here i am, in hq using p2s com.

waiting for her come down to settle link camp logs.

have no idea why im not having the i-just-wanna-go-home-and-sleep feeling today.

i want my dinner !!!

man can they finish their meeting in like 0.133050802 seconds?


some random thoughts.

recently ive been struck by my inner self. maybe its surfacing again. the feeling the mood to be ok, alright as defined by society.

and ive been really stuck on something tat is making me ponder a while. maybe not that important, but because of 2 close factors.

one . the interactivity and communication tat is being channeled to me.

two. the type of person channeling the above to me.

all these just seems to be reminiscent of what had been missing for 3 years.

yeah that four years of friendship, or 3 good years of company, all fell apart due to an event that has emotionally(some say physical too) scarred me for past 3 years.

to my best buddy:

i know you are a different type of person from me.

maybe i would say more forceful. maybe i would say more passionate, maybe i would say more daring.

but when it comes to the problem you are facing now, i would say we have both been in the same stage before.

the starting is tough. the reality is hard to accept. the nonchalent reaction you have gotten, so have i, the period after that incident was very tough for me to handle, i cried in sleep, i ran in the rain, i did everything possible to harm myself.

but in the end, what i couldnt change is one dreadful word, which is the fact.

events can come and go, yet we are still stuck in the past, trying to think whats gone wrong, why the person must do that to you, which the level of tactlessness.

but in the end,

its either move on, or stay there and hurt yourself.

i'd say change, for the better, which im glad you're doing.

in fact, your learning curve seems to be way steeper than mine.

dont rush, theres still time,

i know we can still find the one, the truly yours one, someday someday in our lives.

if i can survive 3 years of stagnant activity so can you!

jiayou