the light from the heavens.

haha. my frequency of updating has become like.. say 2 weeks one time?

cant be blame actually.

lately.. im getting the dose of working hard...

aiming and achieving..

i still remember the days of year 1.. when i keep nagging at yuzi for not doing work..

den come year 2 become he nag me..

but at least im glad now.. that i have become more studious (shdn stay studious in this term as i dont really study) even though it came really late.

i know i have given myself hope, by really focusing and feeling for the project.. im just so immersed in my project now that i would really want it to be built out.. even though its impossible.. i even dreamt abt my project yesterday haha.

hmm. what updates..

its really work and work .. nothing much.. but there was something really interesting yesterday..

admist all the work, i went down to velvet dragon to support our fellow batchmate qiutong in the nus sports bash paegent finals.

anyway it was really amazing that she won.. its like..

lets put in how her ex squad mates say:

" last time in our tkgs days, we would always discuss whos the most prettiest, and qiutong never had cut the mark! and now shes turned up to be some paegent queen!"

i saw the competition itself.. it was stiff, and judges include various modelling agencies and new urban male company..

i guess what made her won, was that she was very natural.. she never tried too hard to impress,
she really enjoyed it, and was truthful to herself..

even though she may not be the prettiest amongst all the contestant, her naivety and natural essence especially on the part where emcees describe the contestant (qiutong was a parade commander back in school) << LOL) ,

made everyone, even the neutrals support her..

the people beside us were all screaming for her. haha.

so whats the point of telling all this.

when we are around a particular person, or people, we tend to look at the person like who she is, and we will always see the person as himself or herself, no matter what changes occur..

changes are forever. its like 3 years back, most of us never expect yc or qt to change their fashion, dressing or image, for yc case even her language (=X) as yl discussed with me.

i was having a short but interesting talk with weiliang on cab home.

he was commenting that everyone is changing..

and i was commenting what would happen in 5 years time.

everyone will get settled down with their own lives, maybe even marriage..

its quite scary how fast time flies.. its like im just out of my puberty.. and now.. im nearing 20.

today.. on my way out of sch, me and my friends saw a very mystical sign.. a rainbow around the full moon.

a few days ago got rainbow around sun..

is it for the worse or better, the way our weather is changing so rapidly.

cant be help.. we are responsible for our damage to the environment..

i cant help but think about the calm before the storm..

maybe the skies are trying to tell us.. stop before its really too late..

but really.. not many ppl are taking notices of it..

but of cos..

like what the rainbow suggests,

theres hope.


y h

the marathon continues.

so long nvr update!

maybe cos due to the fact that i have been buzying doing work, work and work...

last fornight's disaster is becoming a sweet dream for me.

on national day eve, went pitstop cafe, 28 of us, to celebrate dearest yi er's bdae.

very enjoyable, think we almost drowned the whole cafe with our voices, with our celebrations.

haha.

after that chilled out at macs @ circular a while before zhao-ing home.

the next day, had a fantastic day out as well.

national day @ marina!

with some of my batchmates. although lots couldnt come, i believe we had an enjoyable outing that day, kite flying!! how long since i last flown a kite!

and im really amazed how high our kite flew! once our team(me, clarence, edwin, yl) got the technique right, our first kite flew AWAY! so there was this joke about the kite landing in time for the nat day parade.

2nd kite our team bought, amazing.. we just flew the kite high and beyond, tie to a tree and have a picnic and laugh at the other team!(yc, zaidi, suyin)

at ard 7, edwin went off, and we went to opposite the floating platform to join the crowd to watch the parade and fireworks.

fantastic view of the fireworks although sadly we dint manage to catch the parade. after that, went home in a rush as next day got interim pin up, and havent done a shit yet.

but as usual you know, i did not get any work done! i just went home, bathe, sleep, wake up like.. 5am to do work. When i woke up, the contents from the indian art book i have been reading suddenly started relating to me, its as if a concept started to take place right in front of me!

it was really exciting to have a concept that i thought was good, and most of all, something that i would normally wouldnt have thought of.

i will update my work at the end of this week, which is the end of part 1 of our major project 3.

So, went the interim pin up, was quite confident, and thought i presented alright. Derek accepted my idea, and off to the weekend!

Saturday, seriously was slacking, and went school around 1pm to do work with yuzi and kenny. did manage to do finish the brainless work.(old plans and sections drafting) and went off to orchard to meet huda and co for swensen dinner. pretty ordinary. saw jimmy on my way there.

very coincidental, he was going dinner at swensen with his friends too! so we had dinner, then parted, as everyone was feeling tired.

the next day, woke up and chionged my stuff.. odd thing is that i just couldnt concentrate. only did finish half a proposal, and chatted/slept whole day.

then, monday finally school!

went school and derek had a shocking news for us. DO NOT REMOVE THE PARTI WALLS!

actually i sort of agree, removing the parti walls will cause the shophouse to lose its significance and we might as well do a bungalow instead.

I spent half the day brainstorming and sketching for a new layout to align my concept with, and manage to start my model making that day, did abit, brought home, slept, woke up at 6am today to do my model.. did half of it, and went school for consultation.

Although i was confident about my scheme, i dint expect it to go down so well with derek. Afterall, hes a recognised person from the industry, and does not give the "go" sign as often. So, when he told me to go ahead, i was happy, believe he was too. and spent whole day do model..

almost finished already by the time im typing this. left external stairwell touch up here there, and im done. shall do tomorrow morning when i wake up early again...

otherwise.. p3 is becoming a smooth journey for me.. actually too smooth.. im rather scared that something will crop up...

lets pray.. third time lucky please!



:D

y h

beneath it all

all my friends. well. almost all my friends seem to know me for what i am on the surface,

there are things that are perceived things that they din know and things that i cant quite explain.

tomorrow theres a last minute presentation.

finally our grp stuff are done .. i hope.

its tiring.

i cant wait for the freedom of thursday..

even if it is just for a moment..

cause i know, once thursday passes, it will be chionging again.

sometimes work is good. at least it limits my time to think about other stuff.

but sometimes it isnt good..

life is a double edged blade.

it just never ends.

its about whether you can persevere and move on.

or lay down and be defeated.

i was rather sad over the weekends. (fri-sun). but it doesn matter anymore.

cause it was never made to be mattered.

listening to my blog song somehow just made it worse. haha.

alright then,

till next update,

y h

You feel that you're lonely
It doesn't prove that you are alone
You feel that nobody wants you
It doesn't mean that no one cares about you

Listen to words I say for I will always by your side
You mean everything to Me and I will never leave you cos I love you so

If you think that you're nothing
Before Me you were something beautiful
You think that you can't do anything
But you can do a lot of things with Me
So listen to the words I'll say for I will always be by your side
You mean everyting to Me and I will never leave you cos I love you so

Reff:
When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you
When I say that I love you I will give everything for you
No more fear about the future and blame for the past
I give everything when I say that I love you

You think that you're nothing
Before me you were something beautiful
You think that you can't do anything
But you can do a lot of things with Me
So listen to the words I'll say for I will always be by your side
You mean everything to Me and I will never leave you cos I love you so

Reff:
When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you
When I say that I love you I will give everything for you
No more fear about the future and blame for the past
I give everything when I say that I love you

Bridge:
I want you to know that I die for you
I want you to know that I give all my life for you
When I say that I love.. say that I love you

Reff:
When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you
When I say that I love you I will give everything for you
No more fear about the future and blame for the past
I give everything when I say that I love you

I give everything when I say that I love you
When I say that I love you I really do
When I say that I love you I really do

FKED UP DAY UPDATE





i will always rmb this date...



1st to 2nd august 2007.



the most fked up period of this yr.



it all began in morning... everyone in studio doing up their indi design brief... only a few.. no at tat time only me.. doing grp stuff.. doing the fotoshop thing..



so.. come afternooon modelling team start doing model... yet some ppl whom shall not be named go do indi stuff... and end up im only person whos doing storyboard.. wif xinni doing the contents..



so in the end.. i have ppl coming to me say yonghock, can i have the siteplan floorplan?



i was like " .... , come on instead of asking me this, cant u like ask me wat im doing, or whter u can help out? "



so in the end all do until... 11plus.. security guard chased us out.. me jiatee and jonathan go my hse do model.. i touched up on storyboard... do until 3am.. b4 left sch.. michelle supposingly called this guy called alvin who is a friend of wendy.



renee and aaron oso come my hse.. at ard 2am.. den as we were leaving .. to print at this shop owned by alvin.. i called him.. he give me tat super duper SIAN voice.



" hello, is that alvin?"



" yes...."



" so we are printing later right, im a friend of michelle"



" dunno..."



" all right, im coming over now to print. "



" ok... "



HANG.





25 mins later.. on a truck .. (aaron)



reached tat freaking place.. selegie road..



called tat guy..



" sorry, the number u jus called is CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE , please try again later "



he was out clubbing b4...

my conclusion. he only entertain girl requests.

wat a jerk ==

xinni came a few mins ltr. 22 bucks cab fee ==.. in the end aaron drove us back to my hse... and left.. so me and xinni do design brief.. but so tired until cant tink.. early morning tat go sch on dads car.. 7am tat alvin guy called again.. in a DIFFERENT TONE.

" hey hi, im sorry, did u try and called me just now? my phone was weird. hows your printing stuff? "

" ... nvm, we will print in sch "

" ok"

HANG.

in the end went xorex at 8.30am... and tried to print..

BUT.

when i give the lady my stuff.. to open.. she go open other ppls one oso.. so run 3 prog at same time.. many files.. of cos lag.. in the end had wait for 40 MINUTES for my stuff to START printing..

BY THEN, derek summoned us already, cos late for presentation.

in the end whole grp cant present.. minus 10% already..

so ya.

== fked up day.. went home and slp.

truly fked up.

but the next day was a better day.. yeah... blog abt it later.

y h

!@$@#%#^

"Welcome To Wherever You Are"

Maybe we're different, but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden, running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end

[Chorus]
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel your drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyones a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different
Just take a look around

[Chorus]

Be who you want to, be who you are
Everyones a hero, everyones a star

When you wanna give up, and your hearts about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes

don really feel like updating today. quite sick. tml ah.

merv: i will update tat fking fk up day tml ==

bad day

Nobody knows
Just why we’re here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here


i had the most fked up morning in my life.

in conclusion a bad day, add to the not sleeping..

==

sucks.

i tink im gonna slp soon..

damn tired.


y h

just close my eyes..