Pointless

I'm at one of bedok's lan shop now.. just now spent 3 hrs worth of money.. without knowing tat that other shop no msn and internet explorer.. stupid me..

i wasted lots of money nowadays.. i tink i better control liao.. if not next time when i really need money... yeah u noe wat.

i'm still tired. haa. just how many times have u heard me say this word liao. everytime u see me. its just the same excuses and reasons.. tired.. tired.. tired.. yeah. our dear mr lamer .. has finally succumbed to this virus called the T-Virus (Tired-Virus) ..

went for the chalet.. first day went there.. went for night biking with weiliang and yc.
its very fun lar.. i dint expect or believe much from myself.. at first.. i thought halfway through i would probably just be knocked out... but thanks to much motivation again.. i managed to pull through and reach explanade b4 ending up at lau pat sat for some heart to heart chat and drinks..

"After u cross each mile, just look up and tell yourself, i am closer to my goal.."

i always tell myself this. i just don't want to have the feeling of giving up.. giving up has never been in my life since 2 yrs ago.. if i say i want to do something, i will go all out and complete it...

even if every mile leaves my body and mind poisoned with fatigue, i will just thrust my body and soul one step forward.. and just tell myself... i'm getting closer to the end..

yeah.. and when we came back.. we took less time.. its so fast lor.. weiliang is the street pro. must salute him. he noes practically every road.. yeah.. but no thanks to my silly rented bike which creaked and creaked.. practically destroyed the atmosphere for them..

we went star gazing.. it was so omg lor... 5am 4am... the stars at a certain jetty in east coast.. the whole sky is just littered with stars....

i just kept silent. cos i suddenly had a thought..

i silently recalled how i watched the stars always... the stars are just like our friends.. they are always there in the sky... always there for u.. just tat sometimes u don see them... friends just shine and glow up my life... its simply.. wonderful..

and there will always be a lone star in the sky that stands out the most... its always hanging at the highest.. and shinning the brightest.. i call the star.. like my guardian angel.. my guardian angel is somewhere out there.. always caring for me.. just that i dunno.. i know some day.. that angel will lend me her wings to take off to the sky...

haa. fantasy? nah... its just my feeling..

the sunrise was great as well..haha.. the wonder and beauty of nature huh? we were really lucky tat day..

anyway..
i kept quiet for most of the times for the rest of the chalet.. maybe i am tired.. maybe its just the nostalgia which is coming back to me.. yeah.

nowadays.. i am just trying to find a way... right now.. i just noe.. maybe i am at a crossroad.. the path i have taken has probably came to a point where there are now distinct sidepaths to take...

i must make my decision soon.. which path to take. which new path i will embark on..

and yeah.. i don talk much in chalets afterall.. haha..

and finally .. HAFIZAH SHARES THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS ME! well i dint realise it. she dint realise it.. haha..

yeah.. and ky. u are finally 17.. haa.


Let me share the pain with you
Give me all the thoughts you have
Show me every worry you paint

And i will bring you to the end
To the end of everything...