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today had the aids awareness programme.. although it is kind of boring.. with the speeches.. i tink they are more on their own personal views on aids instead.. but i still tink it is meaningful.. as i looked into the flame of the candle.. it reminds me of the aids patients.. they are suffering.. their life.. could end any time.. just like the candle.. but .. if onli there was no discrimation

some ppl oso darn rude.. ppl saying chants and prayers.. got one lady laughing.. got one man sleepin.. i had the mind to stare at them and i tink the lady got abit quiet after e staring..

otherwise... just now during e walk.. somebody said someting.. tat poisoned my mood.. tat injected pain into my already shaky emotional system.. when she said tat.. i had to deny it.. although she aimed me.. i cannot deny it.. wat she said was true.. she read my mind.. although i thought she couldn't have.. nobody had read my mind.. except for this person whom i don tok to ... tis person...had gave my heart a tight slap.. a stab....

and for tat.. i went crazy, paranoid, stupid, lame, scared.. watever negative emotions u can tink of.. a big apology to lin hao and huda ma'am for my craziness just now.. walked home.. slowly.. sang songs.... out of e blue.. to my own tune.. although other ppl would tink i'm crazy and monotonous.. but i loved it.. the feeling...reached home.. on e computer to listen song and lie flat on e ground... totally defeated and exhausted..

morning went to pray .. and bai my grandpa and his mother...
quite meaningful
my frens.. as always i had prayed for your happiness =)

otherwise.. i am sunken deep into the words tat person said.......