Listless

today felt more listless than ever. these days are fast becoming fossilled. haha.

i am not undergoing depression. but yet i am not happy. how ironic.

today in the morn went to unpack hq storeroom. quite nothing. got a free container for my efforts.

Wo ai de ren

" the person i love is not my lover
every inch in her heart belongs to someone else
he is really lucky
so lucky that it has become so heartless
causing me to love while hate why his love is so deep..

the person i love, has a lover
Just from her eyes, tells me that i cannot be the one
everytime i hear breaks my promise
I only want to hear that loving someone has an end."


the last parts very hard to translate. so tink translate wrongly. haha. but its a nice song by chen xiao chun.

after tat, went to bbq. i din feel much things for it. but could see that my class mates changed alot. guys became more suave, gals more pretty, attitudes changed, characters changed, well.. tats time for u.

i heard this remark.

" yh u are still the same. "

really..?

and also

" at least your lameness can make us smile, not like some others."

haiz. my lameness can't bring smiles afterall.

my 2nd crush , was at the bbq, while an ongoing bbq just a table away, there was my fairytale of a yr ago.

wat a coincidence la.

but well.

i am not too bothered.

just felt tat i have not been commiting myself to things i do nowadays. even laming around.

for ur info : i only have 3 crushes. haha. one in primary 6, one in sec 1/2, one in post sec 4.

i need a break.

yeah.