PISSED!

I AM SO PISSED! blogger was apparently down when i finished typing one entry... and i sent it. bloody hell.. and to think.. i spent some time on that thoughts.. haiz. forget it.. i will retype.. but i doubt i can

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i love u for who you are. everything u do is a dream, a fantasy, to me. all i wanna do is hold your hands, look into your beautiful eyes, and tell u how much i love u. i would treasure u like no one would ever and to me, u would be the world's most precious jewel and i swear, no one loves u like i do. and there is no one who feels the way i feel abt u now. to me, you're the most beautiful girl on the face of this earth, and in this moment and time, if i ever have the opportunity, i would tell u i love you, truly, madly, and deeply. for every million stars in the universe, u shine brighter in my world than anyone of them can. u are the coloured picture in my world of black and white. you're the rainbow after the rain and if u take my hand, i'll lead u to a world where there's only the 2 of us, and we can be so free.

``JoSh`` 23.01.05

i wanna hold u, close and tight, never to lose you and for forever and everyday, u will be mine. i swear to the world, i love you. i will neevr hurt u, i will never break your heart. all i wanna do is be with u through all the ups and downs of life and hold your hand tightly and firmly, because the weight of the world cannot push us down, as long as i love you. i will bear all trials and tribulations, just to be with you, just to make you mine. for my love so true, i would never deny you. and hopefully you won't deny me. i give you my heart and you have all the power in the world, to fill it with love, or break it. cause, girl, can't u see, you're the one i love and i will treasure all the times and moments we shared, and the memories i keep fresh in my head till i die.

``JoSh`` 23.01.05

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lovely works frm josh rite...yeah.. joshie is one very talented friend of mine.. he can write those poems.. those thoughts.. and even songs.. very well.. i foresee him in the future as a writer.. haha.. joshie is gd!

for those who dunno who is joshie.. he is a friend of mine. more than tat actually.. he belongs to the "few" who has seen my serious side. yeah.. very rare tat anyone gets to see it.. count urself lucky or unlucky.. haha..

i'll never forget wat joshie did for me as a friend... the day he shook me up. when he removed my barrier to take the ball.. everytime i fall into depression.. he is the one who will really shake me real hard.. and stop telling me to self pity..

haha..z. he's really a great fren.. i dunno whether he still reads..but then. haha. look forward to work with u again josh. and of cos play bball...
joshie will always remain a motivational figure for me...

nothing much to blog yet ba..maybe later.

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Beastly thoughts of unfounding futures
Tearing into the heart of fragile glass
What is there left to feel
When the colours of red has turned grey

My tears do not bleed for the one i love. My tears flow for the one i care, worry and think about. I do not think about the way you look, the way your body moves. I only yearn for all your thoughts. That alone can mean so much to a dying feeling. The key to your heart i will never desire, for there are a thousand other ways i can enter. But i do not wish for that. What am i to be compared to but a piercing knife, if i enter your heart forcefully, without your consent. All i need is for you to open up, release your insecurities, and share with me your mind, heart and soul.
Then only, can we share one love together..

-yh- 1112 16/02/2005

just a weak attempt. haha. but i still like what i wrote.. a pity.. my original one got erased by blogger..