3rd

i shall try to translate the lyrics of anjing by jay into english now.. as it describes my feeling now

only left with the piano to have a chat with me
the violin is sleeping..
its so quiet..

i tink you already made it easy to understand
i know
you are not sad at all

you said you will be sad
but i don't believe
once asked you to accompany me
but that was in the past

hope that he really loves you more than i do
then only i will force myself to go away

how many times you need me to repeat
i don wanna go away
why do you want me to smile to carry this through
i don have this kind of talent
but hope you accept it
don't worry too much
i will live well on myself

you started to drift further away
i will also walk away slowly
why even after separation do i still hold onto you
i really don have talent
quietness will also not arrive that fast
meanwhile i will try my best to forget you
its because i love you too much

haiz. these days i been listening to damm sad songs. today is my 3rd day of separation.. haz
still. wherever i go i been seeing images of her everywhere. but only.. i could see him rite thru her too.. i try to be happy in real life. but tats not the case. but i'm really learning to live in a life without her. just give me more time i will succeed. cos i noe tat nothing will bring her back to me. i got really worried after yesterday . but hopes tat he really loves her. and treat her well. i don care he is wat type of person. i just want her to be happy. but if he really hurt her. den i will not forgive him

today after passing some stuff. i guess tats one of the last tings i can ever do for her. i really put alot of effort and heart to make the notes. i hope its not just dump anywhere in the house. after tat saw the disastrous scene again. yeah.. for 2nd time in 3 days saw them again. i guess. dat tis is..
maybe i purposely saw them. maybe i accidentally. maybe my heart can't let go
but.
i will pick myself up again. its only a matter of time. and wat great time for this to happen just 3 days b4 o levels.