Kebebasan

Kebebasan.

Freedom in malay.

today, or rather yesterday at 11.59.59pm was my last second of freedom.

anyway. how do u judge freedom? leisure? doing wat u like? doing wat u want? no restrictions?

i guess it could be any of those ba.


From tomorrow onwards, it would be never the same anymore.
aids memorial 2006. how well i remembered aids memorial 2004. how much i remembered trying to find her, yet couldn't and struck by a killer sentence.

" Don bother finding her, she's with him. "

Well. its 1 yr since. i shdn brood over it.

I was thrown into deep thought as i stood in the train today.. i saw many young siblings.. some playing with each other, some enjoying each other's comfort.. some won't give way to each other.. but yet remain on close terms.

what am i to my brother?

I so much want to find out. i so much yearn for him to read this post, though i am pretty sure he won't get to read these lines.

its been a long long time since our last childish quarrel set us apart. in the past, there were many quarrels and fights. but everytime we got back by wrestling with each other..

but the last fight seemed to have sizzle all tat we had.

and if i am correct, i was the one who started it.

And he din even retaliate. I knew he was weaker than i am. yet i threw punches at him, kicked him out of anger.

From then on, i knew it was over. How much i regret tat. Getting angry with him over such a small and trival stuff..

today, he left his hp on my desk b4 leaving for soccer... then i out of curiousity read some of his msgs (well i know it is wrong.. but.)

he replied in response to his friend's question of where he was.

" i at home nw with my bro ah. doing nothing much. "

i was very touched by the "with my bro"

i do hope some day we will patch back.. right now its too awkward... though i tried and he tried..


next, i was really skeptical of myself before asking yl if i can join.. cos .

well.. this is a reason within my own heart.. so well...

but last, though the beginning i tried too hard to push it .. after a few games of dota with sganime... i felt more comfortable.. the feeling is just great..

they are a bunch of fantastic ppl. i truly consider them to be one of the best grps of ppl i have known..

i'm really glad by a motivational line by u.

me : its been a long time since my last outing.
u : isn this counted as an outing?

=)


on a lighter note.. i now can drive daytona beginner on manual!!! i can use manual gear to drive!!!.. yay!!


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