Some of the worst.

Everything is just breaking up..
Everything that we have built together since the camp
is now crumbling to pieces.
maybe what ky says is true.
we do need sometime to avoid.


but after that, can we still be the same group of ppl..
who sang ..
friends u make me happy ..
together?

yesterday was a bad day. a super bad day.

my eruption had to come yesterday..
luckily it was a silent one to come.

but what way it was to come.
" i am not on the same frequency as u and **. "

and i walked away.

how can i say that to a girl

didn i swear not to hurt a girl's feeling since that incident in sec 2.
when i scolded my friend in public?
what is wrong?
even if i had to erupt. do i need to do that.
my frequency is totally different from grps of ppl now


i just feel damm bad now..
i am just so tactless.
haiz..
i wish to open up. i wish to be back at my old frequency. but
i just can't do it.
i feel that as if something is obstructing me.

my body doesn't move for what i do
my heart doesn't beat for what i feel
my mind doesn't work for what i think.
oh well.

despite all the negative stuff yesterday.. there was something positive.
i have managed to overcome everything yesterday night.
my 6th urban hike.
my 4th solo one.
i managed to reach bedok in just under 3 hours. from dhoby ghaut.
but i still think i could have done better.
cause i was too tired and exhuasted by the time i reached tanjong katong.
and too bloated with water.

everyone please ignore what i say nowadays. for what u noe. i might just be talking crap, and hurting u.

cause i really don mean what i say.
its just a part of me i can't erase these days...
and lastly.


sorry to all those i hurt.
although i know it doesn't cure.
but still. sorry

y h