its not over

i'm missing u..
girl even if i noe u there by my side..
but lately it seems..
e distance between us is growing too wide..
i'm so afraid that u say its over..
its the last thing i wanna hear..

if your heart's not in it for real..
pls don try to fake wat u don feel..
if love's already gone..
its better to let me noe..
cos i'll give e whole world for u..
anything u ask from me i'll do..
but i won't ask u to stay..
i rather walk away
if your heart's not in it..

u say tat u love me..
baby sometimes.. u're just saying e words..
u got something to tell me..
don keep it inside
i'm so afraid u'll say its over..
but girl i'll make it easy for u....

how i wish i could take us back in time..
but its gone too far..
now we can't rewind..
there's nothing i can do..
except for losing u..




DAMM SAD SONG .. >.< ... haiz.. hai.. sch life sux.. how i wish i can go out and enjoy.. lately been going out.. bad bad.. yesterday went buy comix with yl.. today went buy comix with baba.. tml? nah.. tml i will not .. *swears ..

but then sunday .. tink gonna rock jimmy house.. euro 2004 final.. who against who? i dunno.. my prediction tat it will be Holland against Czech republic..
tonite holland face up against portugal.. gonna watch.. so slping early.. better win.. van nistelrooy.. give them a ruud awakening

lately it seems..
the distance is growing too wide...
hai.
sian. don like life lk dis.
sux. so wat if i am enjoying hanging out with my frens more often

right now
wahahah... my fren com kena one jialat virus.. make me worry abt mine too.. so i went to trendmicro system to scan..
guess wat? virusus... damm.. lucky now gone.. haha.. today school sux.. sux.. haiz.. haven touch hist hw.. tml muz wake up damm early... urghhh

It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
There's nothin' that I wouldn't do
Baby if I only knew


The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart

I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anything to set things right
'Cause your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
Let me prove my love is real
And make you feel the way I feel
I promise I would give the world
If only you would tell me girl

Give me one more chance, to give my love to you
'Cause no one on this earth loves you like I do,
tell me



I turn back time
To make you mine
And find a way back to your heart
I beg and plead
Fall to my knees
To find a way back to your heart
(background)
These Arms of mine
Are open wide
From now until the end of time
You are my world what can i do?
This heart of mine belongs to you

sian.. back to your heart? realli?

Tenderness

tml starting school le.. prepare to die.. no hw tat i did.. hai.. so disappointed.. but then they gave us only a week....dot... these few days got try to do la.. but in the end.. ended up mixing with my soccer frens and brother.. and when went out to study with people.. end up i reading comic..haha....

hmmmm.. ming tian shou shi ba. zai jian.

*prays

Freedom or Misfortune?

From tomorrow onwards.. it will be a whole new life for me.. everything out there in the world.. every decision tat i make will affect my life.. whether i want a bright future.. or be a loser in the future all depends on wat i choose...

haha..if i want e life i desire to.. i better study hard.. put away all the disturbances .. i need to concentrate... but with an enormous pile of hw.. it is.. er.. nothing to say..

yesterday had wanted to do hw while waiting for holland verus sweden match. but.. as usual.. lol..

i finish blogging shut down com. do hw le..
Holland had lost in the last 4 major shootouts they been in.. i had a tremendous scare when holland and sweden battled out a tremendously even match.. both sides had their fair chances.. first half was dominated by the dutch.. limiting the swedes to only one shot on target.. robben had a 20 yard shot tipped over.. seedorf and cocu almost got lucky with their chances.. nistelrooy tried a ibrahimovic style of kick..

2nd half.. the dutch almost take advantage with their first attack.. robben crossed in.. only for van to head wide.. van had another header..this time agonising near.. van then controlled a great ball.. with his chest.. but was unlucky to see his shot tat beat the keeper ricochet off the defender..

sweden oso had some great chances.. a mistake by stam led to an ibrahimovic shot.. but kudos to cocu with the last min clearance off the line.. ljunberg had a shot smacked against the crossbar.. larsson had a shot against the upright.. robben had a shot against the crossbar... van nistelrooy couldn't quite finish from 15 yards out...

the penalties looked terrifying near as dutch fans held their prayers.. makaay having a shot.. just wide..

penalties..dutch's penalties weren't that good to begin with...
van smacked the first one in.. larsson did the same... then.. ibrahimovic missed? reiziger scored... however.. cocu had his against the crossbar.. ljuniberg's one went in abeit a lucky rebound... his shot crashed on the underside of the cross bar.. rebounded on van der sar's back and into goal... melberg had his decisive spot kick saved brilliantly by van der sar.. before robben fired low to the keeper's left for the win.

i will blog later ba.

Should i?

Its such boring days nowadays.. homework and school one of the reasons.. sian like hell.. today stayed at home...

but went out for soccer...was off form like sai.. got 2 goals disallowed.. well.. i don see why my 2nd goal is disallowed... urghhh... otherwise..was firing blanks everywhere..dizzy...

den went to a malay barber for e first time in my life. tormenting... i had to wait for about 3 hours before my turn came... all the while i was playing with my hp.. snake...dotted... then no one msg me... sian!...

hmm.. should i? i dunno.. i told myself starting of this yr.. tat i will let her noe after the exams.. but then i sort of broke it.. but don tink the letter was ever found.. hai. shucks.. there goes my day

Eternity

woah.. sometimes i wonder if i ever reused my head title for my blog...

today nothing much again...woke up to some con yard demolition... the sound of construction literary tearing me apart.. so had to get up off my bed.. stare at computer.. before josh asked me to go study at simei.. we went.. did question 1 to 4 of maths.. after tat... josh and i threw the books away and played some ball.....

ok.. some hao lian person ask me put in my blog one.. want whole world noe sia
..
ok.. tat hao lian person got so happy after teaching me how to shoot properly from some position.. not bad la.. got improve... at least i passed some tests rite? =)...haha.. the ppl there quite pro.. everything oso dong bang lay up..siao sia..got one short one..even shorter than me i tink... did many nice lay ups..made me go crazy...

after tat bought one piece 21 and went eat.. den go home... quite sian... the fone exploded on me while i was singing becos of u... dot.. and my msn hang on me at e same time..lol

dot.

Beauty

66 posts have passed by..

yet. only now.. did i realise how true the words in my blog were..

- Everything changes but beauty remains.. something so tender that i can't explain -

yea...
even if the whole world changes.. even if people change all the time..
the world we live on.. will change every now and den.. but the beauty.. in itself and us.. will always remain.. its a beauty that cannot be replaced.. can never be... Even though how a person may change.. as long as his inner beauty.. is exposed.. u will find him the same old kid around the block..

well.. guess.. i'm kind of crappy..

From Air gear..
Translated

If he was a bird.. in the sky..
I would be a fish in the ocean..
From starting till now.. we were living in 2 totally different worlds..

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ok.. back.. last few days never blog.. sian and tired..today nothing much.. the camp.. and the camp fire.. i managed to teach cpl punishment at last.. phew.. campfire.. boring. orange juice sux

Thoughts

sometimes.. i would fall into deep thoughts..like i just did on the fone just now...

if you like a particular person.. den u would definitely want her to be happy.. and not be hurt... but how far can u go upon to ensure it...

lets say...

Troubled soul had always liked Confused girl since the time when confused girl first talked to him ... but being the coward he is.. troubled soul could not express himself in the right way.. Confused girl had already had a certain liking to Troubled soul

One day, troubled soul popped a question to confused girl. " Do you like me? " Confused girl started to tell troubled soul about how she felt when she liked a particular person last time. Troubled soul, being the coward, or in this case, thought that by making this choice would make confused girl be happy, told confused girl
"i think you shouldn't give up on him, go for him while its not too late"

Do you think that the Confused girl will be happy? Troubled soul is the one asking the girl the question, yet in the end, he is asking the girl to leave. Most probably, confused girl would leave. People would think troubled soul is a no use bastard.

But. Have you thought about how troubled soul feels? Maybe. Being the coward he is. He dared not think of him too highly against the old flame. He had assumed that the girl would be happy with the old flame.
What he wanted to do is to bring happiness to the girl. But.. just that its not done in the right way.

Few months passed, Troubled soul had undergone some transformation. He tried to socialise. and try to strengthen his manly image. All this time, although he is trying to forget confused girl.. what made him transform was still her. So, naturally, he would still be thinking of her.

Meanwhile, Confused girl got herself confused. She had given up hope on the old flame. And came along Fake Dob. Fake Dob had given her new hope. Maybe he was the one she was really looking for.

And came another soul, Old Timid. Old timid met confused girl. it was all to sudden. He could not have known what his feelings for the girl were? .. As he was raised in an atmosphere without many girls. He felt a strong affection towards Confused girl.

Confused girl is really confused.
First, She does not know whether Fake Dob would be faithful
Second, She does not know how to deal with Old Timid
Third, perhaps, she does not even know what troubled soul is thinking.
How will love guide her through
Who will appear to be her true star?


Maybe god would bring wings to these questions soon to me.
If anyone have thoughts like this to share with me... pls talk to me.. i like listening to such things.. it brings back alot of memories... although.. it is...

you needed me

sian sia...today finally last day of the bloody lame compre class...
got most of the qns correct anyway..lol

after tat zhao to katong sc with des.. we participated in a competition.. spent 15 bucks in comics to join..lol... hope can win!...

otherwise.. go back home slack and then go orchard look stuff.. bought one piece no. 19 liao..



SIAN ! ! ! ! ! TML I WANT PLAY BBALL! ! ! ! ..

oh ya.. missed out on a great chance. des ask me whether wan go for training on monday with gc.. got red cross camp T________________T!!!!

All i need is you

yeah all i need is you..
you..
yeah..
hell sure..


dotted.. today whole day sian... morn. went to sch for the english ting.. better than yest. but still... haha...

after tat went to comtemplate on whether want to play bball.. go home .. or eat? chose the middle one.. but then hj ask me go play winning eleven.. so haha!

ruud was on form.. perhaps.. i placed my beloved ruud van nistelrooy sticker in front of hj.. made him lost 2 matches in a row..

my ruud scored 3 hat tricks in 3 conscecutive matches... damm power.. but wat took our breath away was a cracking shot from hasslebaink.. siao sia...

after tat.. fone call ended with an explosive fizz.. urghh.....

trying to dl songs b4 that crucial england versus swiss match up..

Looking forward

today had school... i am already trying to lead a new life after being snatched of my hp yesterday.. very sad.. all my pictures gone.. especially the wallpaper..haha.. u noe wat pose hor!! ..

anyway.. today was quite a happy day for me.. although din have a good start.. with thje crappy lesson.. lame sia.. den i realised i went for the wrong lesson.. my fren said that i should be in compo.. instead.. but heck la.. since i go compre then i go there le... anyway.. compre can have fun with dessy..

after sch played bball for a while.. very tired... my knee yesterday played soccer.. bleed.. pain.. and i spent yesterday nite.. turning around in bed.. cannot sleep at all.. lied in bed from 10 to 11 plus.. tried all sorts of sleeping poses.. sian sia..

now my mother frens come my house... so damm sian.. i wanna go out buy comix read.. or play arcade.. or play bball.. but no one to read, play with....!!!...

ok.. blog at nite if something iteresting happen ba..

!!

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but wat made my day today is tat.. des actually told me he wanted to find me to make jersey.. but couldn't contact me... it made me feel that i could actually play with gc.. i'm so happy.. playing basketball alone is not fun at all.. i wanna play in a team.. desmond ask me if i want to go for the super tough training... urgh.. dunno whether got time though..

lost

went and play soccer just now.. just when my lousy team.. lost 2 matches.. we won the third against kidea team.. my 2nd goal abit tyco.. the keeper directed the ball into his own goal..

next match.. i equalised after a great pass from yi hao's fren.. but thats when my hp got snatched away.. got one boy there look after items.. see them take away but never do anything.. so suay...hai

will get a new sim card tml ba.. same no.

everytime

yest nvr blog cos tired.. thot today got sch.. dot.. actually is tml.. haha.. yest just went out study ... came back quite late..

Just close your eyes.. let me hold your hand.. together.. i'll take you through the rainbow and to the stars..

just had this lines in mind .. don tink it belongs to any song.. love it man.. but? will i have the 2nd chance? dunno ba..

got to start doin hw le.. quite slow on schedule

If the world ends

haz.. today i went watch the day after tml with yf
the movie damm inpactful.. nice.. teaches us not to take tings for granted .. if not disaster will happen... man.. imagine.. in just seconds u turn into ice.. tats scary....

during e movie.. got one baby keep crying.. then make noise.. "one" "two" .. so on...haha.. very anticlimatic..

haha.. my time crisis improved alot le.. haha.. never lose as many lives and hit more targets.. unlike last time.. sux like wat..

when walking home tat time.. gave some of my chicken bun to a cat.. haha.. e cat.. damm funny.. wanted to sleep on my legs.. but then the bus came.. =____=!!!..

all for tonite ba.. haha.. first movie or 2nd this yr onli sia.. amazing..

Featured song
Backstreet Boys - Shape of my heart

All Out

will it be paid through... dunno ah.. hmm.. today end of hols schedule.. but oso mmeans start of EURO!!

i am beind ruud! and holland all e way man!

ok.. i wanna type down my top 100 songs... ( mostly are love or sentimental songs.. rock song not so much included.. but i oso love them.. especially linkin park, busted and simple plan)
( not in order )
1.3 doors down- Here without you
2.Jay Chou- snail
3.5566- shou hou
4.5566- wo nan guo
5.98 Degrees - i do cherish you
6.98 Degrees - Invisble man
7.98 Degrees - The Hardest Thing
8.98 Degrees - The only thing that matters
9.zhou chuang xiong - wo zhai shen bian
10.Energy - Gei ni de ge
11.Jay chou - qing Tian
12.Jay chou - hui dao guo qu
13.A1- like a rose
14.A1-When i'm missing you
15.Air Supply - All out of love
16.Alicia keys - if i aint got u
17.Guy Sebastian - Angels brought me here
18.Avril Lavinge - I'm with you
19.Ayashi No Ceres - Scarlet
20.Ayumi Hamasaki - Endless Sorrow
21.Backstreet Boys - Anywhere for you
22.Backstreet Boys - Back to your heart
23.Bardot - I should have never let you go
24.BBMAK - The ghost of you and me
25.BBMAK - Out of my heart
26.Blessid union of souls - Standing at the edge of the earth
27.Blessid union of souls - I believe
28.Blessid union of souls - Let me be the one
29.Blue - Breathe easy
30.Blue - If you come back
31.BoA - Waiting
32.Bon Jovi - thank you for loving me
33.Bon Jovi - All about loving you
34.Bosson - One in a million
35.Bryan Adams - Everything i do is for you
36.Bryan Adams - Cloud number nine
37.Celine Dion - The power of love
38.Celine Dion - Because you loved me
39.Celine Dion - My heart will go on
40.Clay Aiken - Invisible
41.Clay Aiken - This is the night
42.Daniel Benningfield - Never gonna leave your side
43.Delta goodrem - Lost without you
44.Destiny's child - Emotions
45.Elton John - Can you feel the love tonight
46.Energy - Missing you
47.Enrique iglesias - Hero
48.Enrique Iglesias - Just wanna be with you
49.Enrique iglesias - addicted
50.Faye wong - eyes on me
51.Gareth gates - say it isn't so
52.Gareth gates - What my heart wants to say
53.Glen Medeiros - Un roman D amite
54.Glen medeiros - Nothing's gonna change my love for you
55.Guang Liang - Ru guo ni hai ai wo
56.Hoobastank - The reason
57.indecent obsession - Fixing a broken heart
58.Jang Nara - i can do well by myself
59.Jay Chou - Gui Ji
60.Jay Chou - An jing
61.Jay Chou - shi jie mo ri
62.Jeff Chang - bu yao tui ta shou
63.Jeff Chang - ai bu liu
64.Jordan Chan - Zhuang long zuo ya
65.Josh Groban - you raise me up
66.Koda kumi - 1000 no kotoba
67.Kyla - Because of you
68.Leanne rimes - I need you
69.LinKin park - numb
70.Love Hina - Yakusoku
71.Lunar silver star story - Wind's nocturne
72.Mariah Carey - Hero
73.Mariah Carey - Through the rain
74.MLTR - That's why you go away
75.MLTR - you took my heart away
76.Midnight sons - If only tears could bring you back
77.MLTR - Take me to your heart
78.N sync - This i promise you
79.Nick Carter - Do i have to cry for you
80.No doubt - running
81.O town - All or nothing
82.Phil collins - you'll be in my heart
83.Plus one - here in my heart
84.Robbie Williams - Better Man
85.Ronan Keating - If tomorrow never comes
86.S club - Say goodbye
87.S club - Never had a dream come true
88.Savage Garden - I knew i love you
89.Simple Plan - Perfect
90.THe corrs- all the love in the world
91.The calling - whenever you go
92.Timmy T - One more try
93.Tommy Page - A shoulder to cry on
94.Tommy Page - paintings in my mind
95.Aerosmith - I don wanna miss a thing
96.5566 - Chun zhai
97.Vitamin C- Graduation
98.Wang li hom - Ni bu zai
99.Westlife - Forever
100.Zhao Chuan - Ai yao ze mo shuo chu kou

wow.. even with 100 options.. i couldn't choose properly.. too many appealing songs ba...


hmmm..... later mebbe watching movie .. the day after tomorrow..
just now was reading the newpaper.. saw a very interesting article.. in the middle spread...

abt this girl..
she say she is 16 years old.. never been in any relationship..
but then dunno wat is the feeling like.. hang out with a grp of ppl.. got close to this guy.. spend time toking to the guy on fone abt feelings and problems.. dunno if she likes this guy.. or just liking the idea .. dunno whether she will hurt this guy by telling him she likes him.. dunno abt this guy's feelings for her...

perhaps.. the age and situation caught me ba.. well.. dunno whether i will be writing a reply to this .. see first ba!

If only tears could bring you back
How will I start tomorrow without you here?
Who's heart will guide me while all the answers disappear?
Is it too late, are you too far gone to stay?
Best friends forever, should never have to go away!

What will I do? You know I'm only half without you
How will I make it through?

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give if you
Returned to me, someday, somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I'd cry you an ocean if you'd sail on home again
Waves of emotion will carry you, I know they can
Just let love guide you and your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting into the arms of your true north!

Look in my eyes, you'll see a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry!

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give if you
Returned to me, someday, somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I'd hold you close and shout the words I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last glance
Theres not a thing, that I would not endure.

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way!
What I would do, what I would give if you
Returned to me, someday, somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me...

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nice song.. another one is A1's when i'm missing you..
sian sia .. nowadays very tired.. reach home.. den sometimes tok on fone.. eat dinner.. slept on bed..

tml is the gold accreditations... hai... i cannot go though...hai.. this shd be the last ever challenge tat i can ever face..

sux..

The reason

haven blogged for a long long time.. just feeling sian and tired..

ok lets start with a 3 day summary.. on thursday wing tai went siao.. throw his hp on e floor.. tink as frens.. i already offered him my advice liao.. nothing much i can do..

can't brainwash him anyway.. which brings me to someting.. tat time after i return him his hp.. i had a serious mind and a serious look.. well .. almost all e time.. u would see a laughing yh .. kena bang by so many ppl.. dunno if i shd be more serious more often...

then the day b4.. hao jie moody.. he wouldn't tell me wat though.. but now he's ok!!.. =)..

ok.. on friday nothing much happened.. except tat i went slp damm early.. and played some RA2 Yuri's revenge...

on saturday.. lessons as usual.. then go back home is the nicest part.. prepared for the big reunion with all my course mates of ULC!

ualacas!!!! YeeHAaAAAAA!!! .. tat spirit.. undefeated.. united!...
met up with elaine, yl and a couple of others.. like FREDDIE!!!.. i was like dotted.. he was coming to hug me sia!!!.. and he wore a pink shirt.. with a pink wrist band and a pink hp pouch!... pinkie freak.. when he came.. i asked him a damm stupid question.. eh.. how come ur hair grow back le? ..dotted.. is like duh rite... i damm stupid... after 1 year.. of cos grow back..

GREAT nite man!... it was total enjoyment.. charlie onli 4 ppl come.. xinyu dey all nvr come... sian sia.. i will remember this nite sia.. lawrence sir never come.. so nvr get to dance with him!!>.. haha.. then andy sir thought my name is soon hock.. haha.. jian fu sir remember me... listened to a inspiring speech by vincent sir.. also talked to guo hsiu ma'am.. its great... the more i wanna join hq now.. there's nothing to deny me

today nothing much happened.. except tat i playing basketball again..

I am not a perfect person.. i make mistakes too.. i know i made lots.. but i am trying to change.. trying to learn from my mistakes.. trying hard... i wanna ... be a better man...

but .. why does everyone.. still condemm me.. why am i still being pushed around... why? why am i still being hated? why doesn't anyone .. not even my parents understand wat i am going thru now? its the hardest period of my secondary sch life... and.. all around.. ppl are mocking me..scolding me.. just... tat.. i am a dud?
why? my parents.. my mum.. do she ever understand me? .. i am trying hard. to be more organised..... the fact tat i din tell my mum i lost my specs again.. is cannot.. cos.. i don want them to waste money on me.. the fact tat i din tell them i'm sick .. is becos i don want them to waste money on me.. the fact tat i don want to go and make ez link card now.. is oso i don wanna rely on her money to help me first.. if i keep on like this.. i would be a bloodsucker.. everyting heck care.. and lose things.. just take mum money and repay...

i am not the type of person.. no.. i want to save up.. and pay all my debts away.. i want to.. i..
want to lead a normal life.. a happy life..

I'm with you

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
i thought that you'll be here by now
there's nothing but the rain
my footsteps' on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Is there anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home?

Its a damm cold nite..
trying to figure out this life
wanna see you.. take me by the hands ..
take me somewhere new..
dunno who u are..
But i'm..
I'm with you..

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face..
is there anybody here i noe..
cos nothing's going rite..
and everythings' in a mess..
cos no one likes to be alone..


yeah.. my frens .. i'm with you.. if u all have any problems.. can talk to me.. i may not be the best cheer ppl up.. but i will share ur problems and provide a listening ear...

today i cough.. abt 3 times onli.. tat means???? well.. the mucus in my nose is still there.. ewwwww...

dunno anyone other than josh whose reading my blog nowadays.. cos my tagboard singing " silent all these years ".. haha.. nothing la.. i just blog for the sake for blogging.. cos.. next time i can look at wat i typed.. diary?

out of e sudden.. my winamp is playing kinda sad songs.. haiz.. hmm.. nothing much to do today.. had 4hours dnt.. sux.. i drilled wrongly..so had to redo that shooter for the third time.. or kinda 2nd..cos mr mustapha helped me do the 2nd one..sorry!

my hands better today le.. can bend more.. can type le!!!
ok.. blog again at nite if got someting special happen ba.. but tink don have ba..

When?

nez.. my cough still acting on me.. haven recover sia.. today quite a number of times cough out mucus... tats disgusting... and a sign of heatyness... noseblocked with mucus like wat sia..

took my 2 swollen fingers out to hj hse today.. played games.. surprised tat he doesn't like warcraft 3 at all.. i still tink its the best ever rts game i ever played in my life...and yeah the newspaper said so too...

played with his cat.. damm cute.. i loved it when she put her tail around me and put her head next to mine... damm nice...
and yeah.. lost $5.. tats bad.. there goes my no. 15 for today...

so i will start being more tidy from today onwards.. i will try not to lose anymore thing liao.. hopes!

today oso damm sian.. handfone like onli received 2 vibrations whole day long... SIAN...

Rain

they say rain can wash away all your troubles..
people play in the rain..
people dance in the rain..
people in the deserts cheer when rain comes..
there is joy when there is rain

but..

is rain that cheerful...?

why do people cry in rain
why do soldiers fall in rain
why do entire cities get flooded by rain
why do you feel lost when there is rain?

aha.. today topic is rain.. cos .. aiyah later write until e last part then write..
today morning board bus with alvin..
haha.. somebody hair no problem ma.. haha.. lucky doctor never prescribe to other hospital ah!?

yeaz.. then reach sch tok cock .. go english lessons...tok cock again.. after all it is oral sessions rite? .. so tok like siao.. best ting is just becos i said a stupid lame joke.. lena laugh like siao.. den whole class say siao!.. haha
den after tat was mt.. i listened abit.. toking abt oral.. hmm!..
den after tat was ss.. woops.. first time i listen to ss lesson...wow.. i paid attention never fall aslp somemore

after sch played bball awhile.. dammm.. i sprained my fingers.. 2 of them.. now they are swollen like siao.. so i am typing with pain now... my mum just dressed them up.. look funny.. but the medicine damm pain... so are my fingers..they look out of shape...

i reading book 14 le..
ok here goes

walking home tat time.. de dark clouds.. turned into rain.. rain .....
so i ran... then suddenly.. it was heavy rain... real heavy... with lightning ... i saw lightning just 50m away from me.. or less than tat..... then the lightning strike the shelter... damm LOUD!!...
being back at this shelter.. reminded me alot..abt the past.. abt one yr back...
then i saw one cat... it ran in the rain.. den i was ... why is it so brave and i am still cowardly? ... so i put my specs in my front pocket and ran .. reached another shelter...was abt to head home.. when i saw this kitten...this black kitten.. in the rain.. it was shivering and in pain.. wat has rain brought upon it.. i immediately carried it despite its meowing protests.. managed to come indoors with the screaming kitten.. den it look scared.. it walked away.. i tried finding it.. but to no avail... not a sight... which reminds me of the tragic event last yr..

it was a stormy afternoon....
i was walking home...
as i walked.. i seeked shelter in the same old place... i saw a kitten.. an orange one..it keep meowing... for his mother.. i suppose.. i had an orange basketball keychain which was given to me as a bdae gift at tat time.. it was april..i tink.. i sat with the cat.. desperate.. i covered the place with newspaper.. trying to build a shelter for him.. then he sort of din like it... i could see tat look in his eyes.. he wanted his mum.. i went get some milk came back... and poured some for him to drink.. he drank abit onli.. guessed he missed his mum..keep meowing and meowing... den i sat there for one hour .. i sat close to him.. as if i was his
"temporary mother" ..yeas.. den the rain stop le.. i went call my mum ask if i can bring him back.... den my mum told me one line... she said even though i like the cat.. wat the cat needs is his mum..not me.. yeah.. i agreed.. den i drop him at a sheltered block... den the uncle there complains.. so i brought him back to his "home".. as i walked off... he kept meowing and walk after me..

as i din want to follow him... i ran home.. god noes wat happened to tat kitten.. the nite.. i thought abt the kitten... whole day long.. next day straight after sch.. i ran to the place.. wat i found was the fallen packet of milk.. the collasped newspaper shelter.. but not him... he was gone...i searched the whole place for him.. yeah... i regretted alot.. hai..tats why until now i still like orange cats the best.. .. i returned to tat shelter after a hopeless search... i broke the basketball keychain into half.. digged out the rubber... one half into my pocket.. that ball means alot to me tat time.. i poured milk into the other half.. left it there.. hoping tat kitten would return....

the next day... the keychain was still there...but not the kitten..hai.. so i just took the keychain and joined them together.. i wished tat kitten will be still alive... and found back his mother.. yeah.. tats rain.. how it reminded me.. today i don have the basketball keychain anymore.. although i still liked it.. i tink someone in my family said it is too rotten le... den throw away...

now i wish the black kitten won't get lost.. and hope tat the mother will come back to the kitten again..poor ting..

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back to present.. i figured out tat i lost my specs.. searched everywhere in the rain for tat specs..couldn't find... at all...

will rain be the one
tat washes our worries..
or will it wash away our gift?