i'm walking away

ok.. today sux.. sux like hell.. torture. perhaps this is why i am stuffing 10 small sauages.. 6 siew mais and 3 bacons and vegies and rice down my mouth.. even when i had a diarrhoea.. for those who already felt like puking when u see the first 3 lines.. don read. for those who want to noe how i feel now.. read on

first ting in morn, wake up.. bloody sht.. my outer body was freezing.. but my inner body was hot lk running fever lk tat.. then had to struggle to get out of bed... even when i reach sch still lk tat.. and i nvr complete my hist hw.. anyway.. reach hist period tat time.. lucky mr tan nvr collect back sbqs if not he will kill me. kept a clean record again. he returned yesterday's test on civil war. did consistent again.. but nvr go up one..argh 10/13.. ok..lets' look
this term - test 1 - 9/10 test 2 - 10/13 test 3 - 10/13 .. considered to the barely pass and fail grades last term shd be quite happy ba.. ok.. MAYBE this is the onli spark today

lets carry on.. gonna be quite long blog. dunno if ppl will bother to read. i not quite in the mood. moody ba. pe did running and basketball. ok. i sux. scored one ball but wasted many. lets just fast forward to aft sch. surprise eng test. ok tat sux. totally off. how can like tat lor...sian lk hell.. but this time manage to do abit. quite noisy the audi. guys in front were just rocking the chairs. =___=.. aft eng i stayed behind with lin hao and shu wen for aop session. didn't scold them much cos tcher was dere.. now this sux. anyway. monday gonna give them hell..

ok. aft reach home. i read someting. thought someting. and mood changed le. i had diarrhoea.. damm pain. ok.. let's just use one dialogue session to shout it out. hopefully i'll feel better aft shouting

lets say.. there was this person.. X.. will be scolding me

X: hey wat the hell is wif u man.. u look lk some fk shit
me: can u just fk off. u are in my way
X: u tink i dunno wat u tinking now.. u loser. u keep tinking u are the one. no no no.. u are the one loser. yes i mean loser. don say a word. i gonna tell u off. wat is ur fking problem? u have frens but u treat alot of them badly. u go around complaining to others abt ur diarrhoea ur fever ur hw. ur studies. hey i mean.. they are urs. not them. so can u just shut ur gap. u tink u are clever. wat abt those failed grades of urs. u are just a loser. u chinese fail chinese. shame la. put ur ass on ur face will look even better. nonono.. wrong..put pig ass even look nicer. now. u always dream dream dream. do u realli tink u will get wat u want? hell no. all words but no action. want pursue ur dream? fat hope.. no.. i shdn't even say fat hope.. shd say just go and bang urself. u brought it upon urself. u chose this road. u decided to suffer in pain and agony. who ask u. silent silent.. hesistate hesistate.. nvr listen fren advice.. now see la. u are worst off than any one. now ur one and golden chance down the drain. wats with u putting ur nick as "u will always be the one, i promise" .. got use meh? wats ur prob man. so wat if she's the one. u sure she's availible.. dream on.. yes dream on.. u tell ur cadets " all words no action = no show" speak for urself. yeah. speak for urself. u.. even words failed u. u want to tok .. become so coward. u are a failure in love. u are a failure in life. u are a failure in everything. fk u.

Me: now. i noe i am a pathetic loser. now can u just ...leave me alone. and.now fk u rite back

*the fk fk words are inspired by the song josh sent me " fk it " and "fk u rite back"

ok end of story. shall stuff somemore food down my evil stomach. shd i stay or shd i continue in pain
i'm walking away.. from the troubles of my life