Today

yea.. one of my days. to forget and remember.

morning wished my 4b friends good luck for their oral.. den went on to pass wrapping paper to hafiza. i yesterday said tat i was hesistant on receiving my chinese results.. yea..

CE period did nothing much.. hair project again... listened to an adversity lesson...
to be complete.. a person need to have adversity quotient.. aq.. even as u fall.. u must climb up again.. never camping.. even when everything seems to be going wrong for u.. never give up..

din knew i would need tat straight after tat lesson.. was a bit petrified during recess...cos after tat straight away receive mt results.. bad news. mdm ng. first ting she said .. our results not li xiang is natural.. cos we slack. 29 out of 31 students need to retake.. 1 A1 in 4k one distinction in 4J.. hm got it. as she read the results.. i couldn't have expected a worse outcome...

yong hock D7.. oral pass.. i was devastated. i was e only one who failed.. the only one in my class.. even ppl like alvin passed... hai.. i controlled my tears. yea.. i did a great job in tat.. even aaron got C5 only.. after tat went to dnt.. mr koh say he noe our mt results bad. den mus asked me why i never talk. i told him.. continued with dnt. edging a step closer to finish.

b4 i left. koh scolded me.. asked me to buck up and go to chinese class. D7. he said. lots of my classmates.. shamed me.looked down on me.. jeromy in particular.. wats a failure like u doin in our class.. i felt realli wanting to break. but i never did. i held my tears. again.

i picked myself up. wanting to realli rear for the finish. i don want to be caught napping. all e way.. after sch.. ppl keep asking for my marks. i turned away.. when hao jie very happily keep asking around.. i drop my tear. 2 drops. yea.. only 2 drops.. i will not fail

i have not failed. i just learnt my lesson. to climb to the top of sucess, i need to go through steps of failure. i would reach my top. i would. i noe i would. i won give up

did o level june paper. quite doable. but still not prepared enuffed to do prelim e maths.

after tat we celebrated jimmy bdae,, so fun.. but he spent a bomb on us.. $170 dollars..man... siaz..... too much ba.. swenson treat.. ate fish and chips.. and a banana split.. quite nice and fulling..

after tat take my first neoprints with my class mates.. Su,me , jimmy, rus, hafiza, halima and mel... after tat take bus home.. i just had bad thoughts on e bus

this feeling of isolation
i felt enclosed.
i wanted to be trapped in the little box of my own world ..
just for a while.. so tat i can scream. and scream... to myself...
until someone let me out of the box..

nah.
just my wishful tinking
its do or die.
Prelims and o levels.
Chinese

Run.