i just feel damm bloody frustrated now.. so decide to write another blog today.. why can't a person who has worked for just a few days understand wad a person who worked for several months feel.. was i even allowed to join in e first place.. no.. until now.. she allowed me into the commitee.. when it was at such a critical stage.. does tat mean i nvr put in effort.. wrong.. dammit.. i thought tat the int. bazaar was the last ever proposal i going to do.. but i decided to carry on to try begging ma'am so tat i can help out with the comb. training.. its isn't tat i dunno wat some ppl may feel now.. i been true it lor.. bloody hell.. tat was the worst i experienced tat time.. i am the vice chair for tkrcy.. but did any one give a fking shit to who i was or not.. all got qns all go ask yl nicely.. all respect yl decision.. and i was dere being shoved around.. lk dunno wat lk tat.. hav i become such a useless idiot..

i noe tat u all may be tat u all trust me then tell me to do stuff. but sometimes abit too guofen lor.. i dun want to be shoved around lor.. so i was asking myself.. i worked 4 years in red cross.. have all gone down the drain ah.. i feel like just sailing my way thru liao.. since no one respected me.. why shd i care.. giving up is better lorhz.. wat shit sia.. why am i doing all these.. onli bring abt unhappiness..
then during ULC.. i worked so damm bloody hard.. fking shit.. nvr slp 2 days in a row just to summit the proposal to the chairperson.. i was the secretary lor.. my grp memebers on off on off.. so lame.. onli a few helped out.. in e end.. ended up doing their part.. from secretary become, safety and food.. when i summitted my proposal.. the gd points all that chiar take.. and the bad i take.. wad is dis man... its not i wan complain lor.. then at the poc.. after i failed.. i was tinking with my mates.. we would rather go out of the nite lor.. since all we did.. reaped nothing.. all of us who worked were in tears lor.. i still remembered xinyu.. very cham.. but wat.. we never give up on tat nite lor.. when everyone was slacking.. WE WERE THE ONES who DID THE BANNER... WHEN EVERYONE WAS EATING.. WE WERE PREPARING... WHEN EVERYONE WAS IN DISCO.. WE WERE SEARCHING FOR A STUPID GUARDBELT.. in the end it was in one of the discoers bags.. lame shit.. when everyone went home..we were clearing up .. and spent the time comforting each other.. i felt realli lk.. giving up all i had tat time lor.. work so hard for wat.. even my results lk shit liao.. used to top become flop.. but i noe.. i just gained something.. experience.

To reach success.. one must climb the steps of failures..
haiz.. i feel better after "shouting" out my feelings le.. will anyone understand or not?