Music in the silence of the night


hah.

i love this. being able to indulge in the music that inspire u the most at the moment,
in the midst of a calm and peaceful night.

had quite a time today, batch outing. quite fun. childhood days. haha.

rather short post eh? cause i have nothing much that is heavy on my mind.

alright.

y h

shall i be the one for you?
who pinches you softly.. but sure...

Eyes on me


Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

* Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming


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i got a sudden craving to play ffviii after playing it for the first time in secondary school/primary school (cant remember), cause my memory card got stolen after i almost got to disc 4. so i went down desperately to find the pc version of the game. went down to comic connection, sad only got ffvii but managed to find it in the game stall beside it. so yeah bought the game and chiong.

finally finished the game today, beating omega and ultimercia.

and savoured the ending.

i love the part when laguna visited raine's grave. i think that part is the most touching in the whole game, more than squall and rinoa. after all, this song, is meant for laguna.

laguna with his buddies ward and kiros would always visit these bar where they would watch julia perform a piano piece, hence the lyrics. laguna got a crush on julia, julia kind of like him too. then she invite him to her room, to get to know him better. in the end, it was abruptly stopped when laguna got orders for a mission. in the mission, he nearly died but was nursed back to health by raine in winhill.

julia thought laguna had died after a long absence. She finally composed the song, Eyes on me, while in her distress, general caraway took care of her, and she married him, and gave birth to Rinoa. However, julia would never get to see laguna again, as she died in an accident when rinoa was 5 years old.

meanwhile, laguna fell for raine and they shared a romance which many in their village disapproved as they felt that laguna would only serve to harm raine. in a turn of events, ellone (raine's daughter) was kidnapped by esthar's soldiers by orders of sorceress adel. Laguna went to esthar in hope to save her, but he didnt know in the mean time, raine had given birth to his son, and her last wish was to see laguna once more before she died of illness. that never happened, as laguna went to esthar. so therefore, the son was sent to Edea's orphanage.

So you can roughly guess it, Squall is Laguna and Raine's son. Laguna would return to Winhill after the rescue but he found out raine has passed away. He then took away the photo in raine's pub/house that contains picture of raine and squall.

Ellone tried to use her powers to sent Squall back to time to try to help her fulfil raine's dying wish, but couldnt. and then begins the love story of Rinoa and Squall.

lol. sorry for the spoilers but just feel like typing it. argh. the grave part is just so touching!

time to get back to serious work though, have to do my portfolio soon. shall start tml

y h

Its amazing how my itunes manage to play songs that suit my mood everytime.
and it played this song, which i seldomed hear. but in the silence of the night, i tried listening to the lyrics and well. it sort of. cheer me up. by the corrs. everybody hurts.


When your day is long
And the night
The night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life
Well hang on

Don't let yourself go
Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
(When your day is night alone)
Hold on, hold on
(If you feel like letting go)
Hold on
If you think you've had too much of this life
Well hang on

Cause everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts

Don't throw your hand
Oh, no
Don't throw your hand
When you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, you're not alone

If you're on your own
In this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much
Of this life
To hang on

Well, everybody hurts
Sometimes, everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes

And everybody hurts
Sometimes

So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
(Everybody hurts
You are not alone)

.
alright just let me scream here.


AIFNSIOFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFNFSMFIOSSFMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMO
SFMOOM.........

tears.

anger.

everything.

GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me and Myself

I inadvertedly saw the title of my blog.

me and myself.

and inadvertedly visited jason's and other friends blog.

visited my blog again.

and remembered the sms that i got just a while ago.

theres a cold air around it. in fact. the air is so still. that it reeks of loneliness.


so all these while, has it been just me and only myself who has travelled this journey?

well. argh. i am just feeling. left out.

sometimes the negativity is just getting into my head to much of a time. everytime i want to move on, my mind restricts me, and reminds me i havent found the key to unlock the next door. i am stuck in this capsule of time when there is really nothing for me to look to. everytime i get an inspiration i lose it and a huge chunk of my confidence gets taken away. i dunno whats wrong with me, i am a freak for thinking this far, even though the years has come and gone. sometimes i just look at myself, thinking i want to progress, but i just cant. i wished everything that has happened hasnt and i wished i was still in my mum's stomach.


y h