Sunday, July 24, 2005,
Daysi wanted to blog this yesterday, but was too tired. i wanted to blog this on the other blog, but i chose to blog on this. i wanted to this or tat, end up doing that and this.
last week - chiong all the projects. end up submitting comdi project 1 10 minutes frm submission deadline. i was abit disappointed with spaceform though. it din turn out the way i wanted it to turn out to be.. its a marked deprovement. but i am not ready to give up. i have project 2 to go and i know tat i can do better.
friday, overnight in hq, did some fa preparation for heritage trail.. end up after doin finish, played dota until 5.30am, bathed. and went to victoria theatre in a cab. assigned as roving team ic for cluster 7. this is the first time, i am given a job to be a ic for a overall cluster. i mean, its one of the biggest job i received.. so was quite challenging. in the end,i think i have organised my cluster quite well, even teaching my roving team lots of stuff on leadership and mapreading.. in the end, my team can now walk around fort canning, and know which place is which place!...
and u know, my grp did a stupid trick on a herritage trail grp following us. haha. we led them the wrong way on purpose, then went the other direction. haha after tat rejoined with qing xiang, the new vi, and we tested the overall cluster on mapreading as well. well, there are ppl who din know raffles city is so near suntec city. haha. i think i can click with qing xiang quite well. not bad at all. talked quite a lot.
after tat reach suntec. damm hungry and tired. got abit of snacks but not real lunch or breakfast. oh did i mention tat i walked 8 rounds around fort canning, from top to bottom, from side to side. exploring new routes. end result = sore feet + abrasion
after tat went to ndp relay run, i think i was talking crap and lame on the bus. well at least i think i was talking nonsense. it happens when i don sleep, and to keep awake, i talk stuff like this, but i feel i was entertaining. so well..
when i ran, at first its quite ok. then it all went down. i knew i was going down, when the speed of wind is heading towards me, all the raindrops came peltering against my face. i knew it when i couldn open my eyes. i had it when my spine injury came back again..
i know no matter how unfit i am, i can train, but. that spine injury. is something i cannot take away frm my life. ever since sec 3, played basketball, got injured, could not move for about 1 hour. i din see a doc. my personality is like tis, i fall sick, i don care, my recipe is doing something i like, then i will get well. i basically don care abt my health one.
it is really painful, to be seated on the bus, while everyone is running. it is painful to watch ur teamates infront, cheering on, while i am at the back gritting in pain. i wanted to use the inhaler, cos i had lapse of short breath.. but decided against it. i wanted to battle the pain. at that moment, my life was in a downtime. it was those periods in secondary sch life. those depression lapses. i din know wat to do, din know how to pick myself up. soon after plugging on ear pieces, i fell asleep on the bus. when i woke up. ( think i sleep for minutes only) i saw images of 2 girls running, one of them is qi hui running for the 3.2 km . i suddenly had an urge to cheer on them. i looked ahead.. and joined them cheering.
after tat. i was quite ok. but nvrtheless. its something i need to admit. ever since tat spine injury, i haven been able to get rid of my pain. my 2.4 before spine injury was 12 minutes. after tat was 14minutes. which is very bad. my speed decreased, fitness rate went down, everything physical went down, except for my size which went rounder. i rememberd tat i was once underweight.
i think tat.
i shd just rest my mind now.
i withdrawed myself frm the team.
y h
12:54 PM
