The reason

haven blogged for a long long time.. just feeling sian and tired..

ok lets start with a 3 day summary.. on thursday wing tai went siao.. throw his hp on e floor.. tink as frens.. i already offered him my advice liao.. nothing much i can do..

can't brainwash him anyway.. which brings me to someting.. tat time after i return him his hp.. i had a serious mind and a serious look.. well .. almost all e time.. u would see a laughing yh .. kena bang by so many ppl.. dunno if i shd be more serious more often...

then the day b4.. hao jie moody.. he wouldn't tell me wat though.. but now he's ok!!.. =)..

ok.. on friday nothing much happened.. except tat i went slp damm early.. and played some RA2 Yuri's revenge...

on saturday.. lessons as usual.. then go back home is the nicest part.. prepared for the big reunion with all my course mates of ULC!

ualacas!!!! YeeHAaAAAAA!!! .. tat spirit.. undefeated.. united!...
met up with elaine, yl and a couple of others.. like FREDDIE!!!.. i was like dotted.. he was coming to hug me sia!!!.. and he wore a pink shirt.. with a pink wrist band and a pink hp pouch!... pinkie freak.. when he came.. i asked him a damm stupid question.. eh.. how come ur hair grow back le? ..dotted.. is like duh rite... i damm stupid... after 1 year.. of cos grow back..

GREAT nite man!... it was total enjoyment.. charlie onli 4 ppl come.. xinyu dey all nvr come... sian sia.. i will remember this nite sia.. lawrence sir never come.. so nvr get to dance with him!!>.. haha.. then andy sir thought my name is soon hock.. haha.. jian fu sir remember me... listened to a inspiring speech by vincent sir.. also talked to guo hsiu ma'am.. its great... the more i wanna join hq now.. there's nothing to deny me

today nothing much happened.. except tat i playing basketball again..

I am not a perfect person.. i make mistakes too.. i know i made lots.. but i am trying to change.. trying to learn from my mistakes.. trying hard... i wanna ... be a better man...

but .. why does everyone.. still condemm me.. why am i still being pushed around... why? why am i still being hated? why doesn't anyone .. not even my parents understand wat i am going thru now? its the hardest period of my secondary sch life... and.. all around.. ppl are mocking me..scolding me.. just... tat.. i am a dud?
why? my parents.. my mum.. do she ever understand me? .. i am trying hard. to be more organised..... the fact tat i din tell my mum i lost my specs again.. is cannot.. cos.. i don want them to waste money on me.. the fact tat i din tell them i'm sick .. is becos i don want them to waste money on me.. the fact tat i don want to go and make ez link card now.. is oso i don wanna rely on her money to help me first.. if i keep on like this.. i would be a bloodsucker.. everyting heck care.. and lose things.. just take mum money and repay...

i am not the type of person.. no.. i want to save up.. and pay all my debts away.. i want to.. i..
want to lead a normal life.. a happy life..