The unintended 4 letter word

I brought with me a heart so frail and left
I know that i no longer hold a place in your heart
Though we used to be together
However to you ,
Those memories ain't worth a remembrance

I brought with me a heart so frail and left
I know for myself have no more strength to say bye
Though we used to be together
However to you ,
Those memories ain't worth a remembrance

Is it really destined ,
That i can never truly possess your everything
Is it that i tried so hard ,
Just to bear the loneliness ?

I know that you do not dare to tell me the truth
I wonder if that is to see me in my pain and destruction
Though you never said you wanted to leave
I long felt that your heart has flown away

If you still love me
You won't just let me lie in your ignorance
Furthermore let me get by long nights slowly
Just to walk around with no reason

If you still love me
You won't just let me lie in your ignorance
And i can just hold back my tears
and leave silently


Translating Ru guo ni hai ai wo(If you still love me) by Guang Liang is so difficult.

As i sat in the bus yesterday evening.
I wondered just what i have become.
The promise of love has gone bleak ever since. And though i am happy with my current life, i longed for that feeling that i shared with one special girl, though just well on my part, again.
Yet, i know that this feeling will not return to my grasp for some time. But, how time passes. It just seems like eternity since last year.

Love, as people put it as a four letter word often unintendedly, reflects several different views like a kaideloscope. Love, as some may want to put it as, can be as hurting and piercing like the shattered glass scattered on the floor. Or, it could be the wonderful and heavenly feeling.

Although i don't deem myself as a love expert, nor an expereinced veteran, i do have views that an ordinary man will have. I do not have any prior relationships to share of, nor any earth shattering breakups to cry for. However, i do share the same feelings as those whom have just fallen in love, gotten into a relationship, or those on the verge of a failed relationship.

For myself, i know the wonders of love. Unfortunately, i understand the pain of love too. The results of love is not as disastrous as other people may put it in. Yes, i agree that it is beyond the pain you can endure physically when you get hurt in a relationship.

But, how often do people marvel at love, because of its healing powers rather than havoc?

Love brings out the best in each individual, and the worst.
For me, love changed me drastically. How often you can see the worst groomed individual transform into a being of pride, sense and delight?

When i was fervently in love, how much i love myself then. Afterall, in order to love someone else, you must learn to love your ownself beforehand. How much i remembered that before each so called date, i will groom myself to my very best, get a nice shave, put on gel to perfect that crop of hair, in the end, turned out to be a fashion disasterbut yet could still laugh and smile.

How much i desire that cafferine while indulging in a world of own. But sadly, every nicely put detail will meet an end. every 2 lines drawn will have a shape. Good or bad, the fate lies in the hearts, not just yours. I won't curse myself over that failed relationship, though i will regret decisions that i foolishly made.

Because, in the very end, i understood that for sure, love erased my bad habits, gave me motivation to tone that body, work out, and lastly,

Love made me a man.


Now without love, i am surviving well, though some bad habits have returned. What irony. But hey, now, i share a certain kind of love with my friends, family and all around me. They not only made me a man. But , a better man.


y h

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