Last Stride

ok this confirm last post liao.. my computer kena virus cannot use explorer.. lol.. so now in lan shop..

lately..
tired out. but oso not giving up e fight..
dnt. folio. its been so long.. i must not give up..
i want to get A1!

ok. geog down. 6 to go. actually.. geog almost done.. just read thru one more time.. and practise on my time management for a full paper.. mcqs no problem liao.

ss. ah. er. i will leave it to the 2nd last sub to study. study with hist. last sub to study is chinese. i need to reserve lots of time for it.. i want to get b3.

maths.. beco0ming better. i hope i can get a b3 at prelim and A2 at o's

Dnt .. tat one. i need at least one and a half day to study.
design question my weakness..

ok.. time running out here. GottA gO

Superman - The Pause

today. this shall be my ending msg in my blog. maybe i will blog again between exams. but maybe not.
lets look at things now

1. Bought ONE PIECE BLUE and RED . came to abt $20
   
2. Did finish my DNT artefact . must remind myself to get extra rubber bands and batteries
   
3. Got most of my desired songs
   
4. Successfully read finish physical geog. MUST FINISH WHOLE OF GEOG by this week
   
5. Concentrating in class.. except for ss.
   
6. Begginning to have more views for source based questions
   
7. FOLIO dateline is this saturday
   
8. Got all my desired comics. FULL collection of One Piece, + the guides. Black cat . Air Gear. Gave up on DN angel
   
9. Going to be able to pay my 40 bucks to red cross tml
   
10. Finish my last post before the exams
    

good luck peeps. work hard ah. i 'll spend less time online now

Shanice and Jon Secada - If I Never Knew You Lyrics If I never knew you

If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be
And if I never knew you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
the missing part of me

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever

If I never knew you
If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true
I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever If I never knew you

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we made the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
But still my heart is singing
We were right

chorus

There's no moment I regret
Since the moment that we met
If our time has gone too fast I've lived at last
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright

I thought our love would be so beautiful
We'd turn the darkness into light
And still my heart is singing
We were right
We were right

And if I never knew you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you

my.. great lyrics songs..

today my el oral was crap.. i totally off topic.. but somehow my answer made a teacher laugh.. er.. dotted.

Angels

And through it all..
she offers me protection
alot of love and affection..
whether i'm right or wrong..

and down the waterfall..
wherever it may take me..
i know that life won't break me
when i come to call..
she won't forsake me..
i'm loving angels instead...

damm nice.. i love this.
recently not blogging.. either slackng or music or seldom study.. but now going into intensive study liao.. quite fun and interesting talk at the audi today.. haha...see ck face there on the screen.. damm gao xiao..

recently got some very angst ridden songs as well as nice ones i listening to..

Jay - Ge qian , qi li xiang
98 degrees - you don't know
Clay aiken - i will carry you
Robbie williams - Angels
LeAnn Rimes - How do i live
Sugar Ray - when its over

hmm..
been tinking abt it
well
ppl good luck for the exams.
work hard.
lets do well together

baby cos u dunno..
how i feel.

Reality

yesterday woke up at 5am or shd i say today.. den fall slp again.. as usual la.. but usually will wake at around 6 pm.. but tis time.. i had a real real dream..

good or bad u decide ba

i was at this footdrill function.. one of my coursemate took taxi with me home as it was very late. after tat the coursemate face suddenly change to her face. den wat she got into some sort of accident or wat.. den her soul left her body.. den her soul was protected and enclosed in a sort of coral. i was dreaming futuristic ba. den the doctor say operation shd be able to restore her back.

i was in her hse. the coral reef was placed at the sink mirror.. den her mother came and tok to me.

do u tink she noes ur feeling if u don tell her
i answered: don tink so ..
den she said. wat if she like someone else le?
i answered:it doesn't bother me.
(i was sort of denying tat i like this girl)

she said (girl's mother) .. u have to get the ball rolling to gain something

b4 i left e hse.. i went and tok to her soul.. told her she'll be alright

woah.
den one day i went her hse again. after her scheduled operation.. only to see the coral vanised.. her mum cried and told me some ppl played with them.. den i kept screaming and shoting her name..

den in e end.. i said the three words

my dream ended.. i dunno.. just suddenly woke up and rushed off to sch in taxi after quick bath.. cheap fare.

Today

yea.. one of my days. to forget and remember.

morning wished my 4b friends good luck for their oral.. den went on to pass wrapping paper to hafiza. i yesterday said tat i was hesistant on receiving my chinese results.. yea..

CE period did nothing much.. hair project again... listened to an adversity lesson...
to be complete.. a person need to have adversity quotient.. aq.. even as u fall.. u must climb up again.. never camping.. even when everything seems to be going wrong for u.. never give up..

din knew i would need tat straight after tat lesson.. was a bit petrified during recess...cos after tat straight away receive mt results.. bad news. mdm ng. first ting she said .. our results not li xiang is natural.. cos we slack. 29 out of 31 students need to retake.. 1 A1 in 4k one distinction in 4J.. hm got it. as she read the results.. i couldn't have expected a worse outcome...

yong hock D7.. oral pass.. i was devastated. i was e only one who failed.. the only one in my class.. even ppl like alvin passed... hai.. i controlled my tears. yea.. i did a great job in tat.. even aaron got C5 only.. after tat went to dnt.. mr koh say he noe our mt results bad. den mus asked me why i never talk. i told him.. continued with dnt. edging a step closer to finish.

b4 i left. koh scolded me.. asked me to buck up and go to chinese class. D7. he said. lots of my classmates.. shamed me.looked down on me.. jeromy in particular.. wats a failure like u doin in our class.. i felt realli wanting to break. but i never did. i held my tears. again.

i picked myself up. wanting to realli rear for the finish. i don want to be caught napping. all e way.. after sch.. ppl keep asking for my marks. i turned away.. when hao jie very happily keep asking around.. i drop my tear. 2 drops. yea.. only 2 drops.. i will not fail

i have not failed. i just learnt my lesson. to climb to the top of sucess, i need to go through steps of failure. i would reach my top. i would. i noe i would. i won give up

did o level june paper. quite doable. but still not prepared enuffed to do prelim e maths.

after tat we celebrated jimmy bdae,, so fun.. but he spent a bomb on us.. $170 dollars..man... siaz..... too much ba.. swenson treat.. ate fish and chips.. and a banana split.. quite nice and fulling..

after tat take my first neoprints with my class mates.. Su,me , jimmy, rus, hafiza, halima and mel... after tat take bus home.. i just had bad thoughts on e bus

this feeling of isolation
i felt enclosed.
i wanted to be trapped in the little box of my own world ..
just for a while.. so tat i can scream. and scream... to myself...
until someone let me out of the box..

nah.
just my wishful tinking
its do or die.
Prelims and o levels.
Chinese

Run.

Dazed

this few days nvr blog .. too bz studying ba..

on sunday went out study... den
on monday went out play soccer with my bro frens..
lol.. off form lk shit.. cause kena stomache..
den aft e match.. sat next to a couple cat.. so en ai.. fist time in my life.. i see couple cat living together.. most will abandon them after mating..

den dey 2 dunno wat reason.. the female cat woke up.. go rub herself against me den slp between my legs.. den e lao gong oso follow.. rub himself.. and slp near me.. den yusof and kidea see.. say movie got catwoman.. i catman..LOL. lame sia

after watch natl day.. and the hilarious sg idol.. the banana man.. dotted.. and the "this is e actual volume. pls do no adjust " ..LOL
go study outside.. 11pm to 3am
more or less physical geog is done with le.. shd be alright liao..

lets see.. i did well for my weathering test... A2.. tink b3 for my rivers.. next test is weather studies.. by rite i will do well.. by wrong.. some things happen.. sometimes weather will kill u..like a cyclone..

den tuesday ah.. first ting in morn woke up at 8.. rushed to airport BK.. in e end me, suhairi, jimmy, rusydi, hafiza and amelda went to the viewing mall to study..
quite fun.. su brought his speakers.. and we had a roaring concert of rock songs..

RUSYDI IS A JOKE!..LOL.. wear 3 LAYERS.. YES i mean THREE layers of LONG sleeved.. clothes. still shiverinG!!...LOL.. and jimmy was wearing DRI FIT...LOL...

tml jimmy bdae.. just now me and su go out buy prez for him le..haha.. go out with su quite fun.. rather lame...LOL

anyway i quite broke nowadays..

My purchases recently
Adidas Core tee - $29
FMA book 7 (for yl belated prez) - $9.10
Wallet (half i pay) - $10
Horoscope Ring - $1.50
Wrapping Paper - $1.60
Nivea face cleanser - $7.65
Biore pore pack - $4.20
TOP up ezlink - $15
ORal english guide - $8.30

Total - $94.35 ( excluding meals)
CAN FAINT SIA.. these money could have been used for.. nvm la.. since she bought another thing le.. so i no need save for tat 115 bucks le.. but now need to save up for 40 bucks red cross..

Because i love you

yest i nvr blog.. cos too tired..
hmm anyway yest is national day celebration..
so nothing much in sch.. except tat during e celebration.. gc keep chanting my name.. dotted.. in e end.. i had to join them in the gallery..

oh ya.. morn tat time.. nasir caused me to waste 7 bucks on taxi fare..urgh...

after tat went eat with yf and joan.. while we were waiting for joan's bf daryl .. eat finish le..
den when he came abt 45 min late.. we were expecting him to apologise to joan.. but in e end he sweet talked his way out.. very lame. now i concede. he more lame than me. but then at least his lameness can make ppl laugh.. not my lameness anyway.

nah. i can't seem to click with some ppl.. dunno how to express myself..
maybe somethings are just meant to stay this way.
dunno la.. i just don want hy ( haha..my name opposite.. but a new secret code for a name =P)
to end up with someone bad.

after tat broke some ceramic stuff at pastamania.. damm paiseh lor.. i mean.. haiz.. i was so sorry.. lucky they let me off..

managed just to play one game at the cc.. did some deft touches.. almost scored..
den went zijian hse to play winning eleven.. as usual.. i win first match.. den kena thrashed by hj thereafter.. but den.. i used greece.. den thrashed his portugal and england..power pack..

greece's academy of tackling and dribbling seemed to traumatise him badly... lol... in the end.. his brazil tycoly win greece.. DAMM FUNNY e game.. his keeper dunno kena possessed.. den the goal post even worse..

today nothing much to do.. went sch.. lesson/test from 730 to 10.30.. played a bball match.. scored one only.. could have scored more.. i was tinking abt my missed chances..all those could have.. could have done.. is useless. i need to get more practises in matches..

so maybe later i go cycle.. not much left to do...
i mean nothing for me to do... haiz...
i wanna be there.
where u are.
where the guy in the mask.
will only be me.

. . .

oh..look wat u've done..
u've made a fool out of everyone..

look wat u've done by jet.. nice nice...

i was beginning to have some thoughts in my mind
was it tat..
if frens get closer to each other.. will it be gd..

dunno leh..haha
recently stupid things happen to me.. today eat porridge take fork eat.. argh... haha

Misunderstood

yeah i'm misunderstood..

but nvm.. one day they'll understand.. i know they will.

just now went cc to do work with haris.. when i came .. he wasn't there yet.. so i played bball awhile and ate my dinner...

was rather unproductive.. but oso can't do much work..
haris had an argument ba.. bad one i tink.. can't reveal much here.. as i dunno who spy my blog..muahahah..

but still got do maths.. after tat bball awhile.. it was cooling.. my problems lifetd off my mind.. only for tat moment though.. den when i rode my bike.. de feeling is great..

simply refreshing..

" Shattered Glass "

nowadays gonna blog abt academic le ba.. social life a bit too sian le

my 100th post in my blog.. gonna be crap.

yea.. lets tok abt my past few days first..
nowadays dnt lesson if need cut metal sheet.. if is ppl go see mr mustafa.. he everytime ask them to help them..hahaha.. i like become gullotine instructor..dotted..but e gullotine quite fun and easy to use la..

and not forgetting.. the paste.. haha.. mr mustafa say i like to make paste.. the pva glue with saw dust.. dotted..

my form tcher actually called my mum to tell her tat i had improved in grades.. amazing..
never knew i would receive compliments too..

today oso receive compliment from mrs poon ba... first time on my english test she write something good other than the marks.. yea i m used to getting 20 and above for compo.. but she wrote something good today .. " a1 - a2 .. wonderful piece.. keep it this way. " i was damm inspired to keep this style le.. cos for each compo test.. i keep changing my style.. argumentative.. documentary.. narrative.. real life.. all got try b4.. tink i keep to this style ba.. shall write out some excerpts abt the compo i wrote..

" Clank! "
The sound of shattered glass filled the air. The atmosphere, surprisingly, held a deadly silence while i kept my fingers crossed behind my back.

The fiery rage in the teacher's eye could burn anything in a matter of seconds. Mr tan opened his menacing mouth and suddenly, words from his mouth were like viscous lava and spewing ashes which volcanoes hurled.

However, everything that digested in my mind was a complete shadow of reality. In tis virtual world of mine, this eruption was silent. No words. No sounds. Only images of me dying a slow and unsuspecting way.

ok tats all.. did badly for geog agriculture test though..
i wrote out of context..
got 8.5 upon 25.. now tats realli bad..

topics i choosing for geog

1. Weather Studies
   
2. Weathering
   
3. Rivers
   
4. Climate and vegetation
   
5. Population studies
   
6. Settlement studies
   
7. Agriculure
   

left out plate tectonics.. i know this is a big risk.. cos plate tectonics is one of the easier topics to study as i have learnt it since sec 1.. but i don quite like the questions in plate tectonics..

left out coasts... this is quite an easy task.. as coasts is really too difficult..

for human geog.. left out industries.. i feel tat it is too big .. the topic is scary.. got 5 or 6 chapters.. plus tourism and changing industries.. can die.. yah.. and development.. dis is quite a risk becos... tcher took it.. tcher not teaching development.. cos no time

hmmm.. maybe i sound bad.. or fierce.. but all i wanted to do is really to help out.. in reality.. we don even tok much to each other.. and the gap is already widening again.. haz.

She will be loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

New Day..

i just woke up.. a new day means a new beginning...
cut my hair le... there goes the past

new beginning.
i will change.
i promise i will..

ok first ting.. stop those lame things in sch.. keep my hands to myself
control my temper.
be more tidy
be more studious

yesterday nite i dreamt of bad things.. not a nitemare..
but just bad cos the darling in the dream wasn't me..haha.. dotted.. dunno why i will dream of such things too.. kinda sad dream too... tats why i so early jump out of bed.. continue to stay in bed will dream more of such stuff.. bad for health