Subdued/accomplished.


Top 5 songs buzzing up my h-shuffle:

Vivian or Kazuma - moment
Tamaki Nami - believe
The All American Rejects - It ends tonight
Hinder - Lips of an angel
Sum 41 - In too deep


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I realised i always posted bad negative stuff or good positive stuff in entries. so today im gonna mix both of them.

the past week, ive been working (zzz) , sick while trying to go donate blood again, end up 3 days later play soccer.

soccer was good as i finally showed some form. i thought i had more stamina and could last longer, maybe it was cos i had good teammates.

after soccer on sunday, i had the usual terrible headache + sunburn, cept tat sunburn ended fast next day, but the headache raged me for 3 days.

resulting in monday blues, tuesday torment, and today it went off finally.

work on mons and tues was terrible. on monday, the hr announced tat boss (mww) was giving a treat and asked for preference of either fri or sat dinner.

she asked everyone except for me. even asked the new colleague whose first day at work. somemore in front of me. sometimes i feel if the company knows of my existence. i get ignored. not exactly ignored, but u get my feeling.

nvm, i'll persevere, though still hope on fri something happens. 2 weeks + of lonely lunch is tortorous. evry day i dread lunch. its so lonely. im almsot a mute at work.

tuesday was worse. i felt really pain in my head, and my work was bad bad bad.

i was told by winnie i made a terrible serious mistake and i felt all guilty abt it. doing details but not paying attention to details.

i felt as if it was sch man. i came here to improve, not to maintain. that day, i really cmi, so went home after 6.30.

today was kind of better. first thing morning, richard sms me he not coming, sick. that gives me time to finish/start doing on my load of work. alas, i did spend 4 hours on a single detail. it really satisfies me and im proud of it. after lunch abit jaded as usual, but i did ammend all my mistakes on the previous load, and i was pretty satisfied. i think i satisfied winnie too, though she has yet to see the stuff when i left.

its a long day tml, 4 drws haven convert/draw + another 4 drws left sections.

but i came here to learn right.

im gonna prevail.


y h