

week 10 is over!

and im officially 4 weeks away from pop.

hell the last week was physically gruelling.

but i endured and got through it.

and i must say im really proud of myself..

just the last week i couldnt conquer my obstacles.

now i can at least smile to myself that

i see some light at the end of the dark tunnel..

even though i may fail in the end..

i will not be at the very bottom...

im gonna fly!

book in lo

y h

2008-08-02T17:30:00.002+08:00

so i decided to update.

yeah . its already erm... 9 weeks in the army..

haha.

lots of things happened of cos, but wont go into details cos it will be really draggy.

of cos there have been ups and downs,

but the ray of hope given to me by yesterday's evening glow

will carry on to me

till the end..

till the next time i post.

i wish for you well

in everything that u do

i know we may not even see each other again.

but thank you for giving me a chance

to be what i am today.

as i read something today.

the hardest question a person could be asked is

" what is your weakness "

i would say

my weakness is myself.

i dont accept who i am

i try to be someone else im not

and thats why i failed time and time again

and my emotions get covered by time and tide

bah..

anyway on a lighter note , no pun intended, i have officially lost 14 kg.

which means my ideal weight of 72kg is only 3 kg away. though i still look like a blob of fat when i remove my shirt but its good progress haha

till next time

y h

2008-04-19T10:43:00.002+08:00

five days without being online.

now thats a record

partly due to work, mostly due to sickness

im still sick now.

every half an hour i will start burping to release the insane amount of gas inside my body

and i vomitted my dinner out last night.

even though by right im supposed to be well already.

nvm.

this weekend..

i will recover.
yes

anw job is really enjoyable with the nice colleagues and stuff

of cos i dont mind coming back to work,

but then what abt my architecture studies?

something to ponder abt.

now to get a little walk outside ..

eat a little someting. hope not to release it out immediately dats all..

y h

2008-04-07T22:25:00.001+08:00

great day!

today was a truly enjoyable day at work..

even though i took cab to work.

but the interaction level was amazing.

followed boss to meet client,

had designers meeting,

late night work!

fun :D

y h

2008-04-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

i wanted to work at first .

now it faded away even when i retook the initiative.

oh well.

other things to do then.

y h

2008-03-28T03:01:00.002+08:00

Requiem

Putting aside old miseries
settling on a foreign land
all that was started
was by a hope that keeps clinging

memories tend to stay
even foolish ones and painful ones
only replaceable by new ones
is what keeps the man going

meeting new acquaintances
sharing new joys keeping old warmth
nonsensical gibberish into the night
a start of a new time, maybe?

struck by the cruel minute hand
all comes undone
not even knowing the name
walk away into the dusk

as time ticks away
the distance grows
not knowing of the future
trying to cling onto the past
failure only awaits

maybe we'll see
each other again in some time
but right now
its adios.

i suddenly had the feeling to pen a few verses.

of cos all these are triggered from my thoughts. how can i write random stuff like tat.

any way dont think too much into them...

its just my thoughts anyway

but there are some things that are true

time takes away relationships

as time goes on,

the distance goes on

as aptly described in 5cm per centimetre.

" even if we were to exchange 1000 emails, the distance between us, wont shorten a cm "

distance and time

are the 2 killers

time erodes, distance puts up the painful barrier

the only way to get through

is to cheish ur time well together,

or just die with the fading thoughts altogether.

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side topic.

now that sch has ended, holiday ended.. i dont know what im gonna do for next 2 months

especially when im not working..

and then again

i will miss all my iad friends

i have shared alot of happy memories painful ones, sad ones, enjoyable ones..

3 years passed so fast..

i wonder.

if we will still keep in touch...

i asked the same qns to myself in sec 4.

and the answered was no.

the bond in iad seemed stronger..

but then

as it is always..

distance and time remains too strong..

i will probably fade away like the rest..

as a lone wolf never to see daylight again..

sound so emo. haha

ok

at least i typed some insight into this post.. not like my usual gibberish.

good night for now.

y h

2008-03-27T14:00:00.002+08:00

OHAYOOO

al righto.

im back from genting.

and i must say, its fun.

first time to genting,

first time doing things that i haven done.

etc, sit on roller coaster, rides, play bowling, etc etc

and we did some outrageously crazy thing like freezing to death in the cold cold night.

and i had to take off my shirt ==

even though its for a short while.

genting's weather is nice, cold and chilly.

but the altitude cost me a few problems

got sick on the 2nd day , due to tat game we played, didnt participate much. but still did.

ironic ah.

but its fun la

our group (me taibin elroy) went out mostly with the ai lih li jun & 2 friends group, whom we coincidentally met at genting.

haha.

: D

still of cos there are moments i cant stop thinking.

and as the date looms nearer..

the feeling is fading faster..

maybe is because of the warmth i felt

haha

random crap

y h

2008-03-23T20:33:00.002+08:00

out of curiousity merely,

i decided to give soapy anime a miss,

and watched akagi.

its an anime abt this guy named akagi, who doesnt know how to play mahjong, but promptly,

beats his supposingly superior opponent within the same night of learning.

i am on to episode 13 now.

and my god, the mind games he play.

this show makes death note looks like a baby crying.

that is serious.

even though the animation and drawing style may not appeal.

the anime itself is a genius.

lol

kk guess this is the last time i will blog for the next 4 or 5 days,

as im leaving for genting tml,

and man u will win later!

y h

2008-03-21T23:32:00.003+08:00

OMG

kanon is hell good.

now my favourite animators are kyotoanimation

of cos they are the ones who animated haruhi, clannad, lucky star.

anyway.

im thinking of which anime to watch next.. clannad?

but then again

shedding too much tears for the duration of 1 week is too much?

haha

gonna be away for the next week.. bz bz

tml, go sch finish up exhibition, submit, then meet batchmates for dinner

sunday, soccer with the usual ppl, night time soccer man u vs liverpool!

and oso mahjong :D

den take off for genting with my iad gang!

y h

2008-03-20T02:48:00.002+08:00

holy.!

i cant remember the last time i cried so hard for a show!!

maybe i cried even harder than the tear jerker "crying out love in the center of the world" which is my favourite drama ever.

every week, i announce that i have a new favourite anime series, and this week, kanon aims to trump all of them all.

i cried so hard that my eyes are all bloodshot now. and its only episode 10. how the hell i survive for another 10 + episodes! omg.

and im gonna watch clannad after kanon. clannad is by the same creators of kanon. maybe i will watch AIR too.. but all of them have sad plot.

argh

kill me!@

2008-03-20T01:10:00.002+08:00

alright.

havent updated since my birthday.

anyway. my birthday.

this year.

is erm.. how to say.. totally quiet as i have foreseen but not that predicted.

haha.

schside was understandable, due to dip show

but even my batch side.

lol.

anyway its good to have a peaceful occasion for once.

and im watching this anime called kanon, 2006 remake.

its only episode 9.

and im breaking out in tears already.

what ever happened to my manhood!?

but my god its a really really touching story

even though i know the next episode i watch,

wont have a happy ending for the makoto arc..

its.

argh!

y h

2008-03-15T00:26:00.001+08:00

hohohoho. hock has turned 2 decades old officially. although it feels like i've been living for 80 years old.

that said, i hope to live for another 80 years,

and therefore thats my birthday wish!

:D

If I am lost for a day
try to find me
but if I don't come back then I won't look behind me
and all of the things that I thought were so easy
just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest
in June there's the light
but this empty bedroom
won't make anything right
while out on the landing
a friend I forgot to send home
who waits up for me
all through the night
calendar girl who's in love with the world
stay alive!
I dreamed I was dying as I so often do
and when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window
threw my head to the sky
and said whoever is up there
please don't let me die
but I can't live forever
I can't always be
one day i'll be sand on a beach by the sea
the pages keep turning
I mark off each day with a cross
and I'll laugh about all that we've lost
calendar girl
who is lost to the world
stay alive!
calendar girl who is lost to the world
stay alive!
January, February, March, April, May
I'm alive!
June, July, August, September, October
I'm Alive!
November, December and all through the winter
I'm Alive!
I'm alive....

new blog song @ calendar girl by stars!

2008-03-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

one down one to go.

after tomorrow's dismantling, all that im left is the individual project, and im free to graduate.

haha.

how time flies.

so nostalgic.

anyway i was on an anime spree over the weekend, finishing up gurren lagann finally.

i must say it improved towards the ending episodes.

i thought it was abit dry after kamina's death

but certainly the second half of it is good

i would say its a man show yeah, but of cos i enjoyed better anime. (yl refuses to believe me!)

anyway. im watching kanon 2006 now.. after that gonna watch clannad.

just watched shigofumi 09.

its the most touching episode so far in the series. quite refreshing from the mystery theme-ed episodes so far.

i am so enjoying it.

and its great, since my gundam 00 episodes are held up,

but this means.. tat.. TWO WEEKS TO GO TO CODE GEASS R2 launch!

this summer season, will see a battle between 2 heavyweights

haruhi vs code geass

but im in the army =(

y h

2008-03-13T14:30:00.001+08:00

in school.

final days in tp.

diploma show.

while i have changed in some aspects,

i still cant get over the weakest flaw.

well

anyway.

presentation later

==

kk bb

2008-03-05T19:56:00.001+08:00

its such a bad journey towards the end.

2008-02-28T14:04:00.001+08:00

The color of that faraway day is in the white clouds that a faded blue blurs...
Inside my heart is a pain hidden from all.

The words into which I put my all already become distant.
In the midst of your loss, even now, you keep me warm.

Your voice is the light that silhouetted you.
Should it materialise, I would live on,
So that my voice might reach you, wherever you are.

Resounding from the sun-drenched rails is the voice of that distant day.
Beyond those clouds, even now, resides our promised place.

The loneliness that persists from some time ago is the spirit that grates me all around.
In the flow of time, I will surely lose you.

Your hair, with the world where cloud and sky have melted, is full of secrets.
Your voice, your gentle fingers and your wind-touched skin
Will make my heart strong.

Causing my heart to quiver, even unto eternity, is your back turned to me.
My wish is merely that I live on,
So that my song would reach you, wherever you are.

Your voice is the light that silhouetted you.
Should it materialise, even though we live in different places,
I would want to, gently and resolutely, live.

2008-02-21T21:20:00.002+08:00

my presentation is tml.

today there was this moment when i was caught

caught in a mix of emotions.

its like feeling sad, angered, frustrated, and listlessness at the same time.

but its often this type of situation

that forces me to go into my shell

into a mood or rather mode that i rarely go into.

when im in this type of situation

i will become super serious.

and work becomes extremely fast when i become serious.

whatever man.

i just have a dreadful feeling abt tml.

that

my project will become a failure due to the overwhelming architecture design

and the lack of interiors.

y h

2008-02-15T01:47:00.001+08:00

code geass

wah. fking shit. the last 4 episodes were so intense tat i had to skip dota and fyp for it.

in the end, im left hungry for more cg, and i simply cannot wait until the new season begins.

i almost cried in episode 23, when lelouch was on the brink of becoming good, and then something sad had to happen.

fk man.

this anime is holy shit.

y h

2008-02-14T02:02:00.002+08:00

just watched finish epi 21 for code geass. in the midst of chionging fyp.

wah

im speechless.

unlike alot of anime, no i should say all anime, even if its those good ones, there are surely one episode that will disappoint or is mundane.

in the case of code geass, every episode keeps me captivated

it keeps me guessing abt what is going to happen next, only to realise that im wrong!

its an awesome show, even if an episode appear to be harmless and peaceful, something will just happen.

haha. 4 more episodes to go, but its easily the best anime for 2007.

no wonder man.

damn i missed this boat.

nvm, once this 4 episodes finish den im ready for the season 2! which shortly after army awaits me....

y h

2008-02-10T15:12:00.000+08:00

to be honest.

i hate studying.

the only reason why i studied so much in primary school

is because of my fear of my tuition teacher.

but that fear somehow turned into motivation.

once entering sec sch,

i realised alot of things changed.

i took things for granted. played around,

and my real wake up call was during one meet the parents session.

my mother came.

my mid yr sec 4 results was terrible.

probably alot worse than what my brother would get.

it was 39 points for l1r5 if i remember correctly.

my form teacher told my mother.

at this rate, your son cant even qualify for ite.

i broke down immediately.

its a tough slap to ur cheek, right in front of ur parent.

after tat. i studied for the first time, and my prelim results..

was still terrible. 28 if i can remember. at most can enter an engineering course in poly.

and during that time, i sort of got deattached from the person i loved so much.

"even if you were to send a thousand emails, the distance between us wont move a centimetre."

this is so true.

i din study much for o lvls towards the end because i was kind of affected by an incident which took place.

in the end, i did well enough to qualify for a jc, but i know tats not my route.

i hate studying. my motivation to study is gone.

therefore, i just took a quick browse and pick 3 courses.

interior architecture and design.
industrial design
product industrial design.

somehow i have no idea why i chose iad as my first choice. i totally no idea at all. i guess its just fate.

anyway, i oso had some friends.. who was shocked at their poor english results.

me too. i was shocked. i got a c6. when i expected at least a b3.

many students from my sch. from an a1 suddenly f9.

it was reported in the news as well.

since such a thing did not happen to me.

i did not fully understand how they must have felt.

just because of that english. they missed the boat when they scored As for all other subjects.

its kind of sad.

the point i want to make is.

sometimes in life, not all things go ur way.

there may be a period where u just feel like suiciding.

u just feel like theres no point living in this world.

u desperately hope for a second chance, but all that god has given u is a tight slap to ur reality.

but when this happen.

dont say that life sucks.

instead. pick yourself up

prove others wrong.

prove yourself wrong.

that you can survive in this world.

that you can make the world revolve around you instead.

haha.

im saying this even though my grades wont qualify me for that 5 year nus course.

yeah. the grades are against me. if this semester results wont be counted.

i wont even make it 3gpa.

nvm. i will just apply. if i get it, i'll get it.

if i dont, i will wait until my final sem results.. and apply for next intake.

whatever i do,

i wont give up

because nobody has given up on me yet.

y h

2008-02-10T14:38:00.000+08:00

holy shit. code geass is great.

i kinda regretted stalling the watching of the series ahead of haruhi and gurren lagann.

since then i have chionged up till episode 9 of code geass.

what can i say.

theres the story, action, and intriguing moves.

its like watchin a chess game by itself.

anyway. gurren lagann. watched until 15. i kind of lost interest in the series because part of its storyline feel recycled to me.

anyway its still a good anime and i will finish it eventually.

but right now. code geass is the priority.

y h

2008-02-04T03:03:00.001+08:00

this is utterly true.

"The title for the show means ”5 Centimetres Per Second” and it resembles a metaphorical representation of human, reminiscent of the slowness of life and how people often start together but eventually drift away, slowly into their seperate ways. A depressing and harsh reality in life but it’s something that we all have to live with. In fact, I myself have gone through that phase before. This also includes late realisation of feelings, regrets and how each action plays a part in an effect."

stumbled on this review on byousoku 5cm by bjorn. and i watched the mtv for it.

true enough 5cm per second is not a show u will grasp it if you arent careful enough. some people think the story is painfully slow, but to me, its a very realistic portrayal of what happens in our lives.

distance will move apart people as time goes by. so damn true. no matter how strong ur bond is, if the distance is great, one day .. it will just fall apart.

y h

2008-01-31T02:55:00.000+08:00

Short update.

alright 15% done on my detailing dossier. so how come im blogging?

well. haha. needed to.

so crit 3 hasnt quite gone the way i would have wanted..

and i count it as a failure anyway.

failure is because i did not have the same confidence i had for p3

and because of that everything falls apart.

its reminiscent of the metabolist concept.

need to have a strong central core for it to work out..

in the end just didnt have that strong core of mine.

oh wells. look forward to the final production crit and external crit and oso dip show. AH!

on second note. been anime chionging.

other than shigofumi and gundam00, i picked up code geass based on recommendations from blogs and friends, gurren lagann, finally ah? yl keep telling me to watch so i had to give it a go.
and also the melacholy of haruhi. lol.

ok. i shall give my comment on the episodes i watched so far.

for code geass. i only watched episode 1. it seemed reasonably interesting to be crowned japan's number 1 anime at the awards, but i will be stalling this because save the best for the last? haha, episode 1's ending was abit twisted though.

gurren lagann. ok its not a bad show. im quite used to the style they use. actually it makes me think what the appeal of the show is?

it has a unique style.. ok
its storyline is actually rather simple (episode 13) so far. somehow reminded me of digimon season 1 with the whole four emperors thing. but when ep 13 ended. i think theres something huge gonna happen. i think that the helix king may have created humans for a certain pupose.. which is gonna be epic plot twist like what happen in Sola.

oso the first part of series main character. kamina is a super super similar character to that of masaru daimon of digimon savers. both talk abt spirit of man, both do incredibly stupid yet manly actions.. and everytime ends up well anyway.

e.g of similar actions. kamina swiping out a sword to face a ganmen while masaru using his fist to fight a digimon.

the only difference. is tat kamina died and masaru didnt. but still both are the same to me.

the death of kamina just serves to impact more.

storyline has been predictable so far. but i would say its an enjoyable and interesting anime and i shd be finishing it in a week's time.

i think there would be more plot twists oso.

ok. then on to shigofumi.

only 2 episodes so far. but i must say. im super impressed. this may turn out to be the best anime for 2008 based on its episodes so far.

shigofumi means a letter from the dead. when a person dies, he/she will have one letter to send to anyone. so yeah u get the jist of it.

first 2 episodes seems to be abt a short story. so im guessing that with episode 2 seemingly concluding the first one, i think this series is abt a series of stories that is linked to shigofumi.

my god. it started as a very innocently looking anime with nice characters and all. by the end of ep 1 i was marked all wrong. super plot twist towards the end, something i hadn really expected. and the main guy characted was killed in ep 1.

fast eh? episode 2 was even more intriguging and i shd not spoil it for u guys in case u guys wanna watch. i would see this show's genre as mystery/life genre.

it puts u in suspense all the time.. and when u think this character is evil, bad or whatever shit.. something just happens and changes ur mind. i didnt think the first 2 episodes would be so awesome..

anyway. its my pick for best anime so far in 2008. only 2 episodes . and its so good. U MUST WATCH. and i think if it continues this way. its gonna be the best anime in terms of storyline.

only thing i dont like is the opening but it shd grow on me soon.

y h

2008-01-24T00:56:00.000+08:00

ah!. its 12.56am. my crit is like less than 10 hours away yet i cant slp ...

anxiety building up on the 38 ppt slides yet 5 words only.

2008-01-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

the decisive hour.

around 12.15 pm tml. i will be standing in front of the lt giving my 7 minutes worth of presentation, to the panel of critics, and as much as i hope that it would go smoothly, i know it wont.

asking myself questions about my project stirs up major talking points of my project. haha. guess i just gotta prepare for it then.

anyway i bet i will be so nervous tml. even though i presented hell loads of time already, tml is different because its fyp, its a project im committed to, and mostly, its a project that will make or break me.

i have not received recognition for what i have done and im willing to prove it wrong. hopefully, by the end of tomorrow, i will be the victor and stand tall.

WAHAHAH. crap. lol . anyway wat im looking forward to is sushi buffet tml. I hope presentation wont be delayed too long cos i really don wanna miss the buffet with the iad peeps.

so yeah..

added note.

the anime i watched/been watching grows.

just watched finish gundam 00 episode 15. ah. despite some early disappointments in the series, this episode is hemming it up. though i dont like the suggestion that 3 new gundams just gonna bail them out in the next episode. abit the climatical anti-climax.

this new word, invented by me means:

it is a climax, because it hits the high point of the show, yet it is anti climax because its so cliched.

anyway. i list down.

ef-a tale of memories (completed)
sola (completed)
byousoku 5cm (completed)
the place promised in our early days (completed)
voices of a distant star (completed)
gundam 00 (ongoing)
shigofumi (ongoing)

picked up shigofumi recently, and its not bad. at first thought gonna be a philophisical and chill out kind of show, was quite surprised at the turn of events towards the end of the opening episode.

and i list down anime i watched since young until now.

digimon series(digimon adventure to digimon savers)
pokemon(if u count this as a series, but i gave up on it a long long time ago. its so stupid. always same storyline)
love hina (completed)
love hina again (completed)
one piece (gave up)
bleach (gave up)
gundam seed (completed)
gundam seed destiny (completed)
gundam seed stargazer (completed)
full metal alchemist (completed)
shaman king (gave up)

so with the list of anime i watched, i find it deeming that i post something like a mini awards show. o_o. haha inspired by the otaku blogs around. except that my awards are for anime that i watched so far.

Best Action: Gundam 00.
runner up: full metal alchemist

i know this sound stupid. because the show is still ongoing, but somehow i am a fan of gundam. and it just edges fma out even though fma is a good anime.

Best Soundtrack and Music: Ef a tale of memories
runner up: the place promised in our early days

this is a tight one. but ef just edges past. well. both anime' music are composed by TENMON, and there is no surprise. his music is great and somehow i preferred the climatic ups and downs of ef.

Best Animation: Byousoku 5cm
runner up: the place promised in our early days

this is a clear winner. its animation is of the highest quality, and its animation of the trains and stations and buildings puts our viz rendering to shame. both firms again, are directed by makoto shinkai, a master in storytelling concepts of distance and background animation and colours.

Best Art Direction: Ef a tale of memories
runner up: Byousoku 5cm

no challenges for this one. the use of monotonous tones to depict the story of miyako, the music to complement the situations, the use of metaphors, the use of powerful colours and photoshopping makes this one clear winner.

Best story: Sola
runner up: the place promised in our early days, ef a tale of memories

sola is an extremely enjoyable anime with plot twists here and there that you cannot foresee. its such a great anime . writer of kanon + designer of da capo 2 (im gonna pick up one of these popular series soon) = great combo.

i had to include 2 runner ups because i simply cant choose between the 2.

Honourable mention: digimon savers and love hina

after a 3 year absence from digimon, the series is back, with a whole new target audience and style. targetted at the teens, i think its one show i thoroughly enjoyed watching in 2007. love hina is the first "teen anime" i watched and its lure is amazing.

Overall Best Anime: Sola
runner up: Ef a tale of memories

despite me proclaiming that ef was the best i watched, then came sola. 2 million japanese cant be wrong voting it as the best anime of 2007, and i cant be wrong joining them either.

ok... so u think the awards are over. but theres still the worst anime awards.

Worst Action: Shaman King
runner up: one piece

enough said. jpg moving animation, cut and paste from manga, distorted images. nothing else i can comment.

Worst soundtrack and music: pokemon.
runner up: none.

LOL. other than the first season classic, gotta catch them all. this series songs sucks. big time.

Worst Animation: One piece
runner up: Gundam Seed Destiny
the animation simply destroyed one of the greatest manga of all time. being such an avid reader of the manga, it disappoints me alot. truly. and gsd is really disappointing.

Worst Story: Shaman king
runner up: pokemon

alright. an anime that shows alot of promise at the start just like the manga, only to end abruptly and so shockingly . it really is a no brainer. for pokemon. every episode goes like this. ash and his friends are on a new journey. and they get caught by team rocket. den somehow some pokemon beefed up and send team rocket flying again. how original!

Overall Worst Anime: Shaman King
runner up: One piece.

period.

2008-01-12T22:05:00.001+08:00

since i have really nothing to do now. i might as well blog.

i think i will get bashed up just for saying that statement.

in reality, there is a huge mountain load of work for me to do.

and im left with 5 working days plus 3 days of weekends.

in other words. its good game.

ok i shall post smthing random then.

there are certain things that i wonder about, but cant probe into/awkward to ask about.

things like how one can be so resolute and firm on a matter, but in a matter of days, totally shrug off that position and break out in immaculate laughters with that matter now.

it certainly makes me wonder.

like what in the world happen for that stance to be dropped.

anyway. not that it concerns me that much anyway. i cant help if its the way it is.

and yes. some things about. life.

although my dad has alot of negative factors. i mean its part of human nature to take note more of the negative stuff.

sometimes when u ponder more, look into details, u realise there can be things that are often overlooked at the surface.

things like how he will use his initiative to buy products to replace existing ones that are spoilt, things including saving for household, yet unrelenting in giving me pocket money.

things like exchanging products that wont work, which includes resealing of packaging. even if it costs only a couple of bucks...

are definitely something i wont do. its not negative. yet i feel embarassed. i guess that im really not confident of myself. still not thinking about the future.

man. think about the useless purchases i have made. i think its at least half of my pocketmoney.

i shd cut down.

yeah. that will be my 2nd resolution for the new year. not only on purchases, but also on household utility too. often i spend time in front of the com, when im actually doing nothing like now.

even my brother handles financial security better than me.

i have a long way to go.

y h

2008-01-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

ah an update just before a good night sleep. perfect.

so the design olympics is over. yes over.

our team went in with high expectations, cause we got 2nd last year and was unbeaten.

this year..

it started with a bang, with us winning 4-1..

but suddenly our complacency let us down.. in the 2nd game, the iad juniors whacked us for a record 5-1.

3 men against one man. talk about defending ==.

so after that our chances got slimmed down already.. but we were still in it.

and we won our next game narrowly. 2-1 i think.

our morale dipped alot. because our goal difference was so terrible.. and it would really take a miracle to catch up.

so then comes the miracle.

the redbull girls. came and suddenly after the redbull drinking, or according to taibin, the girls.

we were on a high and scored 4 goals within like 3 minutes? we whacked the iad freshies 6-1 . the highest margin score that day. i even scored my first goal of any tournament after i was let in one on one following a pass from elroy.

normally wouldnt even have chance to shoot as i play defence.

so taibin scored 3 and created an own goal for them.

but the BM team also drank redbull. they won iad juniors 4-2 .. which is quite amazing when they had lost their previous 3 matches.

according to fiq, the weakness of BM team is to let them quarrel internally. which didnt happen against us .

and we lost to them 4-2 too. ==

so there goes our chances of winning.

we won our final match 1-0 against the eventual champions. the dsc team. the match was heading to a draw when elroy hit a screamer from his own goal area to the opposite corner of their goal.

so we got third. which isnt bad i feel.

haha.

there goes our trophy dreams.

so recently have been fyping.

realised.

time isnt really on my side. 10 days left.

and my plans although finalised. havent drafted all of them finish.

lets take a look at the requirements.

Material/colour/lighting - NOT DONE
floorplans - ALMOST DONE
sections - NONE
elevations - maybe?
rcp - NONE
roofplans - none?

perspectives - none. unless u count exterior perspectives.
material samples - none. none. dead.
viz - not even a single plane modelled out.
model - in progress. ==
design detailing - NONE
construction detailing - NONE

ONLY TEN DAYS? HOW CAN!

FAIL!

y h

2008-01-05T01:37:00.000+08:00

recently i have been on an anime spree.. so neglecting my work right. haha

ok i shall stop watching and do work le.

but the recent ones i watched were quite good.

ef. fantastic art direction. in fact i consider it the best for an anime i watched. i wont talk much about it since i probably had in my previous entries.

sola. its storyline is good. and its ending abeit sad, somehow comes across as a happy ending, because its the one the protagonists have chosen.

i can see why its so likeable. it has alot of plot twists. unexpected ones. and its so addictive. because of the way the ending is portrayed.. i cant help it but pray that there is a second season. probably not man.. if there was a second season.. there would be much to elaborate on.

so ya.. better leave it as it is.. painful and sad it may be, but forever in the memories it will stay on.

byosoku 5cm. translated as 5cm per second.

ok this is sort of a movie. a movie about a series of short stories.. related.

first of all. the storyline is very simple. the essence of everything is very simple. no complicating plot twists or whatsoever .. but thats what make the movie so beautiful.

its animation quality beats viz rendering hands down.. because it portrays so much life. the stained walls, the reflective tiles, the smooth table top.. the view.. is something viz cant do.

the life .. actually. it comes alive. the way its directed is simply beautiful .. simple yet impactful sound track.. and this song. which is currently playing in my blog now..

oh man. its too beautiful

How much more do I have to lose, before my heart is forgiven?
How many more pains do I have to suffer, to meet you once again?
One more time, oh seasons, fade not
One more time, when we were messing around

Whenever we disagreed, I would always give in first
Your selfish nature made me love you even more
One more chance, the memories restrain my steps
One more chance, I cannot choose my next destination

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight
________________________________________
If I just wanted to avoid loneliness, anybody would have been enough.
Because the night looks like the stars will fall, I cannot lie to myself.
One more time, oh seasons, fade not.
One more time, when we were messing around

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At a street crossing, in the midst of dreams
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words I never said: “I love you.”
________________________________________
The memories of summer are revolving
The throbbing which suddenly disappeared

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At dawn on the streets, at Sakuragi-cho
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight

I’m always searching, for fragments of you to appear somewhere
At a traveller’s store, in the corner of newspaper,
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words I never said: “I love you.”

I always end up looking for your smile, to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If our lives could be repeated, I would be at your side every time
I would want nothing else
Besides you, nothing else matters

with lyrics like this, u cant help to feel for the song. in fact the song alone boost the movie by 200% effect.

it has also a sad ending. or rather an ending most of the viewers wont want to see. but its kind of a good ending too. afterall.. staying in the past doesn help. and u gotta move on. a long distance relationship is difficult to manage.. and if you dont move on.. no matter how many calls you make, emails u sent.. the distance between the two wont move even 1 cm.

wahahha.

ok. time to slp . tml soccer...

ah.... im feeling super emo. damn yl sent me all the emo songs.

ahhhH!

y h

2008-01-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

decided to change my blog song. to something more old school.

my all time favourite song by glenn medeiros. :D

2007-12-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

New year

time passes so fast. before the blink of an eye,

its 2008 already.

as the new year come, i hardly feel it this year.

weird right. maybe cause im still drowsy, or that christmas hangover is still up there.

whatever it is. its time to reflect on 2007, the highs and lows, and of course to start anew.

i cant rmb what happened at the start of 2007.. but certainly i have ended 2007 with a bang, even though its soft. and in the comfort of my home.

i also appreciate it that my dearest coursemates asked me to join them opposite my hse . but i just feel abit. erm. lol lazy. haha.

anyways.

on to 2008, and may it be as exciting, innovating as 2007! (prob not. army o_o)

oh yea my new year resolution.

is to .... DO MORE WORK WOOT!

y h

2007-12-31T21:00:00.000+08:00

do you have memories you dont want to forget?

ah!!. what a great feeling : D

go watch the show!

y h

2007-12-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

A tale of memories.

today i went to school unknowingly that theres no school. and its opened until 5pm only?

anyway i spent the day in school watching anime. merv was watching so was ken.

but they were watching some ecchi anime ==.

k. during this period without gundam 00 release, i was and still watching this anime called

ef - a tale of memories.

im up to episode 10 now, 12 is the last one. i came accross this anime because its also subbed by menclave, the groups that did gundam 00.

at first i watched it, because of the art direction, which is damn superb. but it dint really draw me in.

but as i watched more episodes, i began to understand something

to be able to appreciate this anime, you must really absorb yourself into it, its lines usually has a 2nd hidden meaning which is exposed over time, and when you watched it with your earpiece, or headphone to your ears...

wat can i say, its a heavenly composition. i have never felt such way about an anime before, so easily this tops this all.

the subtle sounds of waves, water dripping, wind, all adds up to a wonderful feeling i cant describe. the direction the show is heading towards is so good, that you feel you are being casted in the act itself.

along with the accompanying violin and piano pieces, it brings your body as a rhythm to the whole score itself.

oh man. enough of saying. i think words do not do this show justice.

as you know, im not a person known for providing synopisis. so ya if you guys wanna watch .. and i do recommend it ahead of any other animes. (including my favourite gundam o_o) ..

feel free to download it .. at http://www.mymenclave.com/ . don worry about being caught or what, the show isnt licensed as of now.

:D remember to watch it when you really have nothing else important to do, if not you will be drifting away from the show.

will update more after i watch finish.

y h

2007-12-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

breathe a new life into it.

life ends, earth renews, life born.

an endless cycle.

mistakes happen, opportunities come, and go

changes evident, nothing stagnant

still nostalgia prevents

one from going back to his lost cause.

the fateful day.

memories stuck, undone it can never be.

layed there like the pool of blood

bleeding carcasses, time heals

soon forgotten, new beginning.

y h

2007-12-26T15:58:00.000+08:00

400.

entries.

perhaps never so much thought provoking.

you sometimes wonder.

if its the occassion that makes the best out of a person, or the person makes the best out of an occasion.

i think it works two ways.

its the you, who makes decision, whether to drown yourself, sink yourself, or keep it to yourself.

whether its regret, or forget, its all up to u..

just dont drag others into it.

its yourself. to find the light out.

y h

2007-12-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

i like it that the chiong is slowly but surely coming back.
i like the late nights studio chiongs with my buddies.
i like how we get to work stuff out yet knowing theres really no end to it.
i like that we are still slacking in times of adversity.
i like it that my project may turn out to be a failure :(

:D

2007-11-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

the SECOND coming.

ok finally a post related to work.

its abit ironic since i haven posted my p3 work, and im talking abt my fyp now.

at the start of fyp, my challenge was whether i can repeat the success of p3.

it was a tough first month, maybe without the guidance of derek, my issues and concept fell apart..

i find myself lagging behind and a month just passed by like tat, with a lacklustre critique 1.

but, just like chris jericho second coming on RAW, im finding second wind as well.

while working on my massing model in school just now, i had a surge of inspiration just like how my rebirth concept came to me.. no doubt this time my concept had already came beforehand,

but the development was missing.

now, the development seemed to come, and everything is falling into place...

tomorrow before going out movie, im gonna go sch and complete my massing model..

oh dear, im afraid my project gonna turn out too architectural instead...

oh well..

y h

2007-11-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

oooh.

are you seeing things?

no you are not. rub your eyes.

you are seeing an UPDATE.

not exactly an update..

today i logged into my facebook after 2 mths mia from it.

of course this was prompted by the 300+ unread emails in my hotmail..

mostly from facebook.

i found this friend who added me.

shes my type of girl, but of course shes attached.

and its also been so long since i saw her so it doesn really matter.

im typing nonsense in the face of adversity. when i have only 2 pieces of work to show for tml's pin up.

im so screeeeeeeeeeeeeewed!

y h

2007-09-14T01:40:00.000+08:00

the break begins.

finally! the days of working, eating, crapping, working, staring at computer, presentation, pin ups.. are OVER.. at least for 1 and a half months..

its been fruitful, this project, and i think i did justice to myself..

will upload images of my board soon.. until then.. its rest and rest until tuesday napha test. get ready to fail, den i can go hibernate for 1 week le..

i wanna save money.. so tat after fyp can go on a short trip.

its been a fun journey.. but alas.. my group's tutor, derek lo is gonna have to leave us..

its sad really, since hes been a really good guidance, u can say hes the light that led us around..

haha.

alright.. one thing special about me is that, im able to remember most of my dreams.
lets say out of 7 days a week.. i will most probably remember 5 of them.

in the past week..

i had very vivid dreams every night..

but what hit me most was this 2 dreams on thursday and friday.

thursday..

i dreamt that an unknown guy.. shove me around.

and he reprimanded me.. shouted at me why i am doing this..

go and chase back the girl.

then i shouted right back at him,

shes attached dammit!

then the dream just ends like this..

it doesn matter if u guys don understand the above.. cos its really something thats more personal to myself.

although now she may not be attached, her heart still is.

its impossible to do the impossible, and my heart has already failed myself.. and so yeah..

the next dream the next night was very very unique, very interesting..

i dreamt that i went back to thailand on a trip, except that i took my friends along as well.

then theres this person i always talk to. at least now.

the reason why i talk to tat person may be due to the conversation factor, but i dunno.

then this person sat beside me and we joked around about liking and disliking (i refuse to use the word love, as its too strong)

then i also joked around, but in the end, said i dont like you.

then she suddenly disappear, and i went on a tiring journey to find her back..

eventually i did.. and she asked the same question to me again..

i think i said yes.

i dunno what i said actually. it was very blurry and vague..

but if i were to think, i would say yes..

why would i say no, when i try so hard just to get back..

this 2 dreams.. somehow connects to each other.. and maybe is telling me..

to move on, and not to repeat past mistakes..

maybe something more, but i wont bank on it.

haha. interesting..

ok.. sleep.

y h

2007-09-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

warcry

yest had the final interim pin up..

of cos there are still problems on my stuff. the perspectives especially.. but now im more worried about the material board..

i have an impression on what my final prep board will look like..

its gonna be a massive a1 x a0 board..

but.. the problem lies in the middle. the material board.

if i can get my materials samples den wont be a problem.. pray man.

ya for those who don understand the above part, don worry u are not alone.. basically very technical stuff regarding my field of work.. so no worries

the time now is midnight.. saturday already..

including saturday, i have eleven, 11 days left to the final pin up and presentation. its gonna be the biggest presentation i will have done in my life.. gonna present to whole of design school's lecuters.. massive man.. not forgetting the peers that would watch me and also juniors.

so far, this project, i have been on the fast lane.. everything i do seems to get approved at the first level, leaving time for me to do work faster than the rest.

but being at such a high pace also means more pitfalls, you are the first to explore, first to make mistakes, first to get shoot.

this is part and parcel of the life im gonna lead come the future 80 years (hopefully lol.)

today consultation, derek commented alot on my perspectives and he explained to us alot of things.. i think hes really a good lecturer, being someone from the industry, hes strangely not too technical. he doesn give you the direct answer, but leads you to it..

right now, my progress. concept all these settled long ago.. drawings generally done... modelling done.. maybe need redo paper model. but maybe not..

derek says im on the presentation stage already.. means i can start preparing my final presentation stuff..

but den i disagree with him. cos there are alot of details i havent look into.. which was my biggest flaw and still is.

despite working details inside sip, i still cant visualise details very well...

today he enlightened us quite abit..

in this situation, we are not talking about construction details, not how materials and walls and roofs are constructed, but rather, the way they are assembled.

some may ask. wats the difference? construction in layman terms refer to the building and structures, which is just so technical..

what he wants, assembly and joints, is design details.. how the details are connected to the concept, the story... yes even the smallest screw can tell you a story..

its really a pity he has to go back to the industry after this teaching stint ends when this project ends.. i would really have loved it if he became my tutor for fyp.

my philosilphy for this project is simple.. do work in sch, chiong in sch, at home = purely relax..

but this weekend.. i need to get going.. maybe do up some details..

but right now lets think of the battleplan for the next 11 days.

somehow 11 is one of my favourite numbers wahhaha.

1 Saturday

Deliverables expected:

editing of plans
new section
editing of current drawings

2 Sunday

Deliverables expected:

go grandma house (not exactly a deliverable, but since i havent gone in a long time shd do it soon)
sketching up of some details

3 Monday

Deliverables expected:
editing of 3d model, mapping problems.. lighting maybe
confirm details
draft out details

4 Tuesday

Deliverables expected:
start to draw out storyboard
discuss with derek on my presentation board (especially my 3d animation idea.. i had an idea while sleeping just now.)
consult aida about final presentation venue and stuff (has to do with my board)

5 Wednesday

Deliverables expected:
do my batch renders.
go out source for material samples

6 Thursday

Deliverables expected:
Source materials (if cant get on wed)
render. completion of all drawings finalised.

7 Friday

Deliverables expected:
storyboarding do and print out

8 Saturday

Deliverables expected:
Assembly of material board
presentation preparation

9 Sunday

Deliverables expected:
relax before the big week
presentation preparation

10 Monday

Deliverables expected:
Assembly of material board
Assembly of presentation board

11 Tuesday

Deliverables expected:
Final check, final preparations, sleep 8 hours

12 Wednesday

Deliverables expected:
prepare for the grand finale

2007-08-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

the light from the heavens.

haha. my frequency of updating has become like.. say 2 weeks one time?

cant be blame actually.

lately.. im getting the dose of working hard...

aiming and achieving..

i still remember the days of year 1.. when i keep nagging at yuzi for not doing work..

den come year 2 become he nag me..

but at least im glad now.. that i have become more studious (shdn stay studious in this term as i dont really study) even though it came really late.

i know i have given myself hope, by really focusing and feeling for the project.. im just so immersed in my project now that i would really want it to be built out.. even though its impossible.. i even dreamt abt my project yesterday haha.

hmm. what updates..

its really work and work .. nothing much.. but there was something really interesting yesterday..

admist all the work, i went down to velvet dragon to support our fellow batchmate qiutong in the nus sports bash paegent finals.

anyway it was really amazing that she won.. its like..

lets put in how her ex squad mates say:

" last time in our tkgs days, we would always discuss whos the most prettiest, and qiutong never had cut the mark! and now shes turned up to be some paegent queen!"

i saw the competition itself.. it was stiff, and judges include various modelling agencies and new urban male company..

i guess what made her won, was that she was very natural.. she never tried too hard to impress,
she really enjoyed it, and was truthful to herself..

even though she may not be the prettiest amongst all the contestant, her naivety and natural essence especially on the part where emcees describe the contestant (qiutong was a parade commander back in school) << LOL) ,

made everyone, even the neutrals support her..

the people beside us were all screaming for her. haha.

so whats the point of telling all this.

when we are around a particular person, or people, we tend to look at the person like who she is, and we will always see the person as himself or herself, no matter what changes occur..

changes are forever. its like 3 years back, most of us never expect yc or qt to change their fashion, dressing or image, for yc case even her language (=X) as yl discussed with me.

i was having a short but interesting talk with weiliang on cab home.

he was commenting that everyone is changing..

and i was commenting what would happen in 5 years time.

everyone will get settled down with their own lives, maybe even marriage..

its quite scary how fast time flies.. its like im just out of my puberty.. and now.. im nearing 20.

today.. on my way out of sch, me and my friends saw a very mystical sign.. a rainbow around the full moon.

a few days ago got rainbow around sun..

is it for the worse or better, the way our weather is changing so rapidly.

cant be help.. we are responsible for our damage to the environment..

i cant help but think about the calm before the storm..

maybe the skies are trying to tell us.. stop before its really too late..

but really.. not many ppl are taking notices of it..

but of cos..

like what the rainbow suggests,

theres hope.

y h

2007-08-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

the marathon continues.

so long nvr update!

maybe cos due to the fact that i have been buzying doing work, work and work...

last fornight's disaster is becoming a sweet dream for me.

on national day eve, went pitstop cafe, 28 of us, to celebrate dearest yi er's bdae.

very enjoyable, think we almost drowned the whole cafe with our voices, with our celebrations.

haha.

after that chilled out at macs @ circular a while before zhao-ing home.

the next day, had a fantastic day out as well.

national day @ marina!

with some of my batchmates. although lots couldnt come, i believe we had an enjoyable outing that day, kite flying!! how long since i last flown a kite!

and im really amazed how high our kite flew! once our team(me, clarence, edwin, yl) got the technique right, our first kite flew AWAY! so there was this joke about the kite landing in time for the nat day parade.

2nd kite our team bought, amazing.. we just flew the kite high and beyond, tie to a tree and have a picnic and laugh at the other team!(yc, zaidi, suyin)

at ard 7, edwin went off, and we went to opposite the floating platform to join the crowd to watch the parade and fireworks.

fantastic view of the fireworks although sadly we dint manage to catch the parade. after that, went home in a rush as next day got interim pin up, and havent done a shit yet.

but as usual you know, i did not get any work done! i just went home, bathe, sleep, wake up like.. 5am to do work. When i woke up, the contents from the indian art book i have been reading suddenly started relating to me, its as if a concept started to take place right in front of me!

it was really exciting to have a concept that i thought was good, and most of all, something that i would normally wouldnt have thought of.

i will update my work at the end of this week, which is the end of part 1 of our major project 3.

So, went the interim pin up, was quite confident, and thought i presented alright. Derek accepted my idea, and off to the weekend!

Saturday, seriously was slacking, and went school around 1pm to do work with yuzi and kenny. did manage to do finish the brainless work.(old plans and sections drafting) and went off to orchard to meet huda and co for swensen dinner. pretty ordinary. saw jimmy on my way there.

very coincidental, he was going dinner at swensen with his friends too! so we had dinner, then parted, as everyone was feeling tired.

the next day, woke up and chionged my stuff.. odd thing is that i just couldnt concentrate. only did finish half a proposal, and chatted/slept whole day.

then, monday finally school!

went school and derek had a shocking news for us. DO NOT REMOVE THE PARTI WALLS!

actually i sort of agree, removing the parti walls will cause the shophouse to lose its significance and we might as well do a bungalow instead.

I spent half the day brainstorming and sketching for a new layout to align my concept with, and manage to start my model making that day, did abit, brought home, slept, woke up at 6am today to do my model.. did half of it, and went school for consultation.

Although i was confident about my scheme, i dint expect it to go down so well with derek. Afterall, hes a recognised person from the industry, and does not give the "go" sign as often. So, when he told me to go ahead, i was happy, believe he was too. and spent whole day do model..

almost finished already by the time im typing this. left external stairwell touch up here there, and im done. shall do tomorrow morning when i wake up early again...

otherwise.. p3 is becoming a smooth journey for me.. actually too smooth.. im rather scared that something will crop up...

lets pray.. third time lucky please!

:D

y h

2007-08-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

beneath it all

all my friends. well. almost all my friends seem to know me for what i am on the surface,

there are things that are perceived things that they din know and things that i cant quite explain.

tomorrow theres a last minute presentation.

finally our grp stuff are done .. i hope.

its tiring.

i cant wait for the freedom of thursday..

even if it is just for a moment..

cause i know, once thursday passes, it will be chionging again.

sometimes work is good. at least it limits my time to think about other stuff.

but sometimes it isnt good..

life is a double edged blade.

it just never ends.

its about whether you can persevere and move on.

or lay down and be defeated.

i was rather sad over the weekends. (fri-sun). but it doesn matter anymore.

cause it was never made to be mattered.

listening to my blog song somehow just made it worse. haha.

alright then,

till next update,

y h

2007-08-06T02:43:00.001+08:00

You feel that you're lonely
It doesn't prove that you are alone
You feel that nobody wants you
It doesn't mean that no one cares about you

Listen to words I say for I will always by your side
You mean everything to Me and I will never leave you cos I love you so

If you think that you're nothing
Before Me you were something beautiful
You think that you can't do anything
But you can do a lot of things with Me
So listen to the words I'll say for I will always be by your side
You mean everyting to Me and I will never leave you cos I love you so

Reff:
When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you
When I say that I love you I will give everything for you
No more fear about the future and blame for the past
I give everything when I say that I love you

You think that you're nothing
Before me you were something beautiful
You think that you can't do anything
But you can do a lot of things with Me
So listen to the words I'll say for I will always be by your side
You mean everything to Me and I will never leave you cos I love you so

Reff:
When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you
When I say that I love you I will give everything for you
No more fear about the future and blame for the past
I give everything when I say that I love you

Bridge:
I want you to know that I die for you
I want you to know that I give all my life for you
When I say that I love.. say that I love you

Reff:
When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you
When I say that I love you I will give everything for you
No more fear about the future and blame for the past
I give everything when I say that I love you

I give everything when I say that I love you
When I say that I love you I really do
When I say that I love you I really do

2007-08-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

FKED UP DAY UPDATE

i will always rmb this date...

1st to 2nd august 2007.

the most fked up period of this yr.

it all began in morning... everyone in studio doing up their indi design brief... only a few.. no at tat time only me.. doing grp stuff.. doing the fotoshop thing..

so.. come afternooon modelling team start doing model... yet some ppl whom shall not be named go do indi stuff... and end up im only person whos doing storyboard.. wif xinni doing the contents..

so in the end.. i have ppl coming to me say yonghock, can i have the siteplan floorplan?

i was like " .... , come on instead of asking me this, cant u like ask me wat im doing, or whter u can help out? "

so in the end all do until... 11plus.. security guard chased us out.. me jiatee and jonathan go my hse do model.. i touched up on storyboard... do until 3am.. b4 left sch.. michelle supposingly called this guy called alvin who is a friend of wendy.

renee and aaron oso come my hse.. at ard 2am.. den as we were leaving .. to print at this shop owned by alvin.. i called him.. he give me tat super duper SIAN voice.

" hello, is that alvin?"

" yes...."

" so we are printing later right, im a friend of michelle"

" dunno..."

" all right, im coming over now to print. "

" ok... "

HANG.

25 mins later.. on a truck .. (aaron)

reached tat freaking place.. selegie road..

called tat guy..

" sorry, the number u jus called is CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE , please try again later "

he was out clubbing b4...

my conclusion. he only entertain girl requests.

wat a jerk ==

xinni came a few mins ltr. 22 bucks cab fee ==.. in the end aaron drove us back to my hse... and left.. so me and xinni do design brief.. but so tired until cant tink.. early morning tat go sch on dads car.. 7am tat alvin guy called again.. in a DIFFERENT TONE.

" hey hi, im sorry, did u try and called me just now? my phone was weird. hows your printing stuff? "

" ... nvm, we will print in sch "

" ok"

HANG.

in the end went xorex at 8.30am... and tried to print..

BUT.

when i give the lady my stuff.. to open.. she go open other ppls one oso.. so run 3 prog at same time.. many files.. of cos lag.. in the end had wait for 40 MINUTES for my stuff to START printing..

BY THEN, derek summoned us already, cos late for presentation.

in the end whole grp cant present.. minus 10% already..

so ya.

== fked up day.. went home and slp.

truly fked up.

but the next day was a better day.. yeah... blog abt it later.

y h

!@$@#%#^

2007-08-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

"Welcome To Wherever You Are"

Maybe we're different, but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden, running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end

[Chorus]
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel your drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyones a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different
Just take a look around

[Chorus]

Be who you want to, be who you are
Everyones a hero, everyones a star

When you wanna give up, and your hearts about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes

don really feel like updating today. quite sick. tml ah.

merv: i will update tat fking fk up day tml ==

2007-08-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

bad day

Nobody knows
Just why we’re here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here

i had the most fked up morning in my life.

in conclusion a bad day, add to the not sleeping..

==

sucks.

i tink im gonna slp soon..

damn tired.

y h

just close my eyes..

2007-07-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

The return of the Nightmare.

O_O_O. 9am to 10.30pm in sch! this sounds freakishly familiar.. yes guys.. im back to the studio lifestyle..

finally project 3 is picking up the pace!!!

actually im quite happy today, we managed to get many things settled, and our model is looking good..

haha. hope its a success.. have 1 more day which is tml, to finish up group presentation and individual one.

individual more or less settled on.. just tat design brief need to have more research and details injected into.. but my plans haven draw finish.. die liao. tml really gg. somemore no printer.

im gonna wake up at 6.30am and hope.. no MUST finish the freaking floor plan by 8am. den go sch.. do up grp stuff.. tink by 2pm need come up with storyboard le.

i aim by 4pm do my individual stuff up.

this also means.. i have lesser time to play and go out.. and more chance to gain weight.

negative ==

nvm

its time for my redemption.. and this time pls no empty promises.

alright, bathe and slp.

y h

2007-07-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

cough cough cough.

sian

==.

COUGH!!

so lame ==.

nothing to do. got thing to do. don want to do.

dunno wat to say man.

maybe i shd go on a mini hiatus until the end of p3..

anyway think of my concept while in the toilet just now liao.

toilet is the thinking place!

end-

2007-07-28T16:58:00.000+08:00

The next wave

first week of p3 has passed.

good or bad, its still early to tell. but i think our group has been moving at the slowest and most unstable pace..

aida's group seems to be the best, their organisation, their members.

aiya, whine and cry also no use, accept it.

yeah.

i was pretty upset yesterday.

because of several decisions made, its as though i was appointed group leader just for the name of it.

it doesnt seem tat i was able to make any decision, puppet maybe.

but its ok now.

yesterday finally touched alcohol after a 3 week absence, man.

nothing much.

everyday almost .. go little india site studies.. and on the first day we saw flasher!

lol.

ok la i dunno wat to blog.. maybe going out later..

y h

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

2007-07-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

chiong my des study ppt yesterday.. 38 slides lol..

today went sch for p3 briefing.. i must say tat its totally new to me..

conservation.. grp .. everyting..

tml going little india for site study

oh ya aida say she saw me at marina on saturday

hahaha. diaos

kk change my blog song..

more chill

y h

2007-07-21T01:07:00.001+08:00

this has to be the most boring week of my life.

fullstop.

i quit np le.. cos gt frozen ==

y h

2007-07-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

Conclusion.

all right.

so i been informed tml no sch, tuesday no sch.. sian so slack.

tinking of going out on tuesday.. see how it goes ah.. anyone want date me?

u know..

its always the same cycle of exciting waves.. and the dull backwash..

so ya its boring.

nowadays when im out, im glad tat i feel energised.

but oso going out less frequent liao..

lol.

this is very bad.

friday soccer.

kinda bad, or good. good ba. lol. words tat doesn mean anything. esther said she saw me at itas after soccer.. and called and waved to me. but i din see.

no wonder i had an illusion or rather feeling tat someone in rcy tat i know was nearby.. but din see haha.

saturday dammit man. go for apel. 11am end. den i went back home get stuff.. arrive 1 hr late for seoul garden lunch.. end up spend 1 hr for $24 there. totally not worth.

best is den i arrived at crd at 2.40. only to find out it ended.

good game man.

den was the strategic review.. was posted to mrs tan sin yen's grp.

quite good la.. but dunno if the feedback gonna turn into action..

talk quite alot.

den after tat was my batch own strategic review. at a pool junction LOL

and clarence lost 4 games in a row! amazing.

haha. after tat meet up rachel ky sharlyn manyan for dinner..

den off to tcc for coffee.

den we followed a super "fever.high" vincent to carrefour.. look look see see.. den go home

go home read bleach until 7am.

today wake up, saw zen online. so amazed . had a game wif him.

other than tat. NOTHING LIAO.

y h

Maybe, after all this while
i was wrong.
She is not the one i am looking for.

maybe.

2007-07-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

i just got up from bed..

couldn slp anyway cos was coughing.

so got up do a bit of work.

my sip stuff and also a minor photoshop issue.

took my medicine after 3 days of not taking.

thought i recover but actually not fully.

looking forward to tml soccer!

: )

2007-07-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

The Start.

okok.

where do i start frm.. seriously i do not know..

haha!

lets just said this week general update.

- PRESENTATION

despite the differences we had as a big group, i think presentation scraped thru ba.. no choice too big grp, differences in ideas too many.

- INDIVIDUAL ASSIGNMENT

this is perhaps the most impt assignment so far. its the pre-major project selection topic..

hmmm.

i have in mind on wat to do.. but to fomulate a design brief... is difficult..

wat shd i do? interior design basis.

leisure?

institution?

hybrid?

- DOTA

recently dota alot with elroy and his friend alven.

quite fun.

and also crap alot in sch and outside sch.

good.

- SOCIAL LIFE

i think im getting less and less social. only one grp of frens ask me out.. the rest is either i need to go ask them myself, or have to organise. terrible.

==

- NOTHINGMUCH

kk. nth much.

yes serious.

u sure u dont want my autograph b4 i turn famous?

y h

2007-07-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

cough cough cough!

this few days lethargic like wat..

due to tat cough and nose.

damn sian sia.

everyday stay at home play dota.

lol damn no life.

wat to do. no choice.

have to stay at home unless i want to infect all my friends

kk nothing much to blog abt really.

really.

y h

2007-07-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to blog about.

blah blah blah..

its bored today.. especially with the tissue over usage and somewat flu coming to me.

lol but today i influenced some of my iad coursemates to play neopets. i even got pictures to catch them red handed.

MUAHAHAHA!

y h

2007-07-03T03:15:00.000+08:00

update <<<<

lol forget abt h weekly again ahha.

nvm ah

Updates from last monday to today.

Monday -
First day of sch. quite slack. just go in listen perry lecture abt design study and form a grp and go home.

Tuesday -
Go sch listen lecture again. boring.
nothing much

Wednesday -
Went sch for meeting.. with grp members elroy huzair shahid aaron james. den after tat ate at des sch b4 went off..

Thursday -
Went to site visits. syafiq tagged along too.
we went to national museum (NMS), smu, and st andrew cathedral.

nms was pretty much the same as last visit, cept they changed the exhibits below...
day not as nice as night, i think we shd go around 6-7 so can see how the sunset affects the design.

st andrew, we went there basically study how a church works. ok la. not much oso.. but its peaceful there.

smu. we din do much there, cept go to the canteen.

after tat went hq see got ppl or not, in the end p1 oso not in, so i went off and buy my street soccer shoes.

friday
went sch listen lecture, thought need to present but luckily perry say no need. so nvr present.
b4 tat i was quite angry at some ppl for trying to play a prank on me even though in 5 mins time i have lesson.
i done nothing wrong and i wont apologise.

went cut hair after tat.

Saturday
went to play soccer with chit yen hao jie and seng yong... its first time we din win any matches... dunno why all of us cannot play well tat day.. went my hse slack a while after tat and bath, b4 we went kallang to watch singapore last soccer match.

so we reach kallang. and syafiq saw me. so i said hi, den continue on. i told them, use my tactic.

follow the crowd. wont go wrong one.

in the end, some smart guy called hao jie said hes sure got bus go stadium, and led us away frm the crowd into an uluated bus stop to wait for bus 11.

basically. we waited more than 30 minutes for the freaking bus, when in fact we could reach stadium within 10 mins.

best is when bus come, it went loop. and so we ended up at stadium 1 hr late.

den another smart guy called chit yen even better.

say want buy foood and drink ta pao inside stadium, so he say go leisure park.

and when reach there, leisure park is closed for construction and renovation. and we went all the way back to stadium.

haha of cos i was complaining all the way. den met seng yong and his friend.
sat down, and unluckily for us. in front us got some over enthusiastic supporters...

including one guy who looks sparstic, probably is, keep using his camera like some idiot, zoom in zoom out, switch iso from 50 to 400.. and zoom in zoom out....zoom in zoom out. and ended up not taking a single photo. and when he took photo, he took tons of it...

best is the photo he take is all the same view, same target. i dunno wat to say.

ok don bastard ppl liao. its not good. karma.

watch aus vs sg.

sg in first half 2 one on one chances but miss!. schwarzer damn pro.
den indra crashed a header onto the post!

after half time, khairu amri curled a shot and hit the post again! in the end sg had to pay for their misses, when aus showed them how to score. 3 shot on target, 3 goal.

after tat went kfc eat, and seng yong finsihed i think 5 cups of freeflow.

den went home...

Sunday
early in morning wake up supposed to meet chen qiu tong to go zoo with ky and clarence. in the end, miss chen woke up late, and continued slping till 10.45!

so the 3 of us stuck at cck. and decided to catch a movie at ps instead. wa reach ps le. call qt, she said. im still at home. i nothing to say.

so we look around, here there everywhere, while waiting zaidi and qt. den call qt again, she said. "stepping out her hse" wa.

so we wait again, and amazingly qt reached a few minutes earlier than zaidi. aiya since her leg injured, give her chance. lol

after tat watched transformers. the animation is nice, but i think the fighting scenes are too detailed.. making us look senseless when it happened. its like u see chunks of metal flying everywhere, btu dunno wats happening.

ok la not bad the movie, but i stilll cant accept the fact tat a truck can change into a robot.. and so big somemore. and optimus prime sucks. i mean they din show his supposingly good skills.. when fighting megatron.

after movie, went pool with qt ky clare.
lol. won some games, lost some games.. saw guo zhong and his rj friends at pool oso.

after tat met rachel, and said bye, she and clare went off. den had dinner at ljs with ky and qt.
after tat went home.

Monday
went site visit. this one we divide into 2 sub sections.

elroy aaron shahid - Team School

Chosen topic: Design Schools.
Chosen Schools to study: NYP, TP TDS, NUS Architecture

hock huzair james - Team Museum

Chosen topic: Museum
Chosen to study: NMS, SAM, ACM.

so i went meet james and zair at raffles, and we went acm. quite impressed by the way they showcase their artefacts. there was a high lvl of interactivity, but tats it. there were some interesting spaces, but overall , its alright.

went SAM, and im disappointed. they dint change much since the last time i visited there. the only change is the addition of some new exhibits.. but cannot blame la, can see the budget is much lower.

Went NMS again. this time we visited the fortcanning extension. its super nice. i want to go inside one of the exhibit space... but no time no money so too bad.. if only can say im from w architects, can let me in. lol

went hq, visit again, saw bertha clarence(not my batch one) and huda.
hudas hot date came and we helped her out a little.. waited until p1 out frm meeting... den after tat i went home eat dinner, den went out again. to airport send the iad ppl going to korea off..

and now im here typing..

im gonna slp le.

this entry damn chat like.. cos i damn tired and lazy..

after all just update right..

ok

bb

y h

2007-06-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

first week of sch over.

it feels like chalet instead..

design study supposed to be impt subject.

nvm next week onward its gonna toughen up..

haha.

enjoy the song.

gonna slp now tml playing soccer, watching soccer, dreaming soccer.

y h

2007-06-24T14:08:00.000+08:00

h-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekly!!!!!!!
Issue06-june24
published by hockproductions.

foreWORD

H WEEKLY, the most entertaining online lifestyle magazine spread is back after a long two week hiatus! Also, this would also be the last H WEEKLY of the holiday and we hope you will enjoy this exclusive weekend publication of H WEEKLY! (supposed to publish on friday, but due to logistical concerns, it was delayed)

h-LIFE

So where do we begin? This holiday has been one of the most busy one for H, as he attempts to shrugs off the "lifeless" tag given to him. He has been scaling mountains (molehills actually), battled ravaging seas (riding a boat on sea actually), and also busy chasing skirts. (dont ask us about the result)

In conclusion, it is INDEED a busy holiday for H. We shall talk about this explosive past week in detail.

From last friday.
SETTLERS CAFE @ clarkquay

H was out with huda,max,brose,van,the double d's. (daphne and denise), nicholas. As mentioned on huda's journal (which sadly is not as popular as H weekly), they were not the most noisy group due to some intense strategy involved. For pictures please refer to Huda's journal, we are providing some free publicity for her.

Also, some blatant cheating by max and nicholas, of course great strategical thinking by H and everything. Overall, it was quite an enjoyable event.

Weekend was a chill out weekend,
as H stayed at home. (i think.)

Monday
H decided to helped out in the hilary challenge because it starts with H too.

What can i say about the event? nothing much also, because theres really nothing much. The group went to PS after the event to have makan and saw a pathetic spongebob squarepants and a sandy ==.

Tuesday
It was JH birthday, so it was celebration time after his work. Went to Fish and Co with xinni, syafiq, mervin, kenneth, jianhuang(lol of course) elroy and taibin. Had some promotion seafood platter shared with fiq, and was given a soft toy, and so we gave it (some octopus) to jh.

BUT, not before mervin made some crude jokes about the octy. Details cannot be disclosed here due to adult content, and underaged readers.

Wednesday
H went out with fiq, james, mervin to ubin to cycle. it was a tremendous trip, and also treacherous routes. i will let the pictures do the explanation. In summary, it was road trip(wild hocks!), lost in the routes, muddy muddy bikes (thanks to mervin), dry mud splattering all over your face and body as the bike rode downhill, cramps, and success!

Thursday
ECP cycling. H had to endure 2 hours of waiting time with huda. Every passing minute was torture and finally H couldnt take it anymore when huda started playing with marbles, and H was praying to god that ambrose and weiren come in 10 seconds if not hes gonna die. Then miraculously within seconds, Ambrose called. And off to cycling.

It was alright, not that tiring and everyone went separate ways after the event.

Friday
H went out for dinner at food republic at wisma with jh, fiq, elroy, and mervo. After dinner, jh and fiq went home while the rest of them met up with kenny boy, andrea and alicia. Actually intended to go drinking only, but somehow mervin led us to MOS, and so went clubbing instead.

It was not as fun as last time, but overall still quite ok. Attempt to get mervin drunk failed when he ran off halfway.

After that, went mac then back home.

Saturday
H went out with khooyu, zaidi, yeelong, jocelyn, (su yin left early), manyan, and rachel to vivo.
Played arcade a while, H totally owned everyone, whether it was time crisis or racing. oops. after that, walked around, and went dinner at LJS. Then, followed the girls around as they window shopped. while the guys sat around.

Sunday
which is today, nothing much really, last day before school starts!
end of holidays! (no more neopets. OOPS. i dint say anything)

Reported by:
"the cute wonder" hockie

moodFORECAST

This week : sunny scorching hot
Next week: end of the sunny period as the rain starts falling

Reported by:
"the one hit one kill" ah-hock

h-RECOMMENDS

This week is pretty simple.

Reported by:
"the only one" y h

afterWORD

Yes, no more sections, the editor has tired out, so enjoy!

"the lazy news"
Chief Editor
H

2007-06-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

hahaha

im almost halfway. no shd i say 1/4 way through reading my blog archives.

i din know last time
i can write so well one. quite shocked.

before i go
lay a heaven in my nest
send me rain in my hell
let me lie in my eternal doom
through tear streaked nights
pain is my pleasure
blood is my only desire
Give me joy i hate
thrust me into neverending abyss
lastly
Tell me that what i say is not going to be true...

omg! did i actually write down this shit?

haha. amazing but true. haha. kind of funny to see my super enthusiasm for rchq activities 2 years back.

heh heh.

anyway today biking. was a thrill.

i dint tire anyway. compared to ubin, ecp is like a playground.

but its fun anyway!

haha

full updates tml!

y h

2007-06-20T23:50:00.001+08:00

First of all.

my ass hurts.
my leg cramps.

haha.

today ubin bike trip was a success i guess.

but i dunno how im gonna cycle again tml.

i probably emo one corner of the beach and build sandcastles and watch the sea devour them.

damnn!

full updates for the month and week. H WEEKLY on friday. dont miss it!

y h

2007-06-19T13:11:00.001+08:00

wahahahaha

because of this freaking new layout. which im still not used to.

i read the archives of my blog since its now accessible. my god ahahaha.

cant imagine i used to write like tat. so damn lame and funny.

and my thoughts haha.

nvm haha its part of learning.

anyway. i lazy post picture but have been going to settlers on friday with some friends, help out in hilary challenge.. and later going out celebrate jh bdae (mind cafe ==)

anyway settlers was quite fun. after i regain my strength from the sickness, i think im quite on now. muahahahha

perhaps its good in a way, it disguises my weakness heh.

haha

wednesday going ubin cycling. later i gonna go buy some first aid stuff.

thursday ecp cycling! looking forward to this one to. haha

life is enjoyable, so let me just enjoy this period : )

by the way, if u all dont like the song, tell me, i go change. cos some ppl may not like classics like this.

haha

y h

2007-06-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

waaaaaa

its getting weirder this sickness!

yesterday b4 i slept i struggled abit. or shd i said took me 2 hours of battle
on the bed b4 i could slp. and of cos 1 hr of online tat was unintended at first.

during those 3 great hours. my body was sweating and drying so fast tat i dunno wats wrong.
even with the aircon and fan blasting me.

today when i woke up everything shd be better.

yeah it was better.

except tat i foolishly knocked my left knee onto something sharp and i cut it, and theres a stupid blood clot there. SMALL one though.

and i been to the toilets so many times today. my god. yes even though i have eaten like just porridge today..

its another trip there b4 i slp.

i do hope tml i will get better if not i am really gonna go to see the doctor.

i really hope i wont miss outing on friday becos of this.

sickness really make u pessimestic but if im online means im still alright la.

hahaha

tml. go away, all the headaches, stomachaches whatever aches

GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!

on a good note my nauseau is gone but the lethargy still stays.

GAN B A T T E !

y h

2007-06-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

i just taken my anyhow see in the fridge and take medicine.

my body is telling me to hit the bed again, im like hot on outside, yet shivering and numb too.

this is real bad. hope i can recover b4 friday.. if still remain like this tml. i think im gonna see the doctor le. i hate to though.

so why am i not slping yet.

i feel tat i really need to blog this down. i dunno if ppl will read it, but i still need to blog it down.

after yesterday. it was such a good day, even though it ended bad.

i was still surprised my grp still rmber me haha. so nice.

whole day ck was discussing with me talking with me.

theres nthing much we can do, if you dont accept our help.

we stretch out our hands, u oso must reach out and hold it too.

afterall it takes 2 hands to clap.

otherwise. i had a decision to make yesterday too. but when the time came, it was too late.

the situation was already gone when i decided to step out.

damn.

and i read something just now.

i dint even remember it neither did i blog it down.

but it was actually sweet to actually know someone remember it.

even though the person maynot know its me.

but im contented.

wahaahahha.

im sweating now.

dammit.

byebye and good night

this isnt such a bad ending to a bad start of a post afterall : D

COME ON BODY MOVE IT.

Y H!!

2007-06-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

you know something is wrong with your body when

your body dont move in the way you want it to.

you feel like vommitting all the time and dont even have the appetite for food anymore.

you feel like a zombie and look like one.

your mind is slowing down and you just want to lie on the bed but yet cant sleep.

you do not know what sickness you have incur.

this is bad.

==

2007-06-10T21:21:00.000+08:00

Pride

so i am updating my seemingling(wrong spelling confirm) lifeless blog now. haha

ok its not good to say lifeless. i shd say currently not so inactive.

i am sitting in front of the computer.

with only the downlights switched on.

its kind of comfortable..

i was watching this japanese drama series called Pride over the past 2 days, my god its such an amazing show.

of course, there are things that i can relate to too,

like pride.

do i have any pride? what is my pride? have i ever tried so hard that people tell me to stop trying if not i will kill myself?

i bet the answer is no to all of them.

after this holidays,

its my final year le, the last dash, the last sprint, the final lap.

its time, that i push myself.

its time.

:)

anyway went to a part of my neighbourhood which i haven gone for long time just now.

the pond. yeah i remember in my childhood, it was such a vibrant place, a while ago i went back, it turned polluted, musty and everything.

just now was different. its not that musty dirty, but it carries the mood of the night.

and saw some maids feeding cats. ahhaha. its happy :DD

otherwise, no h weekly cos really nothing much for me to update other than go out a few days, stone few days and tats it.

time to find my own pride!

ps.

y h

2007-06-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

Things during this break

Everytime i blog, its negative or close to negative (other than H weekly la)

so now i shall post a neutral one.

During this hols i would like to do some stuff. This shd have been posted long ago. but nvm not too late to post haha.

Visit National Museum of Singapore (a&a by w architects) - DONE!
New pants - DONE!
New shirt - DONE!
New tshirts - ok. looks like some shopping is needed.
New wallet - DONE!
New shoes - DONE!
Footdrill ppt - (shit i gotta do this quick)
Exercise - In Progress
Go Sentosa - DONE! maybe again when fiq comes back.
Organise an outing - ok this is slightly impossible, given my laziness.
Train my 3dVIZ - my god, just look at fiq standard. im lagging just so far behind.
Move on, forget the past - yes yes yes.

somehow the above are things tat i have mostly done already. lol.
argh back to the freaking solitaire. 47 times still haven win even one game. !!@#@$@%

y h

2007-06-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

I've even seen miracles
I've felt the pain disappear
But I still haven't seen anything
That amazes me quite like you do

You bring me up when I'm feeling down
You touch me deep you touch me right
You do the things I've never done
You make me wicked you make me wild
Cause baby, your my number 1

2007-06-04T15:10:00.000+08:00

I accept it.

i accept it.
its the truth tats out there.
i can feel it, i don need someone to remind me.
if i have to go, i will.

so i will take my leave silently.
maybe u dint even realise my pressence.

maybe im addicted..
im out of control.
but you are the drug that keeps me from dying..

maybe im a liar..
but all i really know.
cos u're the only reason im trying..

2007-06-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

A new day , a new start.

When i was young, i used to listen to the radio
Waiting for my favourite songs
When they play,
I'd sing along
it make me smile...

today is a good day :)
went pc show with yeelong at suntec, my god its so damn crowded.
bought a hard disk, its time.
then went campsite for dinner with them, and also cos of the sidiphen.

while waiting i did silly things like run up and down the hill. though i hate running actually.
but when your mind is so stuck up with thoughts, the worst thing to be doing is to be stoning.
so i ran.

after dinner, i chose to walk home.
wouldnt actually say its my 2nd urban hike this year since its only kembagan to bedok.
i have always have a dream while walking on the many hikes from dhoby to bedok last year and this.

i always hope that i will run into my friend, run into my girl, run into someone who care for me.
of course this is a dream, as things like this should never happen, since its so crazy to be walking home. you can always take the bus or cab home if there isnt any.

but, the point is not that.

walking brings along a sense of tranquility, puts ur mind at peace, makes you calm enough to think about the situation.

i think things has really calmed down pretty much this few days..
its like when i looked at the night sky yesterday.
the star, the only star was so close to the full moon.

today, the star i saw, was a distance away from the moon.

i think, gradually, this distance will start to spread apart..
soon i will not be keeping in touch with the moon, or star , depends on how u see it.

perhaps its destiny, its fate that it should remain this way.
if i touch it, i think maybe the situation will worsen..

better remain as star and moon, rather than the star gone.

haha, at least i have some buddies of mine who i can talk to when im down. they always encourage me, and share with me their experiences. this life, that i am having now, is great.

i am contented with whatever things life will throw at me.

meanwhile. today, while on the walk home, saw this cat, damn hungry, decided to buy ljs combo 1 for him, kept the fries of cos, passed by some other cats on the way back, and i conclude cats dont eat fries.

this act, reminds me of the past. theres this uncle, who i always see, without fail, rain or shine
6am goin sch tat time, he always will feed the cats along with his spouse.

i met him recently, and im actually surprised he still remembers me. I asked him if he still feeds the cat, he told me.

"boy, im old already, retire already. its time for you soon."

hahaha.

yeah.

i will be the one, soon.

y h

2007-06-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

H-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekly!!!!!!!

Issue#06-june1

publishedbyhockproductions.

foreWORD

Surprisingly, there IS an issue this week. Even the editor himself was doubting the release of an issue this week. If you have followed the blog willingly or unwillingly, it is noted that the chief editor was having an emotional breakdown. He is now trying to tide over it, and we wish him the best. Lets get SIX underway!

h-LIFE

Last week, was linkcamp 2007. it was a success, H feels. Afterall, what is the most important thing that justifies success in Link Camp. Simple, the link have fun, they cannot sleep, they want to stay another day, they REMEMBER you. So if any of the committee members out there, reading this, GOOD WORK, AND KEEP IT UP!

first day of camp, H got his spider web which was done in a rush, destroyed by weiren and esther's group. somehow links love spider web. or rather, they hate it.

second day of camp, H had to eat 2 apples of lunch, and the after effect was a severely loss of appetite for lunch and dinner. He did not eat the packet food! But, this is good for him, its time seriously for him to start on a diet. during night time, that was when the emotions started stacking against him, and the cause of the moody period. lets not talk about it then.

Last day of camp, H looked like a terrorist. A modified water gun, with bullet sling, and grenades. Enough said, it was very fun.

what was weijian sir doing? O_O

Overall, link camp was quite fun, even though H made some mistakes here and there, its a good experience for him.

Tuesday, H went collect his log book from his office, and entered W architects for the last time, maybe? and he went on a shopping spree. We took down his buys.

Comic x3 - $15
Shaver - $12.90
Cream - $7
Jeans - $20
Long sleeve shirt - $39

Wallet - $29

Total Expenditure - $122.90

After which, wednesday, went to Vil.lage restaurant and heeren with the iad people, shared with zelroy lin kimqi the meal. H then decided to join zelroy kenneth xin ni, and taibin, with michelle and her ang moh friend to clubbing. At first decided to go Zouk, but the place was freaking crowded. it was not even 10pm, and the queue stretched at least 2km long. ended up in Mos, where H forgot about all his worries for one night only and danced till his heart's content, which is when kenneth gay kai min got his wallet pickpocketted, and did not scream.

So ended up in police station with him to make a police report(no i dint take his wallet. i swear it was not me) Incidentally syafiq gave him a shirt from bangalore that reads. No money, No job, No girlfriend, No Problem!

And now his nick is, No money, No job, No girlfriend, No wallet, NO PROBLEM! (his wallet contained IC, Driving licence, Ez link, Atm, Debit card, Credit card, $300 + cheque.)

So now total expenditure is -

$122.90 -

Meal - $22
Cover - $15

Total - $159.90

This is the wanted poster outside MOS now. hmm. this person actually looks familiar...

Group picture taken outside Vil.Lage. O_O

Thursday, H went to pray for a new start, lets hope :)

Friday, which is today, H summitted his SIP report finally, 30 pages long. and went for dinner at makansutra at explanade with members of GPA, Gay Partnership Architects, reputed to be the lousiest film in the history of architecture. members include, zelroy lin kim qi, kenneth gay kai min, syafiq the hairless banglah, mervino gaydi.

anyway went dinner with elroy fiq yuze. had a pathetic portion of chili crab, next time must go no signboard eat. That one is heaven.

After which, went to explore architecture (2nd visit, 1st one was to changi airport) with team kovalent (yuze, syafiq, H), to National Museum of Singapore, originally done by CPG consultants, but restored, and added new extension recently by W architects.

It was an eye opener trip, the way history and past connects with the future and technology is easily conveyed through the transition of spaces. The rotunda is a grand spectacle. A triple volume space that is so grand that even the president would have marvelled.

The new extension showcased the future of Singapore Architecture, while holding the heritage of the past together.

Fantastic.

Reported by:

"the cute wonder" hockie

moodFORECAST

This week: just like the real thing, thunder and ligthning, supposed to be sunny, but was not quite it.

Next week: moving out of the dark clouds, but still bring an umbrella along.

Reported by:

"the one hit one kill" ah-hock

hRECOMMENDS

this week, H recommends ballads, by female singers (and male?)

Michelle Branch - goodbye to you, a sad song, sad song, sad sad song.

Way back into love by hugh grant and haley bennett. this song is perfect for those who is missing an ex, all thinking of finding a way back into love.

my god, keep holding on by avril lavinge. its damn nice. damn nice.

reported by:
"the only one" y h

afterWORD

What can i say? its been a hell of a week for me, and for my crew. I hope you guys dont get too traumatised at my past entries, and keep supporting H weekly!

The news that will always be here, right here, at dreamythots.
H weekly
Chief Editor
H

2007-05-31T20:19:00.000+08:00

Maybe my prayers are starting to get answered.

the missing walkie talkie battery has been found... in law sir bag.

but thats minor.

i've thought it through.

i have chatted with yl.

its no good to be in this state of mind. it harms u, poisons u.

i need to be the hock who writes H weekly every friday.

i need to have more confidence in myself.

i need to believe in myself more.

i need to push myself more.

i need to take care of myself more.

i am tired. shall take a rest..

y h

2007-05-31T16:42:00.001+08:00

just back from praying.

i feel that.. im becoming an adult.

beginning to think like one at least.

from the moment i stepped towards the temple.

to the moment i went home..

it was bliss. tranquil.

its as if, a heavy rock had just got lifted from me.

even the songs that played on my shuffle..

all the soothing songs.

didn even need to skip any songs.

im back at home.
i have msn on.
the song playing is now keep holding on.
my mood now is as dark as the weather.

wheres the light at the end of the tunnel?

2007-05-31T02:55:00.000+08:00

just came back from mos.

we went to some restaurant at heeren to eat first. will update more of that on friday.

at first wanted to go zouk. but it was damn crowded and the queue was like more than 2km long.

u know, when all these worries are bugging your head, sometime dancing your way out to thumping music, shaking lights.. drinking.. will make u forget your worries.

just a while.

and now im back at home. the worries come back stronger.

im hit by it stronger and stronger...

how i wish i have a couple of drinks next to me now.

what is my limit before getting drunk?

bah.

all these post seems so suicidal.

i did at first think abt it.

but im not foolish. its not good to end one life for stupid reasons. no it isnt even worth it to end your life, unless you are broke, lost your family, and everything else in the world.

i have no idea why.

nah. at least i have ... hmmm. sunday sentosa outing to look forward to.. iad.

tml and friday.. im gonna go collect my charger frm fiq, den go temple pray. its vesak day..

den rush out my report on friday..

saturday..

i have nothing on. maybe i shd bury myself with more work.. draft out a timeline for the footdrill ppt..

other than that.

its boring.

y h

2007-05-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

Social circle

you know. as ur social circle expands.. u find it hard to choose which group u wanna hang out with.

it doesn neccessary mean you are popular, but it could mean that you are still trying to find a "home"

i have no particular "home" that i can feel comfortable in.

maybe my batch mates from vip fit the bill as of now.

but im

missing out on
my sec1/2 classmates, my sec3/4 classmates, my tkrcy squadmates, my other rcy friends, my iad ppl, my clan ppl...

sometimes it tires me out, it makes me sad..

because of negligence, all these social bonds which i had created will have to give way.

and because of prolonged absence from these groups, i will get forgotten, and even if i make one appearance after that, they no longer will update me nor inform me on whats going on.

if i go out with them, it would mean im going in uninvited, which isnt a really nice thing to do.

so essentially im stuck with no social groups.

im anti-social.

i have no friends that i feel specially bonded to, go out regulary, chat regulary. when im on msn, im usually stoning, look at the msn list, while looking for ppl to chat to. which ends up not chatting anybody except if u count yeelong.

that is why i am very happy when ppl include me in mass convos or when they chat to me
i would readily give up gaming for that. now if u ask me go out, i wont hesitate anymore. i don wanna have any more regrets, or be tied down.

i wanna mix out, mix around, talk to, and be talked to, listen to, and be listened to.

close friends.

friends.

people i know.

if i just kept a list of friends i still talk to or go out with, i think the msn list. would be less than 20.

maybe thats abit exaggerated, but its true, i feel left out at times. going out with people, they talked about things i do not know, and when one person in the group feel the awkwardness abt my silence, will try to include me in the group by saying something like dota or what, it will just be brief and after that, im left alone again.

maybe thats why i walk down from dhoby ghaut to bedok so much last year.

im tired.

of being lonely.

im sick.

of not being with anyone.

i want you to take me in,
take me into your home,
nurse me back to health,
and let me be part of you.

how long more do i need to suffer?

---
the above. if u struggled to understand, read, or apprehend, its fine really.
because of the lack of communication i engage with you all, tats why u guys wont understand what im typing.

im so sorry.
im angry, not for this loneliness, but at myself for putting myself in such a situation.

i just wanna bury my head somewhere cold and hide from the fact now.

i updated my blog headers. if u havent notice. about me. portfolio. links. all updated.

sorry for the emotional posts of late.

i cant help it.

y h

2007-05-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

So im back.

no h weekly it isnt friday.

back frm camp . had roughly ard 3 hours of slp everyday since thursday..

so im blogging in fatigue now.

yes.

my eyes are shutting on me, my body is barely moving, my mind. slowing down yet still remembering what i wanted to do.

i will save the details abt camp for friday..

right now just wanna blog abt. my feelings, my mood my emotions now.

maybe its fatigue. maybe its the anything im drinking now. rootbeer.

bah. i dont even know what im typing.

its just tat im thinking of

going down the same road again.

finding you.

finding a new you.

finding a new start.

now that i've moved on. ive changed..

its time to ask myself.. that question.

am i ready for it again?

am i ready for the hard falls i will get to suffer, am i ready to experience the high joy of being in it, and more importantly, where are you?

is the new chapter of that life imminent.

is it gonna come?

am i invited to join u all?

so many questions. but no answers as yet.

the time will come. it will.

y h

2007-05-25T00:14:00.000+08:00

h-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekly!
Issue#05-may25
publishedbyhockproductions

foreWORD

This will be a super short h-WEEKLY? why? cause its 12am, and h hasnt packed his camp bag, tml has work, and he hasnt settled logs stuff, and best of all he hasnt done the log book.

all right, lets rush this issue out then!

h-LIFE

This is an extremely good week. super.

lets just give the words to H himself.

" I had very very interesting lunch convos with my colleagues, i felt the togetherness for the first time since i joined this office, i could joke with them, i could talk to them, and best is i could communicate with them. they gave me and ashley a farewell lunch on wednesday at kotobuchi restaurant in liangs court.

pretty cool concept, for a moment we thought we had to kneel down (like how the japanese eat) but they improvised it, and dug out a void underneath the table, leaving space for the legs to dangle.

tml is my last day, and time really flies...

first week, i remember, i was asked to do all those dimensioning, and adding of annotations..

now, i get to do reflected celing plans, finishes plan... edit floor plans of xrefs...

i rmb i wasnt even allowed to touch xrefs in my first 3 weeks..

now i am treated like a damn professional..

im happy :)

we celebrated fone's bdae today :)))

and of course p2's farewell.

Farewell, p2, good luck on ur future endeavours!

moodFORECAST

This week's mood : SUNSHINE~

Next week's mood : sunshine through the rain!

h-RECOMMENDS

simple.

shes the one.

man. i love fan yi chen's songs. damn nice. lovestory

firehouse's when i look into your eyes. a very classic power ballad in the 1980s.
its so damn nice. (yeah im a sucker for classics somedays)

my favourite singer of all time. 1980s. glenn medeiros. nothings gonna change my love for you. my fav song of all time. man. he sounds as great live as recorded. this is a live version fyi. many singers have sang this song, but i still think he pulled off the song with the best effect. george benson sang the original version, think glenn sang 2nd, followed by air supply.

tats it for h weekly today. sorry ah tired. and pls note this issue lack formatting. im sorry. very tired.

2007-05-21T20:05:00.000+08:00

here i am, in hq using p2s com.

waiting for her come down to settle link camp logs.

have no idea why im not having the i-just-wanna-go-home-and-sleep feeling today.

i want my dinner !!!

man can they finish their meeting in like 0.133050802 seconds?

some random thoughts.

recently ive been struck by my inner self. maybe its surfacing again. the feeling the mood to be ok, alright as defined by society.

and ive been really stuck on something tat is making me ponder a while. maybe not that important, but because of 2 close factors.

one . the interactivity and communication tat is being channeled to me.

two. the type of person channeling the above to me.

all these just seems to be reminiscent of what had been missing for 3 years.

yeah that four years of friendship, or 3 good years of company, all fell apart due to an event that has emotionally(some say physical too) scarred me for past 3 years.

to my best buddy:

i know you are a different type of person from me.

maybe i would say more forceful. maybe i would say more passionate, maybe i would say more daring.

but when it comes to the problem you are facing now, i would say we have both been in the same stage before.

the starting is tough. the reality is hard to accept. the nonchalent reaction you have gotten, so have i, the period after that incident was very tough for me to handle, i cried in sleep, i ran in the rain, i did everything possible to harm myself.

but in the end, what i couldnt change is one dreadful word, which is the fact.

events can come and go, yet we are still stuck in the past, trying to think whats gone wrong, why the person must do that to you, which the level of tactlessness.

but in the end,

its either move on, or stay there and hurt yourself.

i'd say change, for the better, which im glad you're doing.

in fact, your learning curve seems to be way steeper than mine.

dont rush, theres still time,

i know we can still find the one, the truly yours one, someday someday in our lives.

if i can survive 3 years of stagnant activity so can you!

jiayou

2007-05-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

NO H WEEKLY PUBLICATION THIS WEEK

The producers of h weekly has gone on a much needed break after long work days without sufficient rest. We hope you continue to support our publication which will resume next friday.

------

BUT, there will be an update of blog :))

This week.

hectic hectic! . 2 weeks to go, (make that one week now) to linkamania camp, to end of SIP, to holiday!

and this week i have not got a second to slack at work. in fact, time seems to pass very fast this week, maybe because i had been working alot this week. had to churn out construction drawings for construction out week today for peranakan museum and also doing door and window schedules for pathlight.

this week, is a good week, i talked alot alot more with my colleagues joking with them and stuff.

oh ya, the nus intern fu han (is it her name?) thought i was CHAN KWANG MING (the senior architect) and asked me for help to set up a drawing O_O. hahahaha. damn funny. den the 2 interns told me that when they came here, they thought i was a very seasoned professional, someone big shot. muahahaha. it dint help tat the day they came in, i was in discussion with boss and director.

and. i finally found out the name of the dining place we went to last month. its BROTH at outram.

and iskandar did out a layout? or is it the restaurant do out the layout of a picture.

the headline of the poster read, "new men of broth"

AND I WAS IN THE PICTURE LOL DAMN FUNNY. they asked me autograph somemore. hahahah.

carlo yong kai and erwin was inside the picture beside me.

hahaha man. i am starting to love my environment!

till then, hope tml will be fun and also work out.

linka games trial.

y h

2007-05-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

H-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeekly!!!!!!!
Issue#04-may11
published by hockproductions.

foreWORD

Its so fast, so fast and so fast. One week's gone by and we are in our 4th week of running. So let us put our hands together to celebrate a month's aniversary! We do keep our promise to feature readers from time to time, so if you want to be featured (it may be a good or bad thing, judging on personal opinions) in our weekly spread. So, without further ado, let issue FOUR begin!

h-LIFE

SO, it was an exciting end to last week while this week had an exulberant (sorry we do not have word editor in our office, so we cant do spellcheck) start. Saturday. May 5th. h was alone in the house with 3 girls. it was hot. OK FORGET THE LAST SENTENCE. HOT because H was busy figuring out how to fix this model wood piano out. Even though H has alot of model making experience and gundam model making experience, this was a hell of a task as H only had 1 hour, along with 3 not so experienced interns under his charge.

As the interns are underaged, We are not disclosing their full names. Ms tay, Ms chua and Ms chen and Mr H was rushing the thing out and was quite glad that it turned out nice though they had a time restriction. Sorry folks, no pictures, our camaraman took a lot of shots but somehow she is not around in town.

So after that, rushed down to east coast part (bad decision) and because of Ms chen's inexperience, the team ended up at the wrong end of ECP. However, the walk back to the correct spot did kill time off. It was nevertheless exciting, out team followed them. and they were like exploring jetties while trying to hide and catch AHEM and her AHEM (in an intimate moment) ALAS, their wishes were not granted as they ended up lost and just sat down on a bench for.... i forgotten how many hours.

It turned out that AHEM fell ASLEEP. so did Ms chua. It ended up well, because she found us(or rather Ms chua) and the rest of us just surprised her from the back. Nice night.

Sunday - OFF DAY for the workers, dint manage to catch H in action

monday to thursday was quite mundane, and is strictly a regime. Let us offer some highlights. H is involved in a new LOW profile but HIGH attention project. Initially H thought why even though he is the only person in the team under the director, yet it is getting so much attention. (colleagues peep and ask what project it is, boss look and comment and H even had a discussion with mww and director) it turns out that, the project is actually a terrace housing for the director! now we know.

Friday, which is today was a good day. it was the forth time in the week that H bumped into a friend in the train. monday
-YC wednesday - PRIMARY SCH FRIEND KAH WOON thursday - JH friday - ISKANDAR

H had a fantastic friday, he thinks he has finally resolved the problem behind the layout of the terrace housing, but has yet to show director as he was in a interview. And he also broke the last thin ice. talked and helped out the NUS intern while sharing talks with colleagues. All it took was one laughter. and a toilet that the ceiling board has all but fallen. (inside joke)

Thats all for this week of H's life!

Reported by:
"the cute wonder" hockie

moodFORECAST

This week's mood is very profound, rain, shine, cloud, thunder, hailstone(ok maybe not that).

Next week's mood is clouds. HEAVY clouds. Please bring along an umbrella. Poncho wont help.

Reported by:
"the one hit one kill" ah-hock

hRECOMMENDS

This week we recommend 2 chinese songs and an english song to top up this amazing week of H WEEKLY. Pardon my typing. Im getting bored of my job. which is to listen song whole day to recommend.

3 fantastic songs that i never skip when playing and listen just to understand why. Not too good videos for the chinese ones, but i loved the allamerican rejects video. cool pyrotechnics.

Thats all for my section today.

Reported by:
"the only one" y h

nickCRAZY

This is entirely a new section which is going to be covered by our special correspondent N as he is really too free.

Hi, im N, some of you may remember me from last week's interview. This week i was supposed to do an interview with one of H's admirer but apparently she was too busy.

This section, we look at H's MSN list and check out whats in, whats out and what really is funny.

IF i could just live one day in her shoes. (AWAY)
OMG. LOL LOL. ok i understand perfect english, but our h weekly is based on hockism language. so please. i will pay anyone not to live in a shoe.

Give me your loneliness - and i will give you my tenderness
romeo.. where art thou~ LOL ok no guessing whos nick is this.

"may i fall in love with you" - i love you.... mr yusof bin ishak
ok. this is already omg enough. no comments.

[YUI] why are you so fast when you walk?
i do not need to answer such stupid question. but maybe i shd. because you are not slow.

..gone - Pls prepare a casket and incinerator for me
sir, what size do you want?

DENISE'sgotabadback. mindoverbody! - what makes you happy.
ok. u got a bad back. what u gonna do. what u gonna do when HOCKAMANIA RUNS WILD ON U!!!! ok. just pray daily to hock and u will get better :)

Reported by:
"the mysterious one" N

afterWORD

OK, no pun or personal attacks or any insults from the last section, just to entertain you guys. i will try to keep a tab on N and make sure he does not do anything too funny. ENJOY the weekend people!

"the news that brings the best out of you"
Chief Editor
H

2007-05-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

H-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekly!!!!!!!
issue#03/may04
published by hockproductions

foreWORD

Before we start, lets just say SORRY and HELLO to all my loyal and patient readers. We are extremely sorry that we delievered this issue late by 1 day, but as the editor has decided, we decided to publish every friday instead. We hope you enjoy this extra special spread of H-weekly and hope you guys would continue to lend your support to us!

h-LIFE

We continue from last week, and it was certainly an exciting start to it. An "official" clan dea outing for H and his clan friends, of course with clan COMA too from warcraft. H met them in a lan shop in paradiz and played a match of dota with them before Zen, our chieftain arrived, with oldgen.

They decided to watch a movie, and it was wild hogs, H secretly laughing at s[T]a[R] because he had watched the film already. It was a quite nice show, quite lame and well, lame. after that, played lan until the wee hours of the morning before returning home, tired.

Sorry, our photographer was not present that day, so no photos, folks.

We also discovered that H is a workaHOCKlic because he only knew that tuesday was labour day, on monday lunch itself! what a worka-HOCK-lic! After that, H caught a movie with chenqiutong taysuyin chuayier at bedok ==. and the movie was wild hogs. ENOUGH SAID. (H shouldnt have laughed at star earlier on) and was forced to take a neoprint ==.

H got assigned to a new project after finally, and we said finally, completing the tender for the Peranakan Museum. The new project is thankfully, also a major one. It is for the erection (sounds wrong?) of a new school for autistic people, the Pathlight school. It is quite an interesting project, although its in the tender stage already.

H had an extremely bad wednesday. He was cursing and swearing at the school management. (we are not revealing the exact exerpts of the conversation due to the extreme profanities involved and the mostly underaged crowd reading H-weekly.)

Finally, Friday when H finally met up with IAD people after a long while. Quite interesting sharing their experiences of their company. Went to starbucks in a while now.

Reported by:
"the cute wonder" hockie

moodFORECAST

lastweek's mood:

RAIN, RAIN and MORE RAIN.

nextweek's mood:

Lightning and thunder expected. Better stay clear of him.

Reported by:
"the one hit one kill" ah-hock

h-RECOMMENDS

This week, we shall be featuring some alternative songs that he listened too, so dont be too shocked!

First up, NEMO by nightwish. Its metal classical, but the melody flows along with dark days and its suitable songs for emotional periods.

The next song is lips of an angel by Hinder. Nice ideas behind the song, a song that is in your ipod if you are still thinking of your ex, while having your current girlfriend beside you now.

Finally, the last song, it was supposed to be Fightstar's waste a moment, but the editor decided that it was too freaking scary to be posted, so its banned! So we made up with Savage garden's To the moon and back.

Reported by:
"the only one" -y h-

special CORRESPONDENT-REPORT

This is a series of interviews with our very vocal chief editor, H. This week, we quiz him about his status. I mean relationship status.

nameless(N): Hi H, nice to meet you.
H: hello N, and can you please take off that trenchcoat and shades? you look like a freaking weirdo trying to act cool.

N: I dress to impress.
H: NO ONE DRESSES LIKE THAT IN GEYLANG!

N: ... ok back to the topic, a lot of our readers wanted to know your current status now, are you single, and more importantly, available?
H: No, i am not single, but i am attached to myself.

N: Thats a cool answer, but can you please answer me?
H: alright, i'll talk. I'll say that im not interested in pursuing a relationship of any kind now.

N: Surely, our female readers(and some male readers like stephen) would be crying out loud now. It doesn help that some of them have msn nicks that goes "you make me smile(stephen)".
H: i cannot help it you know, its just that im too hot. hot on the outside and cool on the inside.

N: Splendid, now i can see why you are one of the most sought after eligible bachelors.
H: Nah, you flatter me. So have i sastified your questions?

N: yeah sure, anyway, one last question. Why are you in geylang of all places?
H: im a superhero man, an icon. i need to make my pressence felt everywhere. Its nice to start from geylang as its actually one of the icons in singapore.

N: alright, thank you for your time, H. I really enjoyed this session.
H: sure, no problem.

To top it off, i will upload this picture i took of him in his superhero suit. actually its taken last year.

Reported by:
"the mysterious one" N.

afterWORD

So, this issue of H-weekly ends with aplomb with the special correspondent finally showing up. We hope you have enjoyed this issue, and GOOD NIGHT GUYS.

The News that does not seem to be early,
Chief editor
H

2007-04-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

H - weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekly!!!!
issue#02/april26
published by hockproductions

foreWORD

Its the 2nd issue of H-WEEKLY and we have enjoyed a tremendous amount of support over the past few days. WE thank all our loyal servants. No, i mean our loyal supporters. We hope that you will continue to support our publications. We may charge a small nominal fee for reading this newspread, as H news is hard to get by. (I hear from my shanghai gays that they heard abt H!!!)

Brace yourself for ISSUE#2 of HWEEKLY!

h-LIFE

So this week, our team was hot on the track of H, who by chance is also our chief editor. It was an extremely busy week for him, hence the bonus issue that was promised over the weekend was never actually delivered.

H grabbed his chance on friday, when mokweiwei (mww) asked him if hes going to the dinner later. H put his good acting skills to good use here. We witnessed quite an amazing scene when he replied, "No, what dinner?"

Immediately, the boss sent the receptionist to H's desk and cordially invite him to dinner later.
Being the gentleman that he is, H accepted the late offer. It was a great night, as our production team sneaked into the dinner. It was a grand al fresco affair at a restaurant at outram(we were so drunk that we couldn remember the name). It was quite a lavish event, if you count free flow red and white wine, more than 5 individual waiters serving you, buffet spread european cuisine, and a crowd that included the industry people ;

the founder of singapore architecture - we cant rmb the name either.
william lim , architects, ura, blah. After dinner, H had a ride back home by his colleague who lives at bedok north too. weekend was back at work for H, and over the next few days, H had lunch with his usual lunching partner on monday blues, yc, and also lunch with his colleagues for 3 days straight.

It was such a busy week that H was not able to attend link camp meeting. The week ended off today, as we found out that H was going to receive his pay tomorrow, which is going to INCLUDE claims and OT. (that essential means he is going to treat the production crew a dinner.)

This is the end of a very special, abeit busy week for H, and we hope you enjoyed the juicy chunks of H NEWS!

Reported by:
the cute wonder "hockie"

mood-FORECAST

This week's mood:
Pleasant, with storms occuring over some periods.

Next week's mood:
Its time for a celebration, as the sky is going to clear.

Reported by:
the one hit one kill "ah-hock"

h-RECOMMENDS

This week is a "busted week". You will see what i mean when i talk about it in the review. Busted is our band of the week with their pop rock music and catchy lyrics.

Busted - YEAR 3000

Busted - That's what i go to school for

Busted - Thunderbirds are go

Busted - Air hostess

Why BUSTED? infectious lyrics, funny and creative music videos, enough said, watch the videos and enjoy them for yourselves. (they split up in 2005 and its pretty old music though)

Reported by:
the only one "-y h-"

afterWORD

It has been a thrill to ride through this week of H weekly with you guys. (yes im pointing to the crew, and of course my loyal followers.)

We look to bring you more entertainment, and possibly tickle a funny bone in your spine, or maybe 2. We are also open to any suggestions and ideas that can improve our article. That is of course to be received by hockie, read by ah-hock, vetted by -y h-, suggested by our special correspondent who has yet to write an article, and finally to be approved by H myself.

We cannot guarantee that 100% of the comments will be approved, but i promise at least a 1%.

Until then, we will be hoping for a bonus issue over the weekend, which is going to be filled with graphics (we hope.)

BYE.

The newspread that does(not) live up to its promise,
H
Chief editior

2007-04-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

H - WEEKLY

ForeWORD
To commemorate my 350th post, i shall start a weekly, + a bonus weekend issue on weekends im free, for your weekly dose of H, and hock related news. It is of course, inspired by mr. ms's india times while hes in india now, and of course a temptation to get back to writing for the masses. Here we go!

h-LIFE

This week? No. I rather say its today since H-WEEKLY starts today. Alright, today was one of the better days H has has since the start of SIP. H did not yawn in the morning, nor in the afternoon, of course not in the evening either. Richard did not come to office again this morning, so had time to finish up on his stuff, and Winnie's stuff.

Lunch was the best lunch (H) had, as he finally had a companion, lots of thanks to yc, whose office is just 2 blocks away. Finally, he found kopitiams, which is of course the favourite haunts of ah-hock, our mood forecaster. Did not bring money out, which was in the bag, but luckily had enough to pay for meal. Affairs after lunch was great, as the work was completed, and the final task was interesting - drawing out the mannequin schedule.

Using autocad to draw humans are not H's forte, but nevertheless he has done it. The day started and ended with H bleeding from inside his ears, god knows why. Maybe he kept his ear plugs for too long, or maybe a bevy of good looking girls screamed at his ears.

This is the end of his short yet "exciting" day.

Reported by:
hockie.

mood-FORECAST

Today's mood:
Generally pleasant, with few breezes to enjoy.

Tomorrow's mood:
Its friday, some clouds expected, but not all of them dark clouds.

Reported by:
ah-hock

h-RECOMMENDS

For every edition of H-WEEKLY, the chief editior of the news spread, which is none other than H himself, will grade and recommend 2 songs from his H-shuffle. (WHY GAYSON BUY SHUFFLE TOO?!!?)

Hoshi No Tobira by Negishi Satori
Hoshi no tobira is literally translated as doorways of stars, and the song translates a mood which is dark at first, but slowly becoming clear as if the stars are guiding your way through the night. It is a song that is perfect on the ears for people into emotional yet, spiritful song. I give it 5 stars.

Collide by Howie Day
Collide is a pretty old song, but it is a song that marks any sad occasion. It makes good listening on days where you had a quarrel with your girlfriend or wife, but you will grow out of it when you are upbeat. It deserves 3 and a half stars.
Thats all for H-WEEKLY this week, check back this sunday, as we have special reports for a bonus news article. Take care and remember, H is for the future!

Bringing H to your screens,

H
Chief-editor
H-WEEKLY

2007-04-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

Subdued/accomplished.

Top 5 songs buzzing up my h-shuffle:

Vivian or Kazuma - moment
Tamaki Nami - believe
The All American Rejects - It ends tonight
Hinder - Lips of an angel
Sum 41 - In too deep

-

I realised i always posted bad negative stuff or good positive stuff in entries. so today im gonna mix both of them.

the past week, ive been working (zzz) , sick while trying to go donate blood again, end up 3 days later play soccer.

soccer was good as i finally showed some form. i thought i had more stamina and could last longer, maybe it was cos i had good teammates.

after soccer on sunday, i had the usual terrible headache + sunburn, cept tat sunburn ended fast next day, but the headache raged me for 3 days.

resulting in monday blues, tuesday torment, and today it went off finally.

work on mons and tues was terrible. on monday, the hr announced tat boss (mww) was giving a treat and asked for preference of either fri or sat dinner.

she asked everyone except for me. even asked the new colleague whose first day at work. somemore in front of me. sometimes i feel if the company knows of my existence. i get ignored. not exactly ignored, but u get my feeling.

nvm, i'll persevere, though still hope on fri something happens. 2 weeks + of lonely lunch is tortorous. evry day i dread lunch. its so lonely. im almsot a mute at work.

tuesday was worse. i felt really pain in my head, and my work was bad bad bad.

i was told by winnie i made a terrible serious mistake and i felt all guilty abt it. doing details but not paying attention to details.

i felt as if it was sch man. i came here to improve, not to maintain. that day, i really cmi, so went home after 6.30.

today was kind of better. first thing morning, richard sms me he not coming, sick. that gives me time to finish/start doing on my load of work. alas, i did spend 4 hours on a single detail. it really satisfies me and im proud of it. after lunch abit jaded as usual, but i did ammend all my mistakes on the previous load, and i was pretty satisfied. i think i satisfied winnie too, though she has yet to see the stuff when i left.

its a long day tml, 4 drws haven convert/draw + another 4 drws left sections.

but i came here to learn right.

im gonna prevail.

y h

2007-04-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

friday13th looming

sotml's the friday of doom. where many friends of mine get enlisted.

and also my work day again@!

actually im not tat superstitious.

the past 3 days had been hell to me.

but as the days go by, i think im beginning to cope with the job better.

more and more is expected from me everyday. starting they give me everything and i just had to mainly copy and paste.

now it has evolved to such a stage that he and she just throw the drawings to me on my desk. no dimensions or so. minimal annotations. and off i go, draw out sections and plans.

but i kinda like it.

at least its not that boring.

i get to learn, through hard way.

my drafting gonna improve too.

though design aspect, i don think i learnt anything yet.

wholeday in office, i hear them talking about gfa issues. haha. guess tat in sg tats really impt.

today had a wonderful day. ate alot. almost late for work @@!

but of cos i wasnt late.

did not yawn today! amazement at myself. and i did lots of work today.

oso my boss behind me was in a meeting most of time today had a chance to chat to yi er.

if he was behind me or mww behind me i think i'll get screwed. upside down inside out.

its a nice day. and im gg slp soon.

if not tml = gg

y h

2007-04-09T06:07:00.000+08:00

CAP of the week

so one week has gone and past, and im still alive.

went for work on saturday, amazement cause i opened the office for the first time and couldn find the !@$%^% lights.

anyway, work was good, as my new supervisor, the architect in charge, richard, showed me the way and guided me.

i learn stuffs. and did door schedule until i was quite high.

that resulted in me not sleeping for the next 31 hours as i went out, dota-ed, gamed, went out. and finally ko-ed for 16 straight hours!

alright. work later, im up pretty early, im looking forward to this week, as thurs is submission for schedules i guess.

y h

2007-04-05T04:58:00.000+08:00

9-OT

when i get to post, its usually when i get freetime, or i cant think of anything to do.

so now at this wee hours. i am able to blog thanks to yesterday being a day when i could knock off work early.

its quite startling, working experience as an intern.

first day when i reach the office, after all the orientation stuff, i was "summoned" to a meeting
with my supervisors, and learnt that, for the next 2 weeks, i'll be working on peranakan museum.

its quite relishing actually. i guess what a senior architect told me was quite true. not many people get to work with museums (conservation projects.)

i wasnt quite ready on the first day, having to work overtime. its quite lonely in the office, cant actually find anyone that i can relate to, since all are working on different projects. theres this other intern, from sp i think, but i guess hes leaving next week.

the previous intern before me, i quite respect her work and style, from reading the things she writes, and gave me a reality check.

Can i really make it out in this industry? i feel very inferior when i compare myself to the other colleagues.

But, i saw this line. Hope only dies the day you give up.

so yeah. i will practice more drafting, and hope i learn more things.

just realised my drafting skills are very limited, to just basic tools and the universal tools - CTRL C, CTRL V.

haha. yesterday was a great work day, as in i got more exposure about the projects. Im starting to understand things, slowly, but surely.

7 more weeks of grueling training and hardwork, and endurance.

i'll make it out alive!

y h

2007-04-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

IM SO NERVOUS@

i spent the last week of hols scurrying, dotaing, gemming, chionging. well bzing.

went out drink 2 times, went for award and promos, help out for linkamania, go out celebrate stuff and so many more@!

everyday when i sleep, i always dream of sip. im so scared out of my mind!!

i really hope every thing goes well tml. PPLSSS!!

i hope my colleagues are nice ppl too :)

A - R - G - H

it doesn help when u are alone in ur company@

y h

2007-03-14T20:05:00.000+08:00

first time

yesterday. signs are showing tat im moving towards a new phase of life,

a new environment..

play dota halfway, my clan chieftain asked whether want to meet out for supper. or rather dinner since he haven ate.

so in the end went out, with 3 other people i do not know. quite funny ah. meet at tm, den all arrive. den go " hey are u ? "

lol. they are quite nice people ah. we got lost while our boss drove. hahaha. end up in geylang eat "dinner" at 5plus am.

den we drove to penisular to IRC gaming centre played a match of dota before going home.

yeah. first time go out with strangers at this type of time. so fun.

yeah and tml is gonna be the bziest day of 2007 so far!

y h

2007-03-13T02:41:00.000+08:00

so near

i din realise its almost my 19th until someone pointed to me. haha. time passes really fast.

haven blogged of late, cos my life these days is routine. can say is training for ns lol

but

today, i played bball for the first time in a year..

i thought i actually played well for not having played so long..

but then the knee.

too long nvr jump, damn pain now both knees..

hmm

this yr my wish is simple.

ah.

y h

2007-03-05T15:54:00.000+08:00

beeen really too bz. or rather lazy to update my blog.

i been playing dota this few days until 6am. man the addiction is back!

actually dota not tat fun one.

but when u play with ur friends. it suddenly become fun.

i joined a clan recently.

and its full of fun ppl.

just tat they are abit crazy. got bf gf still play until 6am! one even got wife =_=

ok.

lets just do something.

1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? no
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? no (daytona counted?)
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? yes

11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? Yes
14. Made out with a stranger? no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes (chalet. wat u expect.)

20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? no
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? no
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? no
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? yes

40. Pole danced? sort of
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? no
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no

50. Kissed in the rain? no
51. Sing in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no

60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? no
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes. if u count sea
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? no
64. Broken a bone? yes
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes

70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
89. Made a parent cry? yes

90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no
92. Dated someone more than once? no
93. Have a dog? no
94. Own an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? no
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? no

2007-02-27T16:04:00.000+08:00

The years rolled on.

sometimes i really wonder.

what have i done wrong to deserve this? have i not put in enough? am i just not the right one?

but regardless of what the end result it, i wish them the best. and may my book be closed now.

anyway. i did a life mission statement in year 1 for apel.

the question was.

In 5, 20, 80 years from now, I hope to be surrounded by the most important people in my life. This is who they are and what i plan to be doing:

somehow i misinterpret that qns tat time, as This is who they are, and what they will be doing:

dumb me!

anyway. here are the answers.

5 years
Evonne: she will make it out as a successful and independent businesswoman
Brother: My brother will be playing soccer for national under 21 team.
yc: She will be in university doing her honours
Weiliang: he will be a splendid point guard.
Yeelong: He will be in the army slogging with me

(i personally liked the last one, cos when i read it, its like damn funny la. haha)

20 years
Evonne: She will run her own company
Brother: Would have retired from soccer, and now doing his own business
yc: Will be a motivational speaker to many youths with problems
weiliang: will marry his wife whom he love very much
yeelong: Respected artist

80 years
All my friends and important people around me would now pass down our life's values to the younger ones and we would meet at a community centre to catch up on the past, while maybe enjoy a game of gateball or line dancing.

HAHAHAHA. i really cant believe i wrote all those downn. so funny.

if i were to answer this question without interpreting now.

it would be.

I would be surrounded by people who love me, and motivates me, keeps me going.

haha. thanks.

y h

2007-02-25T17:11:00.000+08:00

Nice

went prata last night.

ok not exactly prata, since i din eat, or rather we din eat.

after simpang we decided to dota,

2 v 3.

so was owning la. me and jason.

but knn we too complacent, keep going roshan.

in the end.

even with five hearts and 8.7k hp, jason and i still lose.

and jason still commented that he want reach 10k hp first.

lol.

sian.

i want a new shoe!

2007-02-24T12:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday.

ah. just realised i forgot blog about yesterday.

yesterday, overall was a good day.

early morning, went to school.

we rehearsed our presentation. and were all dressed in black,

earning a moniker, men in black, or Black day.

and of course our hit single is Singaporean idiot.

since syafiq brought his guitar too.

after that was my house,

where fiq received his first ever ang bao.

den went bbq.

great night.

they were singing hock song.

in case u guys dunno.

the guys in iad has so called composed a song, called the hock song.

its retarded and retarded, since mervin's the one singing it.

but alright, it made for a nice night.

interacted a bit here there.

and who says a great night need to be rowdy and noisy.

its the company that counts.

:)

y h

2007-02-24T01:04:00.000+08:00

Thank you.

im back from the iad makan makan 2007 aka bbq. it has been one of the most eventful nights i had. Thinking abt stuff, stuff and stuff.

I just wrote a thank you note to my lecturer who has impacted me alot, to write this entry down.

I realised recently, all my entries are like taking, and not giving.

Therefore, i am sharing with you guys this entry.

As you guys have known me, through one way or another.

i am hock, and most have seen my lame and joker side.

I guess for me to portray this side of me, is because of my inability to communicate well with others.

I have lost my primary school, secondary school, childhood friends because of my inability.

Hence, i tried to be an entertainer, even if it means humiliating myself. Because, i will get to communicate with everyone in an indirect way.

However, it isnt gonna work this way. Right now, i am just opening a one way communicative trip.

I am just using my body language and others to show to a group of people.

I never really talked to a person individually and know them.

The past 17 years of my life has been rocked with many events, ups and downs, memories and enjoyments.

It wouldnt have been possible without you guys.

I thank you, for reading this entry, and those who dont, i thank you for being there with me, even when i whine, or when i just sit down and stare at the floor, without thinking of what to do when i am down.

I thank you, for being by my side, whether in happy times or sad times, for sharing my burden, for taking the time care for me, and for making fun of me.

I thank you for making me write this post.

I felt i have really grown up in the past few weeks and months. I am able to think of others when it comes to decision, and able to care about my ownself.

I am never going to get myself drowned in agony, as this would cause you guys to worry.

I am going to make promises that i am going to keep.

I am going to talk more, and i hope you guys will continue to support me.

I am going to do something for my brother, and i hope we will be counted as brothers again.

Empty words would mean nothing, so only congratuate me when i have really done it. If i havent been doing the things i promised to do, please remind me, and get me on the right track again.

I have been wanting to write something like this, since i do not know when i will die. I do not want to leave without any regrets. I do not want my dream to be unfinished.

Thank you guys. and i will continue to grow up more.

i am gonna be an adult soon.

thanks.

y h