Thoughts

i feel so much like blogging now.. not exactly blogging.. rather. writing.

yesterday, went campsite, did some evacuation, watched some ndp stuff.
saw denise and said hi finally. LOL. i couldn recognise la. oops.

then first time did cradle carry without cramping which was good la..

i had a stomach ache from the morning.. applied medicated oil... it lasted...well..

played basketball.. had a good, small talk.

dinner at su yin hse. and then the darn ache came!

i was ren ren ren. haha. uno mental stress and piano music had helped me. but not for long. haha..

then as i took the bus home, i reflected on some thoughts...

i realised , or rather, other ppl around me realised that yong hock has diff frequencies afterall..

one moment he can be so lame. the other, he can be in solitude, silence, the next he could be angry...

so i wondered
with other frequencies .
izzit diff. or easy for me.
or
others to take it.
most impt,
how easy was it for me to tune back ...
it has been tough..
but i just thought abt it.
i know that tuning my frequency could be as easy as tuning a clock..
but could be as difficult as tuning a musical instrument..

it all depends on me.
whether i wanted to stay in that frequency..
or move on.

so that was abt it...


and another thought came to my mind..

i always wondered.. how much pain i can take.. before i finally fall.
i always thought abt it, during urban hikes.. training camps...
everytime i thought that it was the extreme i can go to.. my body always proved me wrong..

each time, my limit for pain was increased..

maybe there is really no limit for my pain barrier..
or maybe, i just couldn find it yet.


still got lots more to type...

but i guess. put it to the back of my mind..

and just do nothing now...


y h