pardon me

just after bloggin, i restarted computer.. and i just got temptation to blog. haha.

sch has been ongoing for 4 weeks.. yet the feeling is not there.. sure my classmates from all the classes are friendly.. especially.. mervin, jeremy, cheryl, lois, aini.

but.

the feeling just isnt there..

i only talk to them when i see them, and its abt sch stuff..

perhaps it takes time.. but.

still. my secondary sch mates, red cross mates, .. i am so comfortable with them that i opened up to them everytime.. i will be my true self whenever i am with them..

right now. none of the ppl in tp (other than hafizah) knows my blog. and to me. my blog address is only given out when i really can accept the person to read, and i am really open with them.

right now, none of the ppl i know shares the same type of warmth with me..

take today.. i was really upset abt something i did subconciously.. i wasn even aware.. yet i got this line

" why you not going home? are you waiting for us? "
" er.. no. just watching. "

" ok, i 'll shut up. "
" not only tat, i want u to get lost instead. "

though this stuff could be said out of impulse, or of the heat, or a joke.. i am truly not the type of person who can stand it.

outside i am a hard shell. u hit me for all u want. but inside i am real soft. i am a damm emotional guy i admit. a snag. watever. i do wat normal guys don do. i appreciate emo songs more than pop or rock. i share the same thinking tat the show ah hock has. for 1 yr plus, i brought her out to movies, and almost all the times, its just at starbucks. never held her hand, ... but still i thought of her to be my gal. in the end, out of nowwhere.. she suddenly has a boyfriend.

hai. i gt to break out sometime by typing.. cos now without basketball... or cycling.. i can only write.

haha.

anyway.

i do think tat my sch has a unique way of orientation 4 weeks ago.. we were grped according to different courses.. while most schs is same course.. this has really emabled me to know lots of ppl.. in such a short time... i think our bonding is really good. as in, the seniors will take care of juniors.. and the cleaners will even dance with u! however. i am not at a stage of opening up yet.

maybe sooon..

y h

Let me say " I love you "

primary sch

i am notoriously or preferably famously known to many as mr quek, ducky, yong tau foo, quek.
i play soccer almost every other day under the void decks with wil cheong, wee kian, my bro, a couple of other ppl.. rickson..
i play soccer in sch, and i had talent then (oops)
i scored my first acrobatic goal from half court(not halffield) when i somehow hit the ball while landing on my buttocks and the ball somhow hit the cone and went in.

my mother gelled my hair and i became some silly looking freak in primary 6 after the psle.

my first white hair grew after the psle (cos i studied?)

To prevent myself frm being caned or stripped down to underwear , i studied very hard from pri 1 to pri 4. in the end, my results read:

science : 48.5/50
maths:50/50
chinese:49/50
english:i think is 36.

after tat i got too proud of myself.. and slacked..

until my tuition teacher threatened to let jing hao be tutored by her too. she tell me she want me to compete with him. he was top of class. i was 2nd.

in the end, psle read:

maths: a*
chinese: a
english: a
science: a

my maths was expected of me. becos i was in special class already. during pri 4, i was studying pri 5 maths.

pri 5 and 6 , i spent time going early to sch, cos i was selected for buddy reader. haha.


secondary sch

i was known as quek, quekie, hock, ah hock, si ah hock

i played in sec 2 interclass soccer for 2e.

i got celebrated as the best defender in the class when i made a sliding tackle out of nowwhere when the striker got an open goal with the goalie down. he appealed for penalty but both me and ref said tat was a fiar and excellent tackle (i praising myself) . as a central defender , i made impact when i tackled here and there. but a pity my team did not get in to the knock out rounds.

sec 3 i have started playing bball. although i know i suck at it. i was part of the team tat included, jeromy, chia, jimmy and me

i scored a memorable 2 points when i collected a huge rebound and hit it in. our team were trailing 17-7 when i tried to hit an alley shot. i got pressurised and missed the shot. then jeromy shoved me and hit me (although it was not painful, i was shocked) we lostin the semi finals.

sec 4, i am so proud of myself when i completed my artefact and my folio... from a gonecase to an A1 is something i am damm proud of. considering i lost my folio 2 mths b4 submission. national average was 17.7% distinction, our sch got 91.7% disctinction. after tat yr, our sch was made the centre of excellence for technical skills.

mid yr l1r5 - 41
prelim - 28
o level - 19

i am damm prouid of my progress.

i thought i gonna blog abt something else too.. but then com too lag.

Ah hock

this show has been showing for 2 nites already... and i think tat show is very uncanny..

first nite already, ck , max sir, and yee long say " eh look and act really like u leh! "

haha..

so i watched.

today jeremy too said. erm. haha

in some aspects yes. but overall.. hmm i think i would have a mindset like him. though different in some areas..

so all ah hocks share the same characteristics and mindsets eh?

haha.. but tat show is my first chan 8 show in quite a long long time.. i think i will watch the entire series.. curious ma.

haha


today colours lesson. was quite fun. but the assignments keep piling heavier and heavier..
1st week so slack. 2nd week colour wheel.. ok still manageable..3rd week colour schemes.. its getting on a load.. now 4th week.. i dunno how to describe the assingment but its kinda heavy like a boulder liao.. i wonder now.,. 5th week and subsequent weeks.. the load will be unbearable..

but i will hang on!

today first time using charcoal.. own self teach own self.. haha. quite dirty and fun..

visco lesson i will always look fwd to.. cos the lecturer made it so interesting and fun. haha. i even had the time to link a metaphor to him. haha.

at first thought visco is so scary.. as wat other ppl under nancy would put as.. but pete sam.. made it so nice. haha..

oh ya. he has huge expectations of us.. but i can't wait for this course to end.. cos when the module ends.. i would want to fulfil his expectations of being a good presenter with my work and talk like how a designer would..

tml lighting studies module. haven touch anything yet. later do the research.. then tml got time, make my model and do compo for my shoebox exhibition.,...

out of the week..

i rate

tuesdays as the day i would look fwd to
monday as the day i would try to excel
wednesday as the day i hate. but alot of work for me to study on wed.
thursday as the heaviest workday.. as of now.. i have 2 ongoing projects on this day... other way of seeing things shoebox exhibition + portfolio + 4 essays for comdi, and landmark competition to be held in japan (best entries get picked to be sent) for space and form exploration.
friday as the day i am least experienced with, but learning quick. its the autocad usage day. wher aida leaves at 11am, while we do our work with a confused look. haha

today i oso tidied , reorganised my desktop, cardboards.. so tat i can place my art materials in aplace, so tat i won need to look all over the place next time. and its really much cleaner now.. i didn expect myself to spend close to 2 hours doing it. but i am happy with the result now. haha.

ok.. taking a short break.. later gonna do my work for ligst.. then tml go sch print again.. the uncle must be shocked at the rate i am coming. haha.. blame it on my printer and budget!!


y h

today is such a day man..

i can only miss 2 lectures of any subject 2 times.. and i wasted one today..

just because i assumed and thought that today lesson is at 3pm instead of 12pm....

though i did hand in my work.. i was marked absent.. hai.. and i think today i missed out on quite a lot of stuff.. so i am being swung to the disavantage again.. with 3 hours. and my attempts to print out 3 pictures isn doing me well.. the diskette think got problem

so wat a day..

and in case no one knows.. i bought a new phone and i am comfortable with it.. 239 bucks for a camera and video phone, with speaker, 65k, infrared, mp3 player.. so it isn too bad eh?


ulp last contact session.. quite a good one.. but towards the end got some views .. hmm i think tats for my silent rants instead of dreamythots.

Screwed.

here i am using a ' High Tech ' internet browser to blog.

but on the other hand.. i just realised tat i am so crippled now..

i have a project to do. the art musuem project.. but.. the art musuem closes at 7pm.. and our grp originally scheduled to visit it tml.. after our lessons at 6pm..

BUT. yes. 7pm. how to reach?

then today morning, thankfully.. after 24 hours of non service.. my dysfunctional phone worked.. for just to receive the msg.. i wanted to reply my grp mate.. to meet tml at 10am.. then rush to lessons in cab.. but somehow or rather.. my phone chose to die on me at that crucial moment...

now i need a phone. whatever phone.. but i can't use any... my fathers at home.. but. he won lend it to me now.. i tried b4. he refused. and it was 4 days ago tat i tried...

i feel so deprived.. but now the project seems to be in jeopardy... i hope my grp mate can get the initiative to organise the rest to meet up tml at my request of 945am at city hall control station... but if nobody turns up tomorrow.. then i shall have still to do the site visit myself and then update them.. but hope they turn up.. cos there is seriously alot of work to do for the site visit....


so i declare. i am saving money to buy a phone.. cos my mum and dad won buy for me. so far. today i have saved 20 bucks.. but i reckoned half of tat gonna get used up tml when i rush cab back to lessons....

hai.

my bank acct left 600 odd bucks.. after the construction fee... from 2k plus to 400bucks.. then i top up 200 bucks frm my pay.... in the worst case.. i am gonna draw out the 200 bucks meant for my end year back to my hometown money... to buy a new hp..

i reckoned i need at least 400 bucks to buy a good and working hp.

so now i have 220 bucks.

180 more to go. 1 week i aimed to save 20 bucks.. which means it will take me 7 weeks. but. it will be too late... my phone has died today. it din survive tat long... and how i wished i nvr anyhow spend my pay.....


on lighter terms.. i got some praises frm lecturer today... for my drawing.. which is.

but its motivational la.



y h

Isolated

yeah sometimes i just feel so isolated.. eating lunch alone, walking to the room alone to find everybody already there, standing alone at the bus stop. walking home alone.

ya. this is the usual life i lead.

but theres just something wrong.

i am not having enough social life as my sec 4 yr...

but i am contented with it.

i don want to make the same mistake i made in my studies.



oh well..

on another side.

C is pretty and cute. but. u know wat la.
LOL

i am just fantasing. but i know when to snap back to reality.

why didn i tell my grp my blog address?

well becos i don know them well enough to give them this address..

they are not close enough to enter my dreams.


but. if i do choose to entertain ppl on my blog.. i will tell them abt it. haha

hopefully soon.


y h

Red River Valley


From this valley they say you are going
We will miss your bright eyes and sweet smile
For they say you are taking the sunshine
That has brightened our pathways awhile

Come and sit by my side, if you love me
Do not hasten to bid me adieu
Just remember the Red River Valley
And the cowboy who loved you so true

I've been thinking a long time, my darling
Of the sweet words you never would say
Now, alas, must my fond hopes all vanish
For they say you are gong away

Do you think of the valley you're leaving
O how lonely and how dreary it will be
And do you think of the kind hearts you're breaking
And the pain you are causing to me

They will bury me where you have wandered
Near the hills where the daffodils grow
When you're gone from the Red River Valley
For I can't live without you I know



this is my personal primary school favourite song.. its also my favourite red cross song.. from primary school.. as a link.. every training, i would yearn to sing this song..it has such a lovely tune and lyrics..


ah.

i miss the red river valley