Nothing's going rite.

today was start of truncated . was damm lethagic.. tired like craze.. so din sort of paid full attention ..
morn take mrt as usual.. needa top up card liao.. no money inside..

go home. at home feel moody le. cos of tat argumen with my mum again.
deep inside it hurts for me to treat my mum like tat. i felt like crying everytime i thought of myself ignorin my mum. so i now wanna spend my time outside of hse as much as possible..

its not i don want to patch this. it has happened too many times le.. i just want my pride. i want belief. yet. no one in this family let me feel the pride and self belief. ever since i lost my wallet. no one ever believe in me. no one ever told me i could do it...

everyone just told me .. they don trust me. .. yes. my mum don trust me. anything regardin money she will shun me. even though.. i din actually lost e wallet. i found it after 1 month at my house. even though my fone was stolen .. 2 times. and not actually misplaced...

i just don get it.. can't they give me some belief.. can't i have the rite to earn my pride back again.... i'm jus moody. i jus want someone to believe in me. and not say i'm a loser.